LUSTING AFTER MY FATHER’s BEST FRIEND.
“Dad…you always say to tell you everything because you're my best friend, right? You're the only friend I trust enough to pour my heart out to without worrying that I'll be used down the line. You're the only one who won't judge me or make me feel like I'm different. Even if I'm very strange, I sometimes go under, try to find myself, and feel empty sometimes. Daddy, I feel that way again, empty. And unlike other times, I can't find a silver lining because you're not here. You're supposed to be the one to pull me from under, but you're not even conscious. You said I should take a deep breath and think about the root of the issue, because once that's solved, everything else will be as well.”
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