The second week was easier than the first, and harder.Easier because the rhythms returned, Alex's hand finding mine in the dark, her voice in the morning, the particular weight of her head on my shoulder as we watched something mindless on television. The language of us, which I had thought forgotten, proved to be only dormant, rising to my lips like a mother tongue I hadn't realized I still spoke.Harder because the rhythms returned. Because each time she reached for me, some part of me flinched backward, remembering the months of empty space where that hand had been. Because trust is not a switch to be flipped but a bridge to be rebuilt, plank by plank, and I was still testing each step before I put my weight on it.She knew. She always knew. She would feel my hesitation in the tension of my shoulder, the fractional pause before I leaned into her touch, and she would pull back, give space, wait for me to bridge the distance myself. Never pushing. Never demanding. Simply present, pa
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