Novels by Ash Lee

“Those wolves, I think they wanted something from us. Do you think they needed our help?” I asked. One of them did lead me to that weird place. “Come on don’t worry about them, they will be fine.” He said pulling me forward. How does he know that? It doesn’t really matter because after what I just saw I don’t want to be out here in the dark longer than I already have been, so I let him lead the way hoping he knows where we are going. I hear a roar in the distance, that’s so loud the trees around us shake. “What was that?” I asked my voice trembling. “Don’t worry, it’s nothing that can hurt you. Probably just a bear.” he reassured me, but he also picked up the pace. The moon is now covered by clouds and I can’t see two feet infront of us. Im starting to wonder if we are even safe in that small cabin?Within minutes I see the light coming through the windows. The cabin was this close by, how did I get so turned around?“I feel like I walked a lot farther than this” I said

Now that I am out of sight I let the tears steam down my face. I tried so hard to get pregnant, all the ovulation tests, hormones and miscarriages. Endless doctors appointments, we tried so many different things and nothing ever worked.Luckily, the rain has lightened up a bit as I walk through the trees. As I wander I am unsure exactly where I am going. I guess I want to see that cliff Liam and I were headed to earlier.When I come to my senses, I think I’ve been walking for about ten minutes. Nothing looks familiar and I must have taken a wrong turn.I look around me and see nothing but trees, the cabin is nowhere in sight.Shit, where am I?I look down at my phone to see if I have service, I don’t. Great.I see there is and a text from my Carly that says:“Please don’t hate us and think of the baby. I am sorry, I know this should have been you. ”Hate doesn’t even begin to describe what I feel for them and their baby.A part of me wants to call her and let her explain. I always tho

A few days have passed and I’m eating breakfast at the table. Go the first time in a long time I’m not sad. Liam and I agreed to stay at the cabin together, we never did got ahold of the owner of the cabin for answers.Staying with Liam has been easy, he’s very quiet and keeps to himself most of the time. He spends a lot of the day in the forest and I spend a lot of time watching movies.I wonder what he’s doing out there.I hear his bedroom door open and his foot steps down the hall.“What are you doing today?” He chirps.“Same as every other day I’ve been here, nothing” I joke.“Come on, let’s get some fresh air” he suggests “you haven’t left this cabin in days. It’s not healthy and you’re going to start to smell.”I laughed. Im a bit worried about the wolf I thought I saw, but there’s been no sign of it.I get dressed and meet him outside.“This way, it leads to a cliff with a nice view” he begins walking.I follow him and we walk side by side through the mature trees.“I have bee

There’s another person in here. Whoever they are , they have me pinned against the wall. Panic is starting to set in as I realize, I’m all alone in the middle of the forest, even if I screamed no one would hear me. Whoever it is strong and they have my arms pinned at my sides and I cannot get free.My heart is pounding so hard in my chest I feel like I’m going to pass out.I have to fight. My arms might be trapped, but my legs aren’t. I kick my knee up and hit the person in the groin.“Ow” said a man’s voice. I feel his weight lift off me as he says “That was uncalled for.”“Uncalled for? You pinned me against a wall! Who are you?” I say trying to collect myself.Does this guy think I’m here to attack him?“Who am I?” He said as the light above us flicks on “I should be asking you that. You’re inside my cabin.”His cabin? That can’t be right.“What do you mean your cabin?” I ask putting my hands on my hips. “When I rented this cabin there was nothing in the description that said I wo

It’s a seven-hour drive to the cabin. I’m almost there but the trip is definitely starting to drag. I used to love long drives; especially with Carly. I miss the times we would spontaneously ditch work to go on an adventure. We would make a special playlist and stock up on all our favourite snacks. Sometimes we would drive for hours with no destination and solve all the problems of the world. My heart sinks with sadness as I realize it will probably never happen again.I turn up my music in an attempt to forget about how she destroyed our friendship.I look out my window the forest here is so dense you cannot see very far in. I haven’t seen a car since I turned off the highway and that was miles ago. I live in the city and most days there is bumper to bumper traffic.The air here feels lighter. I take in a deep breathe and before I can release it a red wolf darts out of nowhere running in front of my car. I slam on my breaks, swerve and close my eyes expecting the hit the wolf dead

It feels like the walls around me are closing in and I can’t get rid of the heavy weight in my stomach. The walls of this room must be the whitest I’ve ever seen; who keeps their walls this clean.My eyes wander over to the large plant in the corner. I’ve hated this room from the moment I stepped foot in here. It reminds me of my failures- and trust me there are so many I’ve lost count. I look down and make eye contact with Natalie; my therapist. I have been meeting with her every Tuesday and Thursday for the last three weeks.I hear her faded voice telling me “it’s normal to feel this way after losing so much in such a short time.”My mind drifts to the reason my heart is aching - the reason I am here in the first place. A flashback of my best friend and my husband fucking in our bed. Carly’s long brown curls bouncing down her naked back as she rocks back and forth on top of him will forever be etched in my mind. I feel nauseous. Why do I do this to myself? I shake my head trying t