JANICE'S POVI've feared one question for five years and now it's finally been asked, yet somehow the answer feels even more terrifying because once those words leave my mouth, there won't be any taking them back.The silence after Eden's question follows me through the entire night as I sit beside Jack's hospital bed listening to monitors beep softly in the darkness, and every time I look at my son, another memory rises to the surface.Discovering I was pregnant, leaving New York alone, hearing his heartbeat for the first time, celebrating every birthday, watching every first step, sitting through every fever and every nightmare, and carrying every moment Eden never saw all come rushing back at once.Jack shifts in his sleep and immediately pulls his dinosaur blanket higher, and the sight makes my chest ache because none of this was ever about regretting him.It was always about regretting what they lost.Morning arrives slowly and the hospital begins waking around us as nurses excha
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