Arctic Islands
When I stopped by the supermarket to pick out cookie gifts for our trip home, I took photos of three flavors and sent them to our group chat.
[Which ones do you want? I'll get them all at once.]
My best friend, Kendra Dougherty, replied: [Anything is fine. I'm good with whatever.]
My boyfriend, Damon Compton, replied: [Then I'll get the same ones she wants.]
In the end, I bought three boxes of salted caramel cookies.
But when I finally carried the identical boxes home, he gave me a helpless look and exchanged an amused smile with Kendra.
"When Kendra says she's fine with anything, she doesn't actually mean anything. Her dad likes salted caramel, her mom likes chocolate fudge, and Kendra's absolute favorite is white chocolate macadamia."
"You should've gotten one box of each flavor."
I looked at the three boxes of cookies on the table and said nothing.
In the five years I'd been with Damon, he'd always understood what Kendra really meant better than I did.
Whenever we went out to eat and asked whether she wanted to sit on the inside or outside, she'd always say, "Whatever."
But Damon would wordlessly save her a seat farther inside. I always ended up sitting by the aisle.
When we were planning our graduation trip and asked whether we should go to Belford or Silver Ridge, she said "Whatever" again.
Before I'd even made up my mind, Damon had already booked the tickets and planned the itinerary for Silver Ridge, exactly where Kendra wanted to go.
But when I was hospitalized with a perforated stomach ulcer, and he asked whether I needed him to stay with me, I sulked and said, "Whatever." That time, he took me at my word.
Every time Kendra said "Whatever," Damon somehow managed to figure out the perfect answer.
But not once had he ever understood what I really meant.
So there was no need for me to go out of my way to tell him we were breaking up.