The morning after Tyler died, I made a list. I understood the irony of it as soon as I wrote the first line: Tyler was dead, and my response was to create structure around the absence.It wasn’t an attempt to make his passing manageable, nothing about it was manageable. It was simply the only way I knew to ensure grief didn’t breed carelessness.The person we were mourning had spent his life making sure important things were done properly, so his memorial needed to be worthy of him. Not impressive or overly ceremonial, just worthy.I sat at the table with the paper before me, dividing the work into categories: traditional pack elements, personal details, music, speaking order, seating, food, security, representatives from allied communities, location, and timing.I crossed out "security" because Tyler would have considered it obvious. I could already hear the dry tone he’d use if he saw it written down.For several seconds, my pen hovered over the page as a sudden paralysis took hold,
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