How Does 'If Only I Had Told Her' End?

Julia and Evan were the perfect couple—or so she thought. But everything changed when Evan abruptly ended their relationship, leaving her heartbroken and unable to tell him she was carrying his child. Years later, Julia has built a life for herself and her son, Andy, while Evan has risen to unimaginable wealth and success. Their paths cross again at a chance meeting, but Julia soon discovers Evan has moved on with someone else. Julia is done with the pain. She’s fought battles alone, raising a son who deserves the truth about his father, even if Evan doesn’t deserve her forgiveness. When Julia told Evan years ago she had something to say, he didn’t listen. Now, it’s time for him to listen. But is it too late to reclaim what he lost? “We should break up,” he’d said, the words cutting through her like glass. The pregnancy test in her pocket stayed hidden, just like the child they would never share. Now, it’s Evan’s turn to hear the truth—and to face his deepest regret. [BOOK 1 COMPLETED]

Pain. Regret. Betrayal. That was all Nadia Holt was left with as life slipped from her grasp. She had learned one painful truth at the expense of her life: Love cannot be forced. She spent the last three years of her first life raising children who never saw her as their mother only as the unwanted stepmother. Worse still, she was married to a man who no longer saw her as human. And what did she receive in return? Death. She died alone on the cold pavement, regret filling her heart for every year she had wasted on people who had never loved her back. She died with vengeance on her lips and rage in her blood, swearing that if she were ever given a second chance, she would choose herself. Then, the impossible happened. Nadia wakes up one month before her death, armed with memories of the future and determined to rewrite her fate. This time, she will leave before they can break her. But what Nadia doesn't expect is for the husband who once ignored her to refuse to let her go. Nor does she expect the man who had always been waiting in the shadows, watching, protecting, and loving her in silence to finally step into the light and confess his feelings. In this life, Nadia refuses to shrink herself for anyone. She will fight and reclaim her place in the world. And this time, she will win.

For two years, Maya loved a man who looked like forever. Caramel-skinned, radiant, loyal to a fault she gave Daniel her heart, her time, her prayers. But while she was building a future, he was building secrets. Three of her friends. Whispers at her workplace. A pregnancy he denied. Public charm. Private betrayal. She knew. She just waited. On the very day he planned to meet her parents for her knocking, Maya chose dignity over drama and walked away without ever looking back. Six months later, she meets Ethan. Steady. God-fearing. Intentional. The kind of man who prays before he pursues and protects before he possesses. With him, love feels different, safe, consuming in the right ways, and deeply passionate within covenant. But healing isn’t linear, and the past doesn’t stay buried forever. When Maya relocates for work and unexpectedly finds herself face-to-face with the woman Daniel once denied and when Daniel himself resurfaces desperate, broke, and full of regret old wounds threaten new peace. This time, however, Maya is not the woman who stayed silent. She is married. She is chosen. She is covered. And she will not be moved. She Knew, But She Waited is a powerful faith-based romance filled with betrayal, suspense, guilt, sensual covenant love, dramatic confrontations, and the kind of passion that only comes from being truly seen and truly safe. Because sometimes the greatest revenge isn’t exposure. It’s elevation.

I woke up in the middle of the night to find my wife crying and begging me to let her see that young man one last time. "I’ll come right back after seeing him one last time. Please, I’m begging you." In our seven years of marriage, this was only the second time she’d spoken to me in such a pleading, ingratiating tone. The last time was when I caught the kid running out of her office, his clothes in disarray. Afraid I’d make a scene, she grabbed my hand and pleaded, "Honey, I promise I’ll cut him off. Please don’t divorce me. I’ll die without you." So, I gave her another chance. Just as she promised, she devoted herself to our family, becoming the perfect wife everyone admired. Until today. I turned on the bedside lamp, looked into her eyes, and told her seriously, "Go. Don’t leave yourself with any regrets." I had no regrets left. I hoped the same for you.

For five years, I paved the way for my wife, Samantha Cole. After helping her resolve the company's troubles one last time, I called her and asked, "Darling, I'm so cold. Can you come home and hug me?" On the other end of the phone, Samantha had only just pulled herself away from a moment of intimacy with her young lover, Oliver White. When she finally answered, her voice was impatient. "Joshua Davidson, will it kill you to stop being so dramatic?" Indeed, it would. I slammed the phone down and then died on our bed. Later, Samantha—the woman who had kept me trapped in that lonely house for five years—held my portrait in her arms and finally learned what regret felt like.

When my wife's first love was injured in a car accident and urgently needed a kidney transplant, she gave me an ultimatum. If I refused to donate my kidney, she said she would take our daughter and die alongside him the very next day. Crying, she begged. "Can you stop being so selfish? It's only one kidney. "It's not like you'll die! Are you really going to force me and your daughter to our deaths?" With a bitter smile, I agreed. What she didn't know was that our daughter had already died in the very same car accident that injured her beloved first love. And I was suffering from end-stage kidney failure. Once I went through with the surgery, I wouldn't be far behind from death either. Since she was willing to sacrifice everything for the man she loved, then I would give her exactly what she wanted. I would make her the person responsible for both my death and our daughter's so she would have to live with that regret for the rest of her life.