Three months in.I was sitting in the north-facing kitchen with coffee that had gone half-cold, looking at nothing in particular, trying to give myself a few minutes between the last session of the month and the work of packing to go home. The active season was done. One month off, as the contract specified, and then back.I was trying to take an honest inventory.Inventory had always felt like the right word for this — not reflection, which implied something looser, but the specific discipline of walking through the shelves and noting what was there, what was low, what needed restocking.The cases: one of the two original deadlocks had moved. Not resolved — moved, which was a different thing, more honest. The parties were talking in a different register. Something had shifted in the quality of their presence in the room, a loosening of the tight, performed civility into something that had more of the real underneath it. I had contributed to that, in the patient way that had no signat
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