Novel & Cerita I'm Okay

Kahihiyan, malas, pagkakamali, bastarda, palamunin, inggrata. All those words are embedded in my mind, and in my soul. Bawat araw ng buhay ko, wala ni isang sandali na hindi pinaalala sa'kin ng pamilya ko na pagkakamali lang ako. I feel so alone. I feel neglected. Nandidiri ako sa sarili ko sa katotohanang bunga ako ng kasalanan. Pakiramdam ko, hindi ko karapatang mabuhay. But then he came. He made feel that I'm worth it, I'm worth loving. He made me feel beautiful. Just like the pictures he takes...picturesque. And it’s too late before I realize that it was all just for show.

"I'm not worth it of your love, Tazu. I'm married. Yes, I love you but that's not enough. Sa mata ng batas at sa mata ng tao kasal ako." He looked at me with desperation. "Divorce him, Tam. Mahal kita at sa mata nating dalawa ay ito ang tama," Love is beyond predicted. When you love someone you fight for them pero hindi sa lahat ng oras pwede kang lumaban sometimes find someone to fight for you. Para ipaglaban ang pagmamahalan niyo.

I took a deep breath again and again as I finally knocked twice. And after a couple of minutes a baritone yet cold voice spoke. "Come in." My brows furrowed and my chest was pounding so loud when I heard Sir JR's voice. This is the first time he showed himself to us but... this was not the first time I met him. At sana wala rin siyang maalala pa. Pinilig ko ang ulo at pilit tinatanggal ang mga nasa isipan at dahan-dahang pinihit pabukas ang pinto. Biglang nanindig ang balahibo ko dahil sa lamig sa loob ng opisina ni Sir. "Hmm..." tumikhim ako upang agawin ang atensyon niya na nakatalikod mula sa akin at prenteng nakaupo sa swivel chair niya. "Good afternoon, Sir." I greeted politely. He stayed silently, he stayed in his place and he didn't respond to me. Hindi rin siya lumilingon kaya napakamot ako ng ulo. "Sir? What can I do for you? Is it because I'm late this morning? I'm sorry Sir, there's an emergency in our home, the reason why I'm late. I'm sorry." I explained but he remained silent. Dahan-dahan akong napayuko. Mukha ngang bad mood siya dahil hindi man lang lumilingon sa akin. "How old are you?" Wala pa sa isang segundo akong nag-angat ng tingin sa kaniya. "Hmmm, 24, Sir..." I answered lowly. "Married?" I swallowed as I responded. "No." "Single?" he asked again. "Opo." "Any relationship? Boyfriend? Ka live in?" "Wala po, Sir..." Pilit kong sinasagot ang mga tanong niya kahit alam kong confidential na iyon. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit iyon ang naging binungad niya sa akin na hindi ko inaasahan. Nabalot kami ng katahimikan hanggang sa muli siyang magtanong na ikinamilog ng mga mata ko. "Virgin or not?" My mouth opened a bit 'coz of his inappropriate question.

"If choosing the darkness is the way to be with you, then I will. It's either I'll face the same faith or I'll die in peace and let your shadows buried in the depth-down truth of my mind. I want to taste your deadly bloodline then if this is the last time." "Roses are Red, Violets are Blue Baby, I'm sorry? But I need to let you go."

"Chloe Hades Mondragon, do you take Mr. Hanz Levi as your beloved husband for the rest of your life till death do you part?" Halos mahilo ako sa sobrang kaba ng sandaling sambitin ng pari ang mga katagang Yun, hindi ako makasagot na Tila ba nalunok ko na ang aking dila. "Ms. CHLOE I will repeat... Do you take Mr. Hanz Le-" Para akong nagising sa isang panaginip ng biglang may pwersang humapit sa bewang ko, at bumulong sa tenga ko. " What are you doing! Do you want to D*e!!" He whisper cold in my ears making me feel the shivers all over my body, my hands which is holding the ring shakes as i look at the man's dark eyes, glaring at me.. Because of fear I was force to marry him.. "I--I do" I lost, I can't run away from him now..if I know his real identity before then I shouldn't agree with this Arrange marriage... Now I'm OFFICIALLY married to him, I'm afraid that I can't live my life like I used to.. My family are in danger, my life is not the same.. Why did all of this happen to me? What did I do wrong to deserve all of this.. I'm a good person, I didn't hurt anybody.. Why me? I want to live a normal life, I want to study and travel all around the world, I want to have a job, I have a lot of dreams for me and my family.. But why all of that change? All my dreams crumbled that easy.... I guess I need to deal with this, I need to be strong.. Please hold on Chloe.. You can survive with this.

"We are not meant for each other, cause you're not mine and I'm not yours to begin with."- Kseniya "I can surrender everything just for you to be mine. I can do destruction to the heaven and underworld to let them know that your mine to begin with."- UNKNOWN

Kahit halos hindi na makatayo sa kalasingan ay agad na pumunta si Maya sa dance floor at doon ay parang wala sa sariling umindak sa tugtugin. Ito ang paborito nilang kanta ng ate niya. Napaluha siya, at napaupo sa sahig, hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin niya ito kayang kalimutan. Pakiramdam niya ay siya nalang ang nag iisang tao sa mundo. "Miss, are you okay?" boses ng isang lalaki Tumingala siya rito habang inaabot nito sa kanya ang isang panyo. "Ate Riza?" hilam sa luhang tawag niya rito.

"Tigilan mo na Ito, Tristan. I'm your brother's wife, for God's sake. This is forbidden." "I don't care if it's forbidden; if loving you was a sin, then I'm willing to be a sinner. Just love me back, Karina. I love you damn much." Pumikit si Karina at nilalabanan ang tuksong maaring sumira sa buhay niya. "Please, Tristan, iba na lang, wag ako." Naramdaman Niya Ang masuyong paghaplos nito sa bewang Niya pababa sa binti niya. Napapikit siya sa kakaibang sensasyong bumabalot sa kanya, kakaibang init na kailanman di Niya naramdaman Kay Travis. Only Tristan gives this kind of feeling for her. A forbidden bliss. Hanggang kailan nila ipaglalaban ang pag-ibig na bawal?

It was a beneficial relationship for the both of us. A loveless and contractual realtionship. But, why did I let myself to have this feeling? Since when did I have this feeling? Is it possible for my love to be returned? Is it possible for me to stay with you? I want to be with you even if it means betraying everyone, If I can stay with you by leaving everything behind... I'm willing to do it without any hesitation. If loving you means danger, then I would gladly offer my life just to be with you!

Lumipat ang kaniyang kaluluwa sa asawa ng Mafia Boss na kung saan ay matagal nang nakakaranas ng paghihirap habang kasama ang asawa nito. Clyde Cleomonte, a 21 years old na kung saan ay pinakasalan ng sapilitan ni Silvia Kill na Mafia boss. "Hon, are you okay?", tanong ng babae saakin. Hon? Bakit niya ako tinatawag na Hon at bakit nandito ako sa hospital? Ang huli kong naaalala ay itinulak ako ni Blue, may tumulong ba saakin? "Nasaan sina Blue? Nakulong naba sila?", tanong ko sa mga lalaking nakaitim. I think mga pulis sila pero bakit hindi sila nakauniporme? "Whose blue? Hon, what happened back then?", tanong ulit ng babae. Bakit ba Hon ang palaging tawag niya sakin? Hindi ko naman siya kilala. Napatingin ako sa salamin na kung saan ay nasa side wall, I saw that this is not my face. Nanlaki ang mata ko sa gulat, anong nangyari sa mukha ko at sino sila. Lalapit na sana ang babae ng itinago ko ang katawan ko hanggang sa leeg ng kumot. "Stay right there!! Wah mokong lapitan", sigaw ko kaya napahinto naman siya at nag aalalang nakatingin saakin. "Do you- do you forget about me?", nauutal na sagot niya. Biglang may lumitaw na batang babae around 3 ata galing sa kaniyang likod. Nakatingin na siya saakin ngayon. "Mama?", tanong nito. Wait, naguguluhan na ako. Sino ba sila at bakit tinatawag akong Mama ng bata. "Hindi ko alam ang sinasabi niyo at wag mokong tinatawag na Mama!!" ,sigaw ko sa kanila. Biglang umiyak ang bata at nagpabuhat sa babae. Kinarga niya ito at nagdilim ang tingin nito saakin. Sino ba sila? I don't understand what's happening. Mama, i need you.