What The Alpha Lost のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 11 - チャプター 20

(Damon's POV)The ceiling hadn't changed in three days.Same cracks. Same water stain in the corner that Valerie had been asking me to fix for a year. Same dull white paint that reflected nothing, promised nothing, gave nothing back.I stared at it now, at three in the morning, and wondered if this was what hell looked like. Not fire. Not demons. Just a ceiling. Just a bed. Just the sound of Valerie breathing beside me while my wolf tore himself apart inside my chest.She's alive.I'd repeated those words a thousand times since the attack. She's alive. She's alive. She's alive. My mother had sent word through my father, a cold, clipped message delivered without eye contact. Amara is stable. The wound is deep, but she's young and strong. She'll recover.She'd recover but she'd recover without me.I turned onto my side, away from Valerie, and pressed my forehead into the pillow. The sheets smelled like lavender, her choice, not mine. Everything in this room smelled like her now.

(Damon’s POV)The bond broke like a neck.One second it was there, wounded, bleeding, but there. A tether between my chest and hers. A pulse I’d learned to live with, even when it hurt. Even when it screamed.The next second, Nothing.I felt it happen. Felt the exact moment her words became reality. The bond didn’t fade or fray or loosen its grip. It snapped. Like a rope pulled too tight. Like a branch bent too far.And I… I couldn’t breathe.My hand flew to my chest. To the place where her heartbeat had lived for two years. The place I’d ignored. The place I’d pretended didn’t matter.It was empty now. A hollow. A wound. An amputation.She rejected me.The thought didn’t feel real. Couldn’t be real. Amara, my Amara, the girl with the storm-grey eyes and the laugh that made me forget my own name—she wouldn’t. She couldn’t.But she had. I opened my mouth to say something. Anything. Take it back. Don’t do this. Please. What came out was a gasp. A broken, animal sound that di

(Damon’s POV)The first time I noticed something was wrong, I ignored it.Valerie was late coming home. Not late-late just an hour. She said she’d been at the eastern border, checking patrol routes. I nodded. Believed her. Or told myself I did.The second time, a week later, she came back with someone else’s scent on her collar.“New patrol partner,” she said, before I could ask. “Marcus assigned me to work with the northern shift.”I didn’t know we had northern shift working our borders. I didn’t ask.The third time, she didn’t come home at all. I sat in the dark living room until three in the morning, waiting. The clock ticked. The house settled. Somewhere in the distance, a wolf howled a lonely sound, the kind that made your chest ache even when you didn’t know why.Valerie’s phone went straight to voicemail.I told myself she’d fallen asleep at a friend’s house. Told myself the roads were bad. Told myself a dozen lies I didn’t believe. When she finally walked through the

(Damon's POV)The smile didn't last.It couldn't. Not with the weight of everything pressing down on me—the text, the war, the ruins of my life scattered across my father's study floor.Amara stood in the doorway, still wearing her robe, her bare feet dusted with gravel and dried blood. She looked exhausted. She looked beautiful. She looked like she was already halfway out the door."Sit down," I said."I'd rather stand.""Please."The word came out softer than I intended. She hesitated. Then, slowly, she crossed the room and lowered herself into the chair across from my father's desk. The same chair where she'd sat a hundred times as a girl, waiting for Marcus to finish his meetings so she could steal cookies from the kitchen.Now she sat in it like a stranger.I stayed standing. My hands throbbed beneath the bandages, Amara's bandages, her careful work. I touched my right palm and felt the sting."I don't know where to start," I admitted."The beginning is usually a good

(Damon’s POV)I saw her before she saw me.That was becoming a pattern, me watching from the shadows, her living her life in the light. I stood at the edge of the tree line near her parents’ house, my hands shoved in my pockets, my wolf pressed against my ribs like a caged animal.She came out the front door at seven o’clock exactly.And she was beautiful.Not in the way she usually was, the clinic scrubs, the hair pulled back, the exhaustion shadowing her eyes. Tonight, she was dressed. A blue dress that fell just above her knees, hugging her waist, leaving her shoulders bare. Her hair was loose, dark waves spilling down her back. Her lips were pink, like she’d put on something shiny.She was smiling. Not at me. At her phone. Typing something, probably to Maya, probably something about.A car pulled up.Liam’s car.He got out wearing a dark button-down and nice jeans. His hair was combed. He held wildflowers, like he’d picked them himself, like he knew exactly what she like