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All Chapters of Too Late for Regret: My Husband and My Son: Chapter 171 - Chapter 180

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Ophelia's POV I tossed the phone on to the hotel bed, so hard that it bounced two times before landing. My chest went up and down with rage. Not simple rage, this was the kind that pushed against my ribs, made my head feel like it would break open.How could this be? How was it that after all I did, after I told him the huge thing of all, that I was having a baby Julian still picked to go back to Vivienne?It was strange. Painful. Humiliating.I sat on the edge of bed, holding my flat belly. I knew I had told a fib to Julian, just to catch his eye. But for some reason, even this "baby bump" wasn't enough to pull him all the way to my side."God," I said, leaning down and putting my face in my hands. "What more do I have to do huh?"I sat up and looked all over the hotel room. It was bright, chilly, too tidy, too quiet. There was no Julian. No Maximilian. No feeling that made me feel wanted.Why did he keep going back to that

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Ophelia's POV I didn't mind how. As long as at the end, he stayed with me. Because I had gone too far to turn back now?I stood up, my jaw getting tight, my eyes looking straight ahead like I could see something only I knew. And in that moment, I knew one thing for sure: I wasn’t gonna lose. I wasn’t going to just let all be taken from me without a fight.I got up and began walking around the room, my fingers getting caught in my hair with upset.I was pregnant. That should have been enough. Even if it was a lie.Wasn’t that the classic reason that made a man stay? Shouldn’t that make him feel responsible? Shouldn’t that bind him to me?But Julian was different.If anything, he seemed to be pulling away more. Colder. More distant. More focused on his “sick woman.”As if I didn’t matter.As if I was nothing.Especially after I told him I was scared to be alone and he said:“Do whatever you want. Vivienne comes first.”

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Ophelia's POV I looked at myself in the mirror. "I can't look mad. I have to look like I need him but not too desperate."I knew how to do this. I had done it before. I knew when to be quiet, when to talk, when to seem strong and when to look sad.This time I had to look sad in the right way.My fingers opened my phone. My thumb was over Julian's contact. I thought about what to say and how to say it. I even thought about the pauses to make it sound real.Maybe I shouldn't call him now. That would be much.A text would be better.Something to make him worry, think and come back.I bit my lip and started typing then deleted it. I tried again looking for the words. Words that didn't sound fake but touched his spot."Julian I'm not feeling well." I whispered, testing it. Then I added in my mind, "I feel dizzy and I'm alone."That was enough. Not too much. Not too dramatic. Just e

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Vivienne's POVMy steps felt really light. That was just because I was trying to make myself look that way. The truth is, my body was shaking a little and my head was spinning. It felt like all the blood in my body was moving slowly. This is what always happens after chemotherapy. Today it felt even worse.I stopped breathing for a moment. I tried to steady myself while the sound of the machines from the treatment room was still echoing in my ears. My body felt empty, not just tired. Like a part of me was left behind in that chair. The nurse walking with me was watching me closely matching her pace to mine. She had her hand near my arm like she was ready to catch me if I fell.“Take it slow, Mrs. Vivienne," she said softly. "If you feel dizzy we can sit down for a bit.”I shook my head a little even though it felt heavy. "I am okay, I can still walk," I said quietly, trying to sound stronger than I felt. I did not want to stop because I knew if I did i

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Vivienne's POV We reached a bench in the waiting area. I sat down slowly taking a breath trying to calm my body. It felt really drained.Julian crouched in front of me staring at me. "Be honest with me. You’re in a lot of pain aren’t you?" I looked into his eyes. They were filled with worry, panic and guilt. I didn’t want to add to his burden.“It’s not that bad." I said softly. "Just tired. It’ll get better." Maximilian sat beside me. He leaned against my shoulder. "Mom has to eat. You must be hungry." I smiled a little. Stroked his hair. "Yes you must be hungry too. You’ve been waiting for me for a while." Julian shook his head. "I’m not thinking about food, Vivienne. I’m only thinking about you.”I let out a laugh. My chest felt tight. ". I’m thinking about both of you. You probably haven’t eaten properly since this morning right? Come on, let's eat first. The hospital cafeteria is fine."Julian looked at

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Vivienne's POVWe finally got to the elevator. When the doors opened I stepped in slowly with Julian's help. I leaned a bit against the wall inside. It supported my body without me having to sit.Maximilian stood in front of me. He still held my hand. I looked at my face. I gave him a smile. I tried to make the worry on his face go away."Is there." I said softly. He nodded. I still looked anxious.The elevator went down slowly. In those seconds that felt really long I closed my eyes for a bit. I took breaths and gathered whatever energy I had left for the last few steps.When the doors opened on the ground floor I smelled food. It was faint. It was there. I opened my eyes slowly. I got ready to walk even though my stomach felt a bit queasy.We stepped out of the elevator. We walked down a corridor to the cafeteria. My steps were still unsteady. Not as bad as before. I kept telling myself I could do this. I just needed to hold on a bi

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Julian’s POVWe walked out of the restaurant slowly. Vivienne was still a bit unsteady on her feet even though she was trying to hide it. I was holding a bag with her medicine in it. Maximilian was walking ahead of us kicking stones on the hospital floor.When we got to the parking area the air from the sea felt warmer. The wind was carrying that salty smell. Vivienne took a breath, maybe to feel better, maybe to calm down."You probably want to go rest." I said softly. "Lets go to the apartment okay?"But she did not answer. She was looking at Maximilian, who had stopped near the railing. He was staring at the ocean. The sun was shining on the water and the waves were sparkling. Maximilian looked really happy.I stopped too. I looked at the ocean. He was standing there still like he was afraid to blink. The ocean was huge. The waves were rolling gently. For a moment everything felt a little better than it had in the hospital.Th

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Julian's POV "I know." To be honest I wasn't entirely sure I believed it. I kept my hand close to Viviennes ready to catch her if she needed help. We strolled slowly along the path toward the beach. Maximilian was already ahead running and laughing. His laughter carried back to us in the wind. It made everything feel a bit lighter. Vivienne walked beside me. Her steps were careful and slow. There was something different about her face now. She looked more alive than when we left the hospital. "He's really happy." she said quietly. Her eyes were fixed on Maximilian. I nodded. "Yeah." I said briefly. Then I looked at her. "You look a bit better too." She smiled slightly. "Maybe I needed this too." I didn't respond. I just looked at her for a second. Then I turned my gaze again. I let her words hang in the air between us. We took a few steps. The beach came in

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Vivienne’s POVThe sky changed color slowly. The bright blue turned into an orange then it got darker and turned into a calm purple color. The sea breeze felt earlier but now it was starting to sting my skin a little.I was still sitting on the sand watching Maximilian run along the edge of the waves. He would come back to our sandcastle every now and then to fix it. It was already falling apart. He did not give up.My body was not cooperating with me anymore. My head hurt a lot. My bones felt heavy like something was pulling me down. Even breathing felt harder than usual.I closed my eyes for a moment trying to hold everything. This time I knew I had reached my limit.I called out to Julian softly.Julian turned around like he was always waiting for me to say something.I gave him a smile even though it was hard to do.“I am tired." Just those two. Everything changed.Julian stood up without sayin

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Julian's POVJulian walked out first and opened my door. "Be careful." He held out his hand.I took his hand without saying anything. My hand felt cold next to his.Maximilian was already standing beside me ready to help. "I will take care of Mom too." I let out a laugh. "So now Mom has two people looking out for her.""We are both strong," he said proudly.With Julian and Maximilian helping me I stepped into the apartment. Every step felt like walking on something that might give way.As soon as we got inside I really wanted to lie down on the bed. Before I could Julian spoke up."Vivienne, do you want to eat dinner?" he asked gently. "I can get you something to eat. Maybe some warm porridge."I shook my head slowly. Just thinking about food made me feel sick again."I am not hungry." I said quietly. "I just want to sleep."Julian looked unsure. "You need to eat something, Vivien

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