All Chapters of Lavender: A strong woman: Chapter 41 - Chapter 50

Once the kitten discovered everything about the house, she wanted to explore the outside, too. She asked to be let outside but when she was denied, she snuck out anyway when the master forgot to close the door.At first, the nature and the sun overwhelmed her with beauty. There were so many interesting smells and animals and she wanted to know everything about the garden.But then the sun disappeared.Dark clouds appeared, along with cold rain and thunder, and everything that was previously exciting and beautiful turned dark and frightful. She rushed to the door of the house but couldn’t snuck back in and nobody saw that she was stuck outside. She looked to the warm inside of the house wishfully, regretting ever wanting to find out what was hidden from her.It took an hour of shivering in the cold until she was discovered. When she was back in the warm home, she swore to never leave the house again.In the morning, all of us have an open disc

There’s a question which emerged in my mind many times since I realized my upbringing was a bit different from that of most people. I started noticing that people treated me differently, like they would treat an abandoned wild animal on the side of the road.Carefully, waiting for their unpredictable reaction.With time, I realized this was because I was emotionally damaged. At least, that’s what others call it. It’s what people who were not shown love and affection while growing up are named.The question I continuously asked myself was whether people like me could ever learn how to love and be in a happy romantic relationship. Can someone who wasn’t exposed to it learn it once they become an adult? I wish I knew the answer, but the only thing I know is if it is at all possible, it would take a shitload of work.Unfortunately, nothing in my life has ever given me the motivation to start working on it. Until quite recently.

The days pass by slowly with the only thing to look forward to being the shitty food. I don’t have any privileges such as phone calls or the access to the library so all I do is pace around the room and try not to think.There was no contact from Eli or from Atlas, so if I was lonely before, now I’m the loneliest person on the planet. To pass my time, I sometimes sit down on the floor next to the bars of my cell, trying to provoke my guard into paying attention to me and most often failing. I also sleep a lot. As much as I can, which leaves me unable to sleep for long periods of time so my sleep cycle looks like it’s fresh off Chernobyl. I sleep every two hours for two hours.Somehow, my biological clock adjusted to the meals so I can feel when the next meal is coming and I start to feel anxious and restless, pacing around the cell until the bell finally rings and the bars open, taking me to the cafeteria.I have a whole new respect for the ani

The next month passes by agonizingly slowly as I wait for my trial to finally come. I wish I’d done more interesting stuff in my life. That way I would at least have fun memories to think about, but the only fun memories in my life are those rare ones before I married Jim, and the ones with Atlas, but I’m trying not to think of those.“Were there a lot of people?” Anatalia continues bugging me about the court appearance from yesterday.“No, not really. I told you this.”“Yeah, but you said your ex’s family was there. I wanna know more.”I sigh. “His mum looked at me like I’d killed half the planet. That’s the only contact I’ve had with them. I’m sorry nothing interesting happened.”She scoffs. “You better be. I expected you to lash out and punch someone. Then you’d at least have a good story to tell.”I smirk. “You do it at your court appearance. See how you impress the judge with that.”She rolls her eyes and throws herself on her back. Her sleeves are pulled up, revealing completely

I and numerous other people in the courtroom gasp loudly. Not even James knew his body was discovered. Oh, this is really bad. I see James frown slightly.“Objection, your honour, the prosecution hid that information from the defendant.” James says and stands up but the judge orders him to sit back down while the lawyer prepares to finish his case.“Clearly, Lavender Page has had bad luck her entire life and when she had the opportunity, she took the chance to get her revenge and earn a large sum of money by killing her husband. She had a good reason, but she’s also dangerous and needs to be imprisoned and put away from society. Thank you.” He sits back down and the eyes focus on James who slowly stands up. It’d obvious he’s angry about not being told they found the body.My need to evaporate and cease to exist slowly disappears when James walks to the centre and chuckles. “I think it’s funny that anyone would believe someone her size could kill Jim, drag his body away and then bury i