//VESPER//For days, his message festered in my mind. I forced myself to believe it was nothing. Just a taunt, just another push to see how much more I could take before I break. But the words burrowed deeper than I wanted to admit, settling into the cracks I tried to pretend weren’t there.Instead, I buried myself applying for a new job. Apply for everything, scouring listings for grocery stores, warehouses, and graveyard-shift, stockings, jobs requiring nothing more than a pulse and the stamina to be chewed up by the machine. My sent folder became a digital graveyard. When responses actually arrived, they were sharper than the silence, filled with ‘unfortunatelys’ and ‘position filled’ form letters that crushed the flicker of hope I’d mistakenly nurtured. I stopped reading them after the third, simply scanning for the rejection before closing the tab with a sigh.That night, I was obsessively reformatting my resume, trying to scrub the scent of failure off my history when the lights
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