Head Over Shoulders のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 51 - チャプター 60

I don't even know why I bother setting an alarm. I have no desire to go to school at all. Maybe forever. Still, I don't silence it. I raise my head and grab my phone. It wasn't my alarm clock, but rather my ringtone.Why the heck would anyone be calling me by 7 am? I check caller ID. It's Magnus. This is the first time he's calling me. "Why the heck are you even horny by 7 am? Go masturbate and call it a day."As usual, there's no form of amusement in his voice. "Do you know what the time is? It's nowhere near 7 am."I do check the time and I'm speechless for a few seconds. It's not 7 am. It's 3.30 pm. I drank so much I passed out. "Oh. So what's up? Your hole is gaping in anticipation isn't it?"No matter how many nasty and unhinged things I say, this man here isn't affected in anyway. I'm sure he's marking scripts or something insanely boring. "Don't come to the house. Come to school." I drag myself out of the bed. I contemplate dressing and going, but I reek. I run a bath as opp

I'd much rather be asleep right now, but the sun is shining directly in my face. That and this massive migraine that won't let me think. I get up from my bed, but tip over the ever growing pile of empty alcohol bottles.The time is 11 a.m when I check it. It's a Saturday and I have absolutely no idea where I'm to go. Magnus and Johnny went for a stupid couples retreat and won't be back till tomorrow. I sigh, as I head to the kitchen. My breakfast is the same it's been for a few days now. An insane amount of sugar called cereal, soaked in whiskey. It's not healthy, but I've gotten used to it. My phone rings and the speed I use to grab it makes me loose balance. It's a waste though because it was just a spam call. Vicky was the only person that made me bother looking at my phone, but now, even he's not texting.I finish breakfast, I added a banana for nutrition and take a very cold shower. If the temperature could get any lower, I'd be happy. I take ages in the shower, but it's useless

Waking up has never felt so pleasing. Knowing that there's no drama, and there's probably something prepared by your extremely romantic boyfriend waiting for you is enough to make you wake up everyday. As predicted, Magnus has made me yet another heart shaped sandwich. It's sweet and everything, but not to be a bitch, but he's practically love bombing me. Buying me things, sending me cute messages and stuff like that. Owen says the reason it makes me uncomfortable is because I'm used to the kind of love Ander offers. Barely there and having me scrape for emotions. I mean it's technically true, but he didn't have to call me out like that. "Thanks for the sandwiches. They're cute."He kisses me -I can taste the coffee on his lips- and heads out the door. I smile, but I'm not smitten. "You're making me sick." I turn to Kyle equally dressed for school. I smile, hoping at least there's a blush on my face."It's because you keep pining for love you're never going to get," Gideon says. K

I don't want to get up, i prefer the ground. My lip and the gravel having no difference. I can feel my clothes soaking the blood from my bruised face and that fucker's knuckles. It's supposed to hurt, but I'm most definitely numb. Physically and emotionally.I knew coming here was a bad idea. But I couldn't help it. I just needed to see Vicky. Wether he looked at me with disgust or not, I needed to lay my eyes on him. Let the aching orbs kiss his freckles.I'm taking shallow breaths when I feel something hard hit me. Maybe it's Magnus coming in for a round 2. Well, it isn't. "Stop the bleeding at least. You're going to loose blood at this rate." I expect Jesse to walk away, but he just stands there staring at me. I muster every possible bit of energy in my body to sit. Like muscle memory, he stretches out to help me but stops midway. I lean on the half wall, staring at my blood. "Awn. Does Jesse care about me now?" I snort.He scoffs and snatches the box from my hands. "I'm sorry.

A LITTLE OVER 2 YEARS AGO.I'm on the basketball court. The only place that makes me feel like I'm truly alive. I bounce the ball, running around and dribbling my mates. Honestly, I could live here. Our arms are tired, so we lay to rest."You coming to the party later? There's gonna be a lot of fun people there. Hot girls even. You've been talking about having a girlfriend for a while now."Honestly, I don't mind going to party with Carson and the rest right now. I know the mess my home is in right now, and I'm not ready for it. I shoot a text to Angie, she'll be the only one worried enough to care anyways. "Okay, I'm down. I'm gonna take a shower and change so text me the address."My phone brightens up alerting me about a message. It's from Andrez. I've received so many of these and as much as they're entertaining, they're annoying. He's asking me if I'm at home. I tell him yes. He'll probably hang out with Angie or run into Ander. The locker room isn't the best place to style mys