All Chapters of My Crave, My Ruin : Chapter 1 - Chapter 10

I tried to scream, but my voice was stuck in my throat, embarrassment and fear washed over me and he just stood there, maybe stunned or marveled I don’t know. I quickly scrambled for the blanket covering myself up and stopped the music. “Are you insane ?” I finally managed to speak. “What are you doing in my room and how did you even get in?” I spoke so casually like a total stranger didn’t break into my room. He finally snapped out of his daze and stepped forward placing his bag on the floor, “ I should be the one asking you that question because this is my room.” god he had such a deep husky voice. I looked at him for a good minute, and damn he was hot too. But that didn’t give him the right to enter my room in the middle of my moment. I reached for a robe and wore it, trying my best to stand but my legs were wobbly from all that pulse. “ T-t-there must have been a mix up okay or something. I booked this room under the resort couple package months ago. So you’ve got the wrong

I woke up to the nonstop buzzing of my phone, and noticed warmth and a pair of arms wrapped around me. I looked up and saw Adrian still asleep, we had slept off in each other's arms and looked so peaceful. Slowly I reached out for my phone and found over 50 missed calls from Nathan, he finally remembered I existed. I didn’t want to disturb Adrian and decided to silence my phone. Before I could, I noticed an email from a job I had applied for and when I opened it I was thrilled. I got the job, but I had to report the following day which meant I had to leave New York today and leave Adrian and the thought of that made me frown. I had no choice and I needed to take the job. To stop myself from spiraling, I put my phone aside and settled back into his arms. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Him and I sat at the table having our breakfast, my bags were already packed and my flight was in a few hours. When he had woken up I had told him everything, but something was odd about him, h

My brain felt like it was trapped inside a blender on high speed.What just happened?I stared at the closed door of his private office, my chest burning with a suffocating mix of humiliation and raw anger. I couldn’t focus on the spreadsheets anymore. My mind kept looping backward, dragging me through the wreckage of the night we spent together.Why didn’t he call me after New York? Why was he acting like a cold and heartless stranger who had never touched me, never made me feel like I was the only person in the world? Did he really just use me for a weekend getaway and toss me aside like a used tissue….A ugly, heavy voice started whispering in the back of my head. “ You’re an idiot Sisi. Of course he used you, what did you expect? You’re pathetic… you let some random hot guy fuck you and you thought it meant something? You’re just a joke.” I pressed my fingernails into my palms, fighting back the stinging heat behind my eyes. I refused to cry, especially not for him. The door to

Nathan took a step closer and stood in front of me with his face twisting into a pathetic, desperate look. “I mean it, Siena I love you, okay? But I love Chloe too. I can’t lose either of you. And if I can’t have you both—I just don’t know what I’d do.”Chloe stared at him, her mouth dropping open before she let out a dry, incredulous scoff. “Are you out of your mind? How can you even think of something like this…she can be your second choice but that is pathetic, even for you.”She tossed her head and shrugged. “Ugh, this conversation is getting boring anyway. Let’s do something actually fun.”Before I could even process her words, Chloe lunged forward and stood in front of me … she grabbed a fistful of my hair, yanking my head back hard and panic spiked through my veins as I figured what she was about to do. I was completely helpless, my arms were strapped tight against the chair and I was unable to fight back or shield myself.“No, please , Stop.. No, no, no!” I screamed, thrashi

I nodded politely to the doctor, keeping my face blank so I wouldn't look like I completely had no idea what he was talking about. "Right. Of course. I'll make sure he gets it don't worry about it.”The moment the door closed behind Dr. Evans, I ran straight to my laptop. I sat down on my couch and pulled up Google, and typed in the exact phrase he had used.​”Interoceptive dysfunction.”​I clicked on the first medical link that popped up and read the text directly off the screen, my eyes scanning the bold paragraph:“It is a neurological condition where a person struggles to process internal bodily signals and emotional cues, making it hard to recognize feelings like pain, hunger, fear, affection, or distress until they become overwhelming. People with it often come off as cold, detached or strangely distant because their brains simply didn't process internal emotions the way normal people did.”I stared at the screen, letting the words sink in.Everything now added up…the coldness.