I looked at my reflection in the mirror, disgusted with myself. I was fucking nervous. When I realized it, I laughed out loud, because it was a ridiculous notion, but true. I wanted Kaelis to like me, I wanted her to fall in love with me. I wanted her to need me like she needed oxygen. I wanted her to crave me, like I craved her. It was sick, the way I wanted to manipulate things so I could have her, but I couldn’t help it. I understood exactly what Wilder was going through, looking at Arya every day and knowing he couldn’t have her. I knew Kaelis didn’t come from money, it was obvious from how she dressed down to where she lived. I didn’t want to make her feel self-conscious by taking her to a nice restaurant, but in the same breath, I wanted to give her everything she never had. For the first time in my life, I thought about what a girl wanted over what I wanted. I didn’t like the feeling all that much.I thought back to the conversation I had with Honor earlier that day. She was a
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