Head Over Shoulders のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 41 - チャプター 50

I can't tear my eyes away from either of them. I don't know what they're saying, but I feel like I shouldn't know. My head is spinning and I feel so nauseous. The level of attachment I have to Vicky is insane. Unhealthy too, but primarily insane. I call after Jesse as he goes upstairs. "Hey babe. I'm going to go out for a few drinks. Be back tomorrow."He complains as usual, but he still lets me leave. I don't go just yet though. I go to the normal place my bike is parked. From there, I can still see Magnus and Vicky. Vicky looks almost uncomfortable. I want to separate them, but I've learnt not to interfere. Finally, the discussion is over and Magnus goes in first. I rush to Vicky before he can get in. He's expecting a positive reaction from me, but to hell with that. I grab his hair, not paying attention to how attractive he looks in this position. "What did he say to you?" I demand. "Nothing really. It's actually nothing important. You're over thinking things." He's lying I kno

I freeze. Like my body stops functioning. It's even more awkward because Ander is completely naked. He seems unbothered to say the least. "What is wrong with you?! What are you doing?!" Gideon screeches. He marches towards us and I instinctively use my hands to cover my face. He doesn't hit me, but Ander. Ander turns and hits him back. "If you want either of us, wait your fucking turn!"They're yelling and I'm afraid they'll attract attention. Once Ander is off me, I wear my clothes hastily and wait. For whatever Gideon will say. "You're a sick bastard. And I asked you. You had the guts to deny it. Are you alright?!" Ander puts on his sweatpants and heads for the door. Gideon pulls him back. "Are you being nonchalant right now?"Ander shoves his hand on his shoulder. "What else do you want me to say Gideon. Tell me what you want me to fucking say!""Wasn't he enough? He's amazing and you're cheating on his roommate. Neither of you have a conscience."Ander chuckles. "The more the m

Jesse isn't Gideon. Jesse doesn't throw a fit. Jesse stays there, feet planted to the ground. For once in my life, I don't know what I'm supposed to do. Vicky has already stiffened. "What's going on here?"Beside Jesse is Gideon. He looks rather happy that this is happening. Somehow, I know he's involved in Jesse finding out. I've been careful. I'm a reckless person, but I've tried my very best to be careful. They aren't supposed to know. Gideon wasn't to find out and Jesse wasn't either. "You're not going to say anything?" I push Vicky off me. He rushes to the bed to drape something over himself. Instead of a blanket, he dresses. I wordlessly pick my clothes from the floor and dress. Jesse has already started crying. I want to walk away but he pushes me back into the room. I actually let him. "What's wrong with you?! Aren't you going to say something? Explain your fucking self damnit." I look at everybody in the room. Jesse is crying, Gideon is disappointed. Vicky is scared. I

It's like I'm in a steam room. My vision is blurry and I'm sweating intensely. Faintly, I can hear a child screaming. I don't know where exactly I'm going, but it doesn't stop my feet from moving. It feels like I get closer and closer to the sound. That's when I realize, it's not just any random child. It's Angie. The speed I use to get up from my bed is intense. My bed is drenched with sweat and I'm breathing heavily. There's a trail of saliva running down my face. I can feel someone staring at me, and it's Jesse.He looks away and heads out. I jump off the bed, in time to hold his hands. "Can we talk?""I can talk perfectly fine. Talking with you, I'm not sure about that. Get your hands off me."I bite my lower lip. "I just want you to know I'm sorry. It was never my intention to hurt you a-""But you did it anyways. Save your trashy excuse for someone jobless. I've got things to do."I watch him leave the room, feeling like I can finally breathe now he's gone. Honestly, I feel lik

I pretend to be asleep, but I'm wide awake. I can hear Jesse moving his things. He's switching with Magnus . It's not so terrible because Magnus has treated me like a decent person. We don't talk much, that's for sure. But when we do, it's like he's forgiven me.When the room is emptied of Vicky's things, I sit upright. I'll miss him, but it's for the better. The awkwardness was hella suffoctaing. I'm ready to dress up for school when my phone rings. It's dad calling. I answer, place my phone to my ear, and summon up the courage to say something. "Hello. Vicky. Can you hear me? Hello?"I cough out an awkward hello. "I can hear you.""Good good. How are you? I'm sorry I haven't called in forever. I've been trying to secure a business deal, but I've finally gotten it.""Congratulations. I'm sure Mom is happy for you.""Yeah. So happy you might be having a sibling soon." Dad giggles as I choke on the air. "I'm just kidding. So how's everything? How are Jesse and Gideon. Magnus too?"I w