Dreams

       11pm after drinking too much, I feel dizzy. I haven't drank this much in ages, I can't really remember taking alcohol since sixth grade, or seventh grade, I  feel  nauseous, I might throw up, no, no you can do this, embarrassing  myself in public wont make my look mature, it will only scream

      'a newbie in the house!'

    Everyone will instantly know I am a newbie and I can't afford to bear such name in an environment like this,  damn it, my chest burns, i bet thats the sensation, everyone is looking forward to.    

     I should drink some more, this is the best night ever, topped up by the fact that Kate was my plus one,  best hype women, waist wigglier,  bottom rocker, and best friend, hyping me from behind.   

      "you can do it bitch!"  

           her indifferent life style, made everthing about her, so charming, and unpredctable,  to top it up with the look runaway model with a bad bitch vibe, always on cut out wears, spikey martin boots, and a bubble gum

    making me remember how i all happened  back in junior high, bullies were taunting me and I couldn't do anything about it. I didn't have the courage to do so anyway, being all shy and shit but all the same, it was worth having the experience 

   And on that lucky day Kate came to my rescue. She kicked the bully so hard on his knee and he sustain a fracture  she was like a character in  a scary story, told in highschool, hastag, 'stay away from the spiky boot, and dark hair girl'  with a quote 'she migh hunt you in your dreams' 

   She was a one girl squad, and after that day I became a plus one, looking at her dancing to the disc joker, like she won something  I was the one who got the scholarship and she was the one celebrating...classic Kate.

    always on the high spirit, no time to be dull

       It was my first time going to a club, the music isn't all bad, but not my genre,  and I felt guilty  lying to my parents, for the first time,  It was supposed to be a sleep over at Kate's  , and here I am getting drunk in a club, filled with different jolly people, dancing there sorrows away.

    "Lily!!!!Come over here", she yelled at the top of her voice, she really enjoys shouting. I could hear her yelling my name to come over amid the crowd 

     she looked drunk, and I don't need more alcohol, or maybe I do. I should just go check out why she's calling me.

   I could see her chatting with two handsome men, she always has a way with men, they are really handsome looking like madingo

      One had short dark wavy hair, he looked like a fiecer verson of jason momoa,  while the other has a shoulder length hair, they look eatable, but the latter is preferable, if it were the era of cave men ,i think i just came in contact with  demi-gods with broad shoulders.

    maui!!

        Kate really attracts sexy men, unlike Lily the plain Jane, who never wears makeup or heels, and never had a boyfriend, or a mysterious crush, shit I hate myself for being  so shallow

   I felt embarrassed to approach her with my outfit, the attention magne i had surprisingly chosen Everyone had a rather exposing outfit and I wore a bland petite pants with loose long sleeve now I regret not listening to Kate, she had  tried so hard, but being a hard nut I had to go with being plain 

        i found myself moving  further I guess the alcohol made me courageous, I should hasten up before I lose my newly found courage. Everyone was dancing to the music and it made it difficult to soar through the crowds, but I finally approached them.

      And boom! my courage crawled under the table " lily meet our compa's for the night only, don't worry about the payment" she winked, my belly knotted, nt only have i lost my courage, my sense of reasoning as well

"compas?"  

      what is the payment__?

   " they look man Enough what do you think?",she said as she ran her eyes through their body, " damn !" 

    jason momoa twin had his eyes glued on my body, i could have broken this glass, if it wasn't this strong, my feet were  rooted to the marble floor already,   i just want this leave ,  i could feel a mental diarrhoea coming up.

     " Lily!!!, she taunted even further.

  "Loosen up, you are done with highschool, you are no longer a little girl,you are young, beautiful..." 

   " these men would pleasure us for the night, and I bet it would be intense…. Jeez I have waited for So long!!!" She yelled at the top of her voice 

      wow, I felt a rush of blood through my veins and, how can she think of such a thing? Would have expected that anyway... Sigh 

      I gulped down two shots of tequila, i found on the counter, tongue tied,really nervous should I do this?, no lily, philips isnt here, i wanted  first love, first kiss, first husband,and I won't want to loose my V card to this mouth watering men, even when i was dying to  just be swayed.

    Kate gave that hurry up look, as she waited for my reply, .

  you could like it you know?, he  he looks eatable lily, his eyes, can sway you,  if i could shut the voices in my head, i wuld, i bet they are high as well

  " take this , lily, you will love this trust me" i rolled my eyes, she knew i wouldn't budge anytime soon, " lets go papi" she pull the other madingo by the arm  like a possesive mother as they made their way out of the club  leaving me with the hot guy with long blonde hair

   Shit it had to be him, why? My inner Godeses cried, as she paced around in her dark room 

   " More shots please!!!", I pretended like I didn't notice anyone beside me,  as a stream of perspiration found their way down my face, as I yelled at the bartender, even with the alcohol I still felt nervous,

    I hate it that he could sense my ausement, and still lagh about it, if i could, i would shv him down the bar stool, i could do then mentally anyways, but why would hekeep starin without saying   anything,  hes supposed to mae he first move

damn him 

       I gulped down two more shots of tequila, and could feel myself getting high. I gulped down two more glasses, as everything became blurry, " More!!" I yelled at the rather strange man, who was supposed to pleasure me for the night but didn't make an attempt to touch or speak to me, am I that awful looking.

     I should be happy, not sad, " do you want to drink yourself to death ?" startled by his seductive manly voice. I choked on my drink,wow thats real bass.

      damn lily, you got yourself a fucking pop smoke

 well thats a man  in so many shades of sexy, his eyes were like a mixture of gold and black, r maybe the disco light added more effect, what ever i was,i was drawn already, drawn to the danger that were obviousy emmiting his dark eye

       now he had his eyes pinned on my, it feels  like my lungs constricted or maybe they did, because i had forgotten how to breath,  where are you  kate!

      "I..I ..I", his sly smirk, was all my bain needed to shut down