Novel & Cerita Everything That Kills Me

I killed her; I f*cking left her to die. I gripped my hair in anger. Pain and agony burned in my chest; anger filled my mind. It's been a year, but the deep burning in my chest is still fresh and new. The hollow feeling, the emptiness, kills me. The guilt and hurt suffocate me. My heart clenches every night. The need to hold her in my arms keeps me awake. The nightmares terrify me. Her warmth is all I need, but I can't have it. I let the absolute best thing that ever happened to me slip through my fingers. I killed the only light in my life.

I search about and collect the discarded silver knife, along with a vial of the drug, then return to the flailing Cockatrice. “Believe me, I know how hard it is to kill a myth,” I explained calmly, standing on the child-killer’s arms, “but there’s one thing I have learnt.” I dip the knife in the vial, ensuring it is well coated in the venom. I kneel, grab the monster's head, and plunge the weapon into his remaining good eye. I put all my weight behind the blade as I continue, “everything can be killed—you just have to put the effort in.”

The silence between us grew heavier. I could hear the faint sound of music coming from inside. The soft movement of the pool water. My own heartbeat. Everything else seemed to disappear. "Luxxe..." He finally closed his eyes for a second. When he opened them again, there was something different in them. Something that made my stomach twist. "Let go of my collar, Shane." I shook my head. "Why?" "Because you're making this difficult." "Maybe I don't want it to be easy." His eyes widened slightly.

Distress tears through my heart, and I connect with one delicate finger. As I connect with his chest, I'm unexpectedly wrapped in voices. Peculiar sounds involve my contemplations and my psyche. There is one overpowering blast resonating, so boisterous and cold that it makes me shudder. KILL, it requests over and over, similar to the pounding of a drum. My faculties are overburdened with this one order.

I'm a killer " Hazel! Talk to me " I'm a killer " Hazel, please? You love me right?" " I'M A KILLER!" Without knowing I screamed closing my eyes tight on my tears. There was a minute of silence so I continue. " I killed the whole village and ran away, you, saved me, you, why did you save a monster like Me, why !! " I was hitting him while looking at his tears falling. " I don't deserve to be alive, how many villages that I've burned, HOW MANY !- "

I was nothing. The deep pit of depression pulled at me throughout the hours as I lay on the cold hard ground. I couldn't pull myself up. I couldn't go on. I had killed Mila and now I had killed Remi. I let Kezia and Matei die. No matter what I did, I was never good enough to save the people I loved. I'd even killed my own mother. What was wrong with me? I was living ball of bad luck. Bad Karma. I raised my head. Had Karma done this to me? Was that the reason? I slowly pushed into a sitting position.

I said my voice slightly breaking. "You made me look like a fool, all the combats and training and killing was for nothing but to make me just like you, a killer that gets to live with the guilt forever. Goodbye Rarf, you'll be better off in hell." I said as I clicked the gun ready to unload every bullet in his hardened heart.

My chest contrasts as my heart aches, my blood turns cold and my stomach dips. I had just killed my friend. No! I had no choice, the crown had done this they were using wolves anyhow they pleased, disposing of them like they were nothing with no sympathy or remorse. This was the last draw. If we don’t fight back we’ll lose everyone we loved and cared about. Wiping my eyes I look at Sal’s corpse and her chain grabs my attention. I’ll have to tell Ride, something I need guts to do.

From behind his back, he pulled out a sharp utility knife he had prepared before coming home and decided to personally destroy Nova, the demon who had killed me. "You don't get to replace Tina after killing her. You're not worthy." Right after saying that, he lunged forward and ruthlessly slashed the knife across Nova's neck. "Crack!" The knife sliced through her throat, exposing a chaotic mess of multicolored wires. Electricity crackled loudly, and the sweet smile on her face froze. She tried to speak, but the sounds she could make were only distorted glitch noises. Moments later, her body collapsed heavily onto the floor, and the light in her eyes went dark. She never moved again.

After a long, stunned silence, she slapped herself hard across the face. "It's all my fault, Kaia. You still hate me, don't you? Hit me. I never should've treated you like that. I deserve to die..." She kept slapping herself. Again. And again. That was when I realized... I didn't feel much anymore. No satisfaction. No anger over dying so young. Not even happiness at seeing Mom again. My connection to this world had faded. "Mom." My voice was barely above a whisper. "I don't blame you. But... I don't love you anymore."