All Chapters of I Killed Myself, but I Did Not Die: Chapter 1 - Chapter 10

The fact that everyone was busy congratulating Edward, made it easier for me to sneak out quietly.A taxi was already waiting to take me to the Neutral Zone. My suitcases felt lighter than they ever had, the weight of ten years of pathetic devotion had been burned away with that letter.But as I rounded the corner near the grand staircase, the air grew thick with the cloying scent of lilies and expensive perfume I knew who wore them."Going somewhere, Sonya?"The voice was like a whip. I froze. Edward stood there, his high-collared formal coat draped perfectly over his shoulders. Tucked under his arm was Beth. In this light, she looked like a porcelain doll—pale, fragile, and utterly lethal."I thought I made myself clear in the text," Edward sneered, his eyes dropping to the luggage in my hands. "I told you to stay in your room. I didn't say you could drag your filth through the main hall while my guests are still here.""I'm following your instructions, Edward," I said, my voice ste

"I'll do the second part. But, for first my answer is No." I replied, my voice firm.Edward's eyes frowned. Not because I refused to apologise Beth but because how quickly I agreed to tell his parents I didn't want him anymore. He has never heard me say such words.A moment of panic passed through his eyes. Beth came forward, excited. "That will do, Ed if she can say that before your parents. An obstacle between us will be cleared off."But, he didn't answer. Instead, he reached for the heavy velvet curtain and pulled it shut, saying arrogantly, "A little sunburn will do nothing to you until you decide what's best for you, Sonya."He was leaving me to ash!He didn't know after rebirth my strength was weekend and I could not tolerate sun as much as I used to.I collapsed against the door, the rays hitting my shoulders like molten lead. I closed my eyes, bracing for the familiar agony of my previous death, when suddenly, a shadow, massive and cold, fell over me.The searing heat vanishe

"Sonya, dear... you’re upset," Amelia whispered, her voice cracking. "You don’t mean that. The blood-bond is not something you can simply discard. It is destiny.""If our bond was Destiny, you didn't have to force Edward, Aunt Amelia," I said, my voice steady. "I’m done. I don't want Edward. I don't want this bond. And I certainly don't want this house."Victor’s brow furrowed, his regal face hardening. "Is it because of that girl? If it is, Sonya, I will exile Beth from the Lightwood territories tonight. I will not have a vampire from other clan ruin our family.""No," I replied, and for the first time, a small, tired smile touched my lips. "Don't exile her. Let him have her. Let him bond with her, marry her, and give her all the titles he was entitled to give me. I am officially releasing him. From this moment on, Edward Lightwood is nothing more to me than a memory I’d rather forget.""You release me?"The voice boomed from the staircase, dripping with a mixture of disbelief and let

Victor and Amelia left after Edward after promising me that they would teach him a lesson for misbehaving with me and ask him to apologise me.But, I no longer cared. I did not want him to apologise to me, not even want to see him. I was simply done with him.I could not believe how disgusting a man could be. All of a sudden, he wanted me back the same woman he felt disgusted with, not because he realised my worth after loosing me, but because he felt his ego was hurt after seeing me with someone else.At the same time, he did not want to part ways with Beth. The way he avoided me and rushed to carry her, said it all.The thought of being in love with such a man for more than ten years just disgusted me.I took a long breathe before I made my ways out of Edward's house. However, before I could take a step out, two muscular men with broad shoulder held my hands from either side."Lord Edward has not allowed you to leave." They said, "You can't leave without his permission."Blood ran co

In the weeks that followed, the high society of the vampire clans was set ablaze. The headlines were relentless. The High Lord of the Lightwood Clan, once the most sought-after bachelor in the territories, was becoming a public laughingstock.While I was seen at the opera and private galas draped in Caspian’s obsidian silk—the "Shadow King" himself standing as my silent, lethal vanguard—Edward was spiraling.Beth's pregnancy news stained his whole lineage. Impregnating a woman without a wed-lock was a taboo in their clan. Even the elders and higher officials who supported him before turned against him.Victor Lightwood, furious at the stain on their reputation, had stripped Edward of his executive powers over the clan’s issues.And then came the "miscarriage" scandal that completely backfired Beth resulting her breakup with Edward. Rumors began to circulate that the physician had been bribed by Beth to fake the pregnancy to trap Edward. She wasn't pregnant and the miscarriage was also