*I'll tell you everything. You deserve that. Just not like this.* She stood in the doorway for a moment, looking at the chair where he'd been sitting, still slightly pulled out from the table. Her gaze settled on the empty chair, and a name rose in her throat before she could stop it. She didn't let herself say it. She couldn't, not until she knew. For the first time in two and a half years, her tears were not grief. For one second, just one, she let herself feel whatever this was, some possibility she had spent two and a half years keeping buried finally cracking open. Thank you, she thought, to the Almighty she turned when there was nothing else left, on prayer mats, in silence, in the hours of the night no one ever saw, the only One who had never left her. The thought settled somewhere she couldn't reach, refusing to become one thing, refusing to become simple. Some wounds refused to stay in the past, and this one was rising slowly, not all at once, piece by piece, enough to st
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