Lahat ng Kabanata ng Alpha Lockwood: Kabanata 21 - Kabanata 30

Mia:My heart didn’t just race. It stopped.Mama.The word echoed in my head like a gunshot, loud and impossible to ignore. I felt it in my chest, in my throat, in the way my fingers suddenly went numb around the cone I was holding. And if I was about to drop the cone before, I knew very well that it was harder for me to hold it now…No.No, no, no… not here, not in front of him, not like this.“Mama?” Rosalyn tugged on my hand again, her voice small but impatient this time. “My ice cream is gonna fall…”Her voice snapped me back.Focus.I forced my hands to steady, crouching down quickly in front of her.“Here, baby,” I said, placing the cone in her hands, adjusting her fingers carefully so she wouldn’t drop it. “Hold it like this, okay? And don’t tilt it. And be sure to eat it beside your Auntie Brenda to make sure that you don’t drop it, okay?”She nodded eagerly, already smiling again, completely unaware of the way my world had just shattered. “Thank you, Mama!”I swallowed hard.

Mia:I didn’t sleep. I tried. God, I tried. But every time I closed my eyes, I saw him. Standing there. Watching me. Hearing her… mama.My chest tightened at the memory, my breath catching as I turned onto my side, staring at the faint light creeping through the curtains. Beside me, Rosalyn slept peacefully. Unaffected. Safe. Unaware of something that she did as an innocent child that was now driving me insane in a way that I wouldn’t truly be able to explain to her in any possible way as her mother.I brushed a strand of her hair back gently, my fingers lingering against her cheek longer than necessary. She didn’t stir. She didn’t need to feel this, she didn’t need to know what was coming.“I am going to keep you safe,” I whispered despite the fear that I had curling inside me. Because something was coming, I could feel it. That instinct, that part of me I had tried so hard to bury when I left the pack, it was screaming now. I left the pack because I couldn’t be bound to one knowing

Tania:I didn’t sleep. Not even for a second. I mean, how could I when my life was coming to fucking ruins.Every time I closed my eyes, I saw her. That woman. Standing there like she belonged somewhere near him. Near my life.And that girl… Mama. The word kept playing in my mind as I went on and followed the directions that one of my assistants within the company gave me. It was the one way for me to make sure that I wasn’t losing everything to others, to have others, eyes, on him from within…My nails dug into my palms as I sat in the car, the engine still running, my chest rising and falling too fast. I hated her. I hated him. I hated the way everything felt like it was slipping out of my control. And the fact that I gave him everything when I knew that I could have gotten out of it only made it worse.For years.For years I stayed.For years I tolerated his distance, his silence, the way he never really chose me the way a man should choose his Luna.The fact that he was choosing

Brenda:I didn’t say anything for a few moments after she had concluded that she want running away. I couldn’t. Because everything Mia just said, it didn’t just sound serious… it sounded dangerous.Not the kind of danger I was used to, late rent, bad jobs, shitty bosses. I was human, I didn’t know their ways, but I knew that this was different.Bigger.Heavier.The kind of danger that came with power, with control, with people who didn’t ask before they took. I swallowed hard, my eyes drifting toward the hallway where Rosalyn’s room was.The kid was sleeping, peacefully, like her world wasn’t hanging by a thread, like none of this existed.“Mia…” My voice came out quieter than I expected, she looked at me, and for the first time since I’d known her… I saw it clearly. Not just fear. Not just anger. War. She meant what she said. She wasn’t backing down. And though I said that I would stand by her side through all the shit that she would go through, that scared me more than anything else

Mia:The day dragged, not because of the work, but because he wasn’t there.And the fact that I knew that he had questions and I wanted him to just ask them so that we could get it over with didn’t make the matter easier for me.I sat at my desk, staring at the same file for what felt like the hundredth time, my pen tapping lightly against the paper, not being able to focus on most of the words that were written right in front of me, in plain English.“What’s wrong with you?” I muttered under my breath, forcing myself to focus.“Already lost on your second day of work?” Joana muttered, looking down at the file as she noticed me clearly doing nothing but stare at the paper for the past hour. “If this is you getting work done, I am curious about how you managed to get yesterday’s finished.”I didn’t respond, because I knew that she was aiming for that from me. “I’ll get it done,” I muttered and she scoffed.“It is not like you have another option.” She said taking a step back as she wal