(Natasha)We run out of things to say around midnight, which is when the trouble starts.The talking was safe.Talking was a job I knew how to do.Ask him a question, listen, give him something back, keep my hands wrapped around the glass.As long as we were talking I could pretend the bed wasn't sitting right there behind us, warm and made and waiting invitingly.The only flat surface in this whole freezing cabin that wasn't the floor.Then the wine's gone, and the fire's low, and he says, "We should sleep,” in that calm way he has, and there's nowhere left to put the night.I get in first.Fully clothed, which is its own small humiliation, leggings and a sweater and socks, like a teenager at a sleepover terrified of her own body.I take the far edge.I leave a canyon between us.A foot of cold sheet, maybe more, the demilitarized zone.I lie on my side facing away from him with my spine very straight and my breathing very even and I think, this is fine, this is nothing, you've share
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