All Chapters of Alpha's Picture of Regret: Chapter 41 - Chapter 50

Silja POVI’m surprised by Gerard’s immediate reaction to this pregnancy and his decision to stay with me until I’m healthy. I know it’s for the pup’s sake more than mine, but still, I guess it’s nice not having to do this alone.I think my parents would help me, but it’s not the same as the father being present, I guess. There are no ‘what ifs’ in life, but I can’t help but wonder, what if we had met when we were both completely sober? What if we never met at all? He would be with Trina and I would be none the wiser, but then would I go the rest of my life without a mate, since he would have been with Trina?Last night was…comfortable until the unexpected happened. We had takeout, we talked and laughed. It was kind of like having a sleep over with Romy. I called her last night once I went to my room to sleep. I told her everything that happened and also about what Gerard said about Trina.“He literally used the word, ‘us’?” Romy asked.“Yeah. I mean, I’m not reading into lover. I thi

Trina POVThere is no way I am going to be bested by Silja. She is a nobody with a camera. Now that Gerard has broken things off with me for that bitch’s sake, I am calling his mother. She will help me and make things impossible for Silja and help Gerard see the errors of his ways.Then I will slip back in as the forgiving and loving woman he needs. I will even help raise their pup. The pup won’t be the saint of my devotion, but it will be clothed and fed. That’s as much as I will offer. Our pups together will have the best though.I dialed Viola’s number. On the second ring, she answers. “Trina, darling, how are you?”I let the tears flow. “Oh, Mrs. Sinnett. Gerard just broke things off with me for the photographer.”“WHAT?!” She said loudly. “I don’t believe it. He loves you so much.”“He did. That one-night stand resulted in her getting pregnant. Now she is carrying his heir and I’ve become expendable.” I cried. “I just wanted to call you and let you know that I won’t be coming back

Gerard POVGoddess her lips are sweet. At first, I felt her stiffen and I was worried she would break away from me, but then she put her hand on my chest slowly. I growled my approval. It was low because it didn’t want to startle her and this moment to end.I gently put my phone down and wrapped my free hand around her too. When she gasped, I didn’t think twice before exploring her mouth and tasting her flavor. I moved my fingers through her red hair and kissed her more urgently.I’m rewarded with a whimper and damn it; there is something very possessive coming over me. I want all of her whimpers, kisses, and everything else to belong only to me. I slowly move her and position her almost under me. I move my hand and feel her thighs. She’s wearing pajamas shorts and I’m inching my hand up and feeling her smooth legs and I hear her moan.I’m ready to explore more when my phone rings. I groaned as I broke our connection. A connection I was hoping I could explore more of and now I could st

Silja POV He admits he was wrong. That must be really hard as an Alpha to admit. He said it before, right? Alphas don’t like being told what to do. I don’t know any man honestly that would make himself this vulnerable for a woman, when he had another one waiting for him. ‘Because he isn’t lying, Sils.’ Pau said. ‘Terk says that Gerard could barely think when he saw you on the ground bleeding. He is doing everything he can to find out who is behind your kidnapping. He doesn’t believe it was only Donovan.’ I take that information and add it to every other confession of the last twenty-four hours. Then I remember one glaring detail. ‘He hasn’t said he loves me.’ ‘Sils, do you think a man who doesn’t love you would do all these things? He literally gave Trina the boot…in front of you. Told off his mother…in front of you. Give him an honest shot, and I bet he will say it soon. This isn’t just a confusing time for you. You aren’t even clear on your feelings for him, even though it’

Silja POVDid he seriously get jealous of a book boyfriend? That kiss left me reeling and full of desire. Desire that is too soon to have. Who knew he had a jealous streak? I certainly didn’t think he would be over me.‘Girl, have you not been going on dates and talking to him for weeks now?’ Pau asked.I scoffed inwardly, ‘Yeah, but that was before I decided to give him a chance.’Pau laughed, ‘Girl, stop overcomplicating this. He is waking up. It’s about damn time too. But you are too smart to act so damn ignorant. You want that man or you wouldn’t be feeling desire. You want that man, or you wouldn’t be sharing your portfolio. Just admit it. You want that man.’I shut Pau down and I sighed frustrated. Gerard doesn’t miss it either. “Everything okay?”He looks at me like maybe he did something wrong. I shook my head. “No Pau is just being difficult.” I said.His eyebrow went up and he smirked. “Oh? What about?”“Nothing. Are we leaving?” I asked.“Yeah, but we are talking about this…