Novel & Cerita Bawling My Eyes Out

My whole body practically convulsed as I bawled my eyes out, jerking in a way I had never before experienced in my entire life. Pain, pain, pain, pain, pain… so much of it, breaking out of me and raining right out of my eyes. So much bottled shit I hadn't even known was there. I screamed out my sobs, blinded by my own tears, hair sticking wetly to my red-flushed cheeks. I was ugly crying and beyond the point of return, mouth open and rapidly shaking, nose running, eyes scrunched up as I wept and trembled and shook as the knot inside me came undone.

The words come out and a single tear drops from my eye, rolling down my cheek. ##########

I wanted to bawl my eyes out and at some point, I wanted to scream. What was wrong with me?

I blinked away tears, the excess joy so uncontainable that it leaked from my eyes. Finally, I looked fully into his dark eyes. Tears shone like silver lining his eyes, and that fully did me in. I couldn't stop the deluge of tears that fell from my own eyes, dripping down my chin and onto my neck. I reached up and swiped them away, but it was of no use.

He looked my way. My eyes brimmed. He kept staring at me blanky. Tears flowed out my eyes. He looked away from me as he opened his car door and entered. The girl entered too. They drive away. I move away from the window, walking towards my bed. Tears flowed. Sky came to me, looking at me with sad eyes. It made me sob. He whined. I hugy him tightly. I let it all out. This stings so bad. So terrible.

he sneered, his words stabbing me like a knife. The tears I'd been holding back finally burst forth, streaming down my face as I looked down at the pieces of the cards on the ground. I swallowed hard, trying to stifle my sobs. I shot him a fierce glare, my glassy eyes gleaming with rage. "You'll regret this!" I screamed, my voice hoarse with anguish, my veins bulging in my forehead with rage as tears rolled furiously down my cheeks. Glaring at him, I spat in his face, the saliva hitting his smirking lips with a satisfying splat.

He barked. My eyes became teary without saying anything further. I turned and walked into my room. I just kept on crying. For Azelaic. For my mom, For my siblings. For myself. For not feeling good enough. For not feeling enough. For not doing what I wanted to do despite all the noise and the eye rolls and all the things I'd had to give up along the way. Hot tears streamed down my face, and I squeezed my eyelids shut in the hope my tears would stop. My choppy breathing and watery eyes remained for quite some time, and I lay in bed unmoving. Knock…knock…knock.

My eyes were shut so tight that I felt as though my eyeballs were going to rip through the lids and pop out. I prayed and prayed that it wasn't who I think it was. I slowly opened my eyes to see the same blue green eyes staring at me with a smirk on his face. His hand was still clasped around my mouth and the pressure on my jaw was painful. I licked his palm as a defense mechanism. It always worked with my sister and it did work on him too. His mouth turned into this hybrid between a grimance and disgust, he withdrew his hand faster than I could blink and gave me the stink eye.

Tears started dropping from my eyes due to over-laughing. "Are you okay?" Lila drew her eyes in askance at me. I was finally able to stop laughing, still chuckling at short intervals, "likes me? That's not even possible. You need to see how much he acts cold and glares at me like a fucking moron." I wiped the laughing tears from my eyes. "Gosh, you almost had me killed." "Yeah, duh. If I heard you right, it sounded as though he was jealous." She defended her point.

I tried to form words but my eyes were packed with tears and I didn't want it to fall. He sighed deeply and released his body from mine. I still looked down and my lips. My vision was blurry since my eyes were filled with tears. “I'm going to find out and I'll be back before you know it. Don't go away, I'm coming.” He turned around and walked out of the door. When I saw the door close, I blinked my eyes tightly, making the tears land on the floor. I shut my eyes and sniffed in again, making sobbing sounds.