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I breathe off, respiring, pouring off, my built up frustration, laying down my choked up throat. “Get a grip” I murmured to my senses, my heart failing to realise, it has never been okay for quite some time, but my brains had forced me to believe it. My knees bow, feeling the weight crashing upon my shoulders. My head gave way, feeling the trauma once more. I crash my face into my palm, with eyes stinging, but I refuse to shed tears. It is far gone, I shouldn't feel like shit. They acted right, I shouldn't be like this. He never was really there, why does my heart rip apart?

“You feel cut off from everyone. Like you’re behind glass, banging on it, but no one can hear you.” My hands shook as I lifted them to sign, “I hate it. I hate not being able to say what I’m feeling. I hate needing people to guess.” Luca watched me for a long moment. His gaze was steady, warm. Unjudging. “You know,” he said softly, “power doesn’t come from a voice. It doesn’t come from how loud you can scream or how many people hear you. It comes from here.” He tapped his chest with two fingers. “It comes from your heart. Your spirit. Your will. That’s where the real strength lives.”

I'm so weak. I'm sorry, Angelo.

The Moon Goddess stood before him, her form glowing and magical. “You can’t leave her now,” she said, her voice soft but stern. “I tried,” he whispered, his voice thick with hopelessness. “But I wasn’t strong enough.” The Goddess knelt beside him, putting a hand on his chest. “Strength isn’t just about power. It’s sIt’s the heart. Athe and yours still beat, no matter how weakly. She needs you, Aiden. You’re her anchor.” “How?” he asked, his voice breaking. “How do I go back?”

Everything inside me tightens at once. This is it. There is no more time. No more waiting. I can't stop it now. Goddess... give me strength. I'm going to need it.

"𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒗𝒊𝒃𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒆." "𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖." "𝑨𝒏𝒅, 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒂 𝒒𝒖𝒆𝒆𝒏."

This is the worst shit that could've ever happened to me. Hell, I think I'm having a heart attack. Hearts can't beat the way mine is now. I place my hand over my chest and close my eyes, waiting for sweet, sweet death. I just have to die. There's nothing left for me. I don't have the strength to face this. I'm a damned coward.

"Your light is inside of me Like a raging roar Like an ocean born You're in my veins Your voice is serenity When the sun goes down And the strength I've found Is in my veins" Suddenly my heart feels the pain rebuilding again inside of me. I thought I already moved on from Gage but I guess I never have. My heart still loves him so much no matter how hard I try to tell myself that I don't anymore. "Our story binds us Like right and wrong Your hand in mine Marching to the beat of the stars"

His voice sounded low and husky by my ear, and I was sure I was dreaming when I heard him. “You are my greatest strength and my greatest weakness iniquum meum thesaurum (my treacherous treasure).” I sighed as I felt my eyes flutter closed, the ghost of a kiss on the nape of my neck and an overwhelming sense of peace washed through me. I was safe with him, I could let go and be myself, he would accept me as I was and in return, I would offer him the same sanctuary he was giving me. Why these thoughts rushed into my head I was not sure, but I knew them to be the truth.

Why is it like this? Why is it always me? Why do I have to suffer? I just don't want to kill! Why not completely crush my heart! I'm in so much pain! Struggling! It's sad to think that fate is playing with me! fate is playing with me! Lord! You take care of me! I fully surrendered my tired heart for you! I can't do it anymore! I nearly give up! Thank you for being there for me to raise me up when I'm down! You are my strength Lord! Whenever I lose hope! You are the one I lean on when I can't!