The first time it happens, I blame the tea.I am standing in the kitchenette, waiting for the kettle to boil. The room is spinning, a slow, nauseating carousel that makes my knees weak. I think it’s just the dizziness from earlier, the stress of the silence finally catching up to my inner ear.Then, the smell hits me.It’s just the smell of Earl Grey. Bergamot and black tea. A smell I have loved for years.But today, it smells like poison.It hits the back of my throat, a thick, oily wave of revulsion. My stomach contracts violently.I drop the mug. Shatter.I don't have time to clean it up. I scramble to the bathroom, my hands slipping on the linoleum. I reach the toilet just as my body rebels.I heave.It is violent. It isn't the polite sickness of a flu. It is a purge. My body is trying to expel something deep inside, something that has taken root.I retch until my ribs ache, until my eyes are streaming, until there is nothing left but dry heaves and the metallic taste of bile.I s
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