Alexander Li ChenKeeping my distance was harder than I’d expected. I played the game, ignored her name when it surfaced at every turn, told myself I was done with her. Coach hounded me about why I’d ended my sessions with Milena, as if there were a simple answer. “She’s in your head,” he accused. Maybe he was right. Rayven was less direct, but hardly subtle. He’d seen the way I watched her, the way I never let her out of my periphery. “Told you so,” he said, popping the cap off a beer after training. “Line like that, you can’t help but trip.” He said something about “proximity breeds fondness,” and I recognized the misquote, but let it slide. I was too tired to argue. Even my father, who was supposed to be occupied with matters of legacy and bloodlines, noticed. He didn’t buy that anything was over. “You don’t look finished to me,” he’d say, like it was a challenge.It was supposed to prove them wrong, but it was also supposed to prove something to myself. That I could be bigger
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