All Chapters of SIN WITH ME FOR JUST ONE NIGHT: Chapter 51 - Chapter 60

"Boy, the best way to forget about that asshole is to move on to something better!" shouted David in my ear as he sipped on his whiskey coke.I knew deep down it was a terrible idea, but the alcohol in my system disagreed. David pointed to a hot guy dancing next to our group and switched places with me so I was closer to this guy.The guy was good looking, not gonna lie, but he didn't even come close to Felix.David whispered something to Maddox, to which he widened his eyes and winked at me.What did I have to lose?I grabbed this dude's arm and whispered in his ear on my tip toes: "Wanna buy me a drink?"The blond college student looked at me up and down and smirked. He placed his hand on my lower back and led me to the bar. Just feeling his hand on my body made me stiff, but I pushed through. After all, I had nothing to lose.I ordered another shot, bracing myself for what would happen. My head was spinning and I could barely see straight at this point.Without asking for each othe

I hit the blunt and let the leafy smoke fill every nook and cranny of my lungs. I leaned back on the couch, accidentally kicking my anxiety medication on the floor. I didn't pick it up because I wasn't going to need it.I needed something stronger, something immediate, something that would actually alter my thought pattern and make me forget.If Kent, Professor Agnes or my therapist knew I was smoking pot they'd kill me.As the drug made its way to my bloodstream, my tears dried up. I was no longer feeling nauseous or that knot at the back of my throat. I was just relaxed, fatigued even, and that tiredness helped me not only forget that I had too many missed calls from Blair on my phone, but also fall asleep without picturing him by my side under the covers.For the last month, when I wasn't painting or working, I was smoking weed, making this list of three things the only remedies to forget what a fucking piece of shit I was.Sometimes it backfired though, and these three created the

After our make up dinner, I proceeded with caution the next few weeks. Blair had all the right to be upset, and even though I did my very best to make him feel comfortable around me, I knew we needed to give things time to solidify once again.Looking back on that night, I was so surprised when he said he wanted to stay the night. It was all the confirmation I needed to truly believe that he was ready to move forward. I felt so relieved that he wanted to stay with me. Holding him close through the night showed me he felt safe in my arms, and knowing that he was comfortable enough to give me that trust reassured me so much.When I woke up the morning after, I did everything to make Blair feel appreciated and valued. I got up early and made him breakfast, serving it on a tray so he could have it in bed. I woke him up softly, not wanting to startle him. Blair opened his eyes slowly, but as soon as he realized I was carrying a tray full of his favorite foods he immediately sat up, coverin

Instantly after I saw his car, I saw him leaning against it with his arms folded. I froze and turned around, walking in the opposite direction."Blair!" Felix called my name. I cursed under my breath and kept walking, looking down. I knew he was getting closer by the sound of his shoes hitting the cold pavement, so I quickened my pace.When I felt his hand touch my shoulder, I jerked, pushing him away."Blair, Blair, please stop," he pleaded, trying to keep me from walking by taking hold of my shoulders."Don’t touch me!" I snapped, shoving his hands off. They were cold as ice."Alright, I won’t touch you, but please stop—let me talk to you," he said, hurrying his step to keep up with me.My pulse was pounding too fast, but not for the right reasons. I just wanted him gone—out of my sight.Realizing he wasn’t going to stop following me, I halted. He stopped too, abruptly. For the first time, I looked at his face. He looked wrecked—like he hadn’t slept in days."I don’t want to talk to

GaryI had only seen Felix lose his temper a couple of times, but it always frightened me when he did. I knew he could be aggressive and get angry when a situation tipped him over the edge, but what happened in his office made my bones rattle.After Blair left we were silent. I had amazing news to tell him about my new exhibition and wanted to surprise him, but after his student ran out of his office in tears, celebrating was the last thing on my mind.I asked Felix to explain what had happened. He told me Blair just kissed him out of the blue in the moment I walked in. He also told me he only registered that I was in the room once Blair looked up at me and his eyes widened."You didn't have to be so aggressive," I said to him in a low voice. I didn't want to infuriate him more. "He made a mistake, read the signals wrong. You can't blame him, you've been so nice to him.""Nonsense," he cut me off. "What signals? I never gave him any indication that I wanted anything with him. That's w