FAT, BARREN, AND REJECTED
I felt her words land with uncomfortable, difficult accuracy, understanding the genuine truth underlying her careful, loving observation even as some stubborn, defensive part of myself continued resisting full acknowledgment of exactly how thoroughly I’d been failing to properly process everything this devastating campaign had continued demanding of me.
“I don’t know how to talk about it,” I admitted finally, my voice carrying raw, difficult honesty despite my continued discomfort with this particular vulnerability. “Every time I try to actually articulate what happened aboard that aircraft, what I actually did to Cross, what it felt like watching that crash unfold with Theodore’s life direc