BURNING SECRETS
Screaming again to keep from sobbing, even if my tears betray me, I wrap my arms around my legs, holding myself tight and letting myself shatter.
Even though I've felt better since the night Jackson stayed here, I use the excuse of sickness for another three days. To continue calling out of work. To avoid speaking with Sarah and Laury beyond a few texts. To avoid hardly leaving my bed at all. It hurts too much, to move, to speak, to think. I want to turn offmy mind, and even more, I want to turn off my heart. Because it won't stop aching. It won't stop calling for a man it can't have. It won't stop begging me to go to him. And that's not an option. Not anymore. Even if it were just for sex,