It wasn't a decision, exactly.That was the interesting thing — he'd been waiting for the decision to arrive in the form that decisions usually arrived in for him, which was a specific moment of clarity, a before-and-after, the line between not-knowing and knowing drawn clearly enough to mark. He'd been waiting for the click, the shift, the internal register that said now I understand what I'm going to do.Instead, one Tuesday evening after the community centre class, walking home through the cold with his coat collar up and the neighbourhood quiet around him, he found that the decision was already there.Had been there, probably, for some time. The decision had preceded his awareness of it — had been made by some part of him that was below the level of conscious thought, the part that knew things before the rest of him caught up. Which was, he thought, what Dani had been trying to tell him when she'd said: you always know before your brain catches up.He was going to wait.The realis
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