Kill Me Once More, My Love
Nadia Reyes has died twelve times. Different centuries, different methods — same hands, same face, same cold eyes watching her take her final breath. At twenty-seven, armed with soul memories that science cannot explain and a rage that twelve lifetimes of dying has sharpened into something precise, she stops running. She spends eight months engineering an introduction to Dorian Ashvale — the man her soul recognizes as her killer — seduces him deliberately, and marries him with one goal: end the cycle on her terms before he ends it on his.
Dorian doesn't remember any of it. He only knows that Nadia feels like a memory he was never supposed to have, and that marrying her is the first decision in his life that has ever felt completely, terrifyingly right. But as Nadia moves closer to executing her revenge, her forensic genealogy skills uncover something that fractures everything — Dorian's violence across lifetimes wasn't chosen. His soul has been hijacked by an ancient predatory entity that feeds on Nadia's interrupted purpose, growing stronger every time she dies before completing something she was always meant to finish.
The monster she married didn't kill her. Something far older did — using his hands.
As the entity begins to activate, triggering blackout episodes Dorian cannot control, Nadia faces the most dangerous realization of all thirteen lifetimes: she is falling in love with the man she planned to destroy. Book 1 ends when Dorian surfaces from his worst blackout yet to find Nadia bleeding — and looks at her with the eyes of a man who remembers nothing and is about to lose everything.
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Chapter: She Remembers HimPOV: Nadia"Sable," Nadia said. "Tell me everything."Her sister looked at the man called Dorian and the man called Dorian gave the smallest nod and Sable looked back at Nadia with the expression of someone who has been dreading a conversation and is relieved it is finally here and said, "Sit down first.""I will stand," Nadia said.Sable sat instead, on a ballroom chair someone had left near the wall, and she looked up at Nadia and said, "Your name is Nadia Reyes. You are twenty-seven years old. You are a forensic genealogist and you are the best one I have ever seen work and you have been my sister for twenty-four years and I have never once in those twenty-four years seen you do anything without a reason." She paused. "What you did this morning had a reason. The biggest one you have ever had.""Tell me the reason," Nadia said.---So Sable told her.Not everything, the compressed version, but honest in the way that only Sable could be honest, which was without architecture or manag
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Chapter: A Stranger's FacePOV: Dorian "My name is Dorian," he said, and his voice came out steady, which was the single greatest performance of his life.She looked at him with those dark eyes that had been reading him since a corridor on the fourteenth floor and found nothing. No recognition, no soul pull, no reaching quality. Just a woman looking at a man she had never seen before trying to understand why her legs had stopped working and why his arm around her felt like something her body recognized before her mind had any opinion on the matter."Dorian," she repeated, the way you repeat a word in a foreign language to test the shape of it."Yes," he said."Where am I," she said."Vienna," he said. "You are safe. You came here for a reason and the reason is finished and I am going to take you somewhere you can sit down."She let him move her because her legs were still making their own decisions and because his arm was apparently something her body had opinions about that her mind had not been consulted on,
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Chapter: The Choice She MadePOV: Nadia "Before I begin," Nadia said, and her voice carried in the ballroom the way voices carried in large old rooms, with the specific acoustic quality of spaces that were built when people understood that a room's purpose was to hold sound, "I need every soul present to understand what you are participating in and what it will cost you. Not the version the record distributed during the naming. The full version. What the lead voice bears and what the distributed consumption means for each of you individually."Nobody left.She had given them the opening and nobody moved toward the door and she noted that with the forensic attention she gave everything and filed it under the specific category of things that confirmed the first soul had understood human beings better than most humans understood themselves."The entity is currently contained in a voluntary host," she said. "That host is in this room. When the assembly performs the collective naming she will release the containment i
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Chapter: What She Always MeantPOV: Dorian He took the document from Vael and opened it to the last page and the marginal notes were there the way they had always been there, dense and urgent in the extinct dialect, and he read the first line and stopped.It was different.Not the words — the words were the same words he had read in a car outside a stone property two hours north of a city that felt considerably further away than two hours right now — but the meaning sitting underneath the words had shifted in the way that meaning shifts when context changes everything the words were always pointing at, and he stood in the morning ballroom with the assembly settling around him and read the marginal notes from the beginning with the specific attention of a man who understood he had been reading a map without knowing the territory and was now standing in it."Dorian," Nadia said, from beside him."Give me two minutes," he said.She gave him two minutes.He could feel her giving them to him, that specific quality of Na
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Chapter: Not Her VoiceNadia's POV She knew the voice.Not from this lifetime and not from the twelve death memories and not from anything she had researched across three years of network files and genealogy records. She knew it from the transfer, from the specific part of the woman's thirty years that had come through alongside the technical knowledge, from the layer underneath the passage location and the naming mechanism that she had not fully inventoried because the Vienna sequence had not given her the time.The entity was not speaking.The voice coming through the apprentice was the voice of the first Nadia soul."1423."Dorian moved to her side before she finished understanding what she was hearing, not a decision, his body making the assessment that something significant had shifted in the room and his position needed to reflect that, and she felt him beside her and kept her eyes on the apprentice and listened.The voice said, in the extinct Austrian dialect that Dorian had spoken during the episod
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Chapter: The Ball RoomDorian's POV "Four hours became three while we were sleeping," Nadia said, pulling her coat on, and Dorian was already at the door because the message had been sitting on his phone for eleven minutes while he let her finish reading it and he was not going to tell her he had been watching her read it with the specific attention of a man storing something he was afraid of losing and he was definitely not going to tell her why."Vael," he said, into his phone, walking into the corridor. "The ballroom. What does the apprentice need to set up before an assembly of forty-seven souls and how long does that setup take."Vael picked up on the first ring which meant he had also seen the message and had not slept. "Physical preparation for a collective naming takes approximately ninety minutes. Positioning, frequency alignment, the lead voice establishing the anchor resonance before participants arrive." A pause. "If she started when she sent the message she is already ninety minutes into prepa
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Debt Paid In Sin
In order to save her family from ruin, Seraphina Vale signs a one-year contract that sells her body and soul to the ruthless billionaire Kaelan Voss — the man she blames for destroying her life.
Trapped in his luxurious penthouse, Sera must obey every command: attend elite events on his arm, follow his strict rules, and surrender to his darkest desires whenever he demands.
What begins as furious hate turns into addictive, filthy pleasure. But Kaelan is not the monster she thought. As dangerous enemies close in and shocking betrayals surface, Sera finds herself craving the very man who owns her.
In a world of power, obsession, and sin, one question remains:
Will she pay the debt with her body… or lose her heart in the process?
Warning: Extremely explicit content. Dark themes, dubious consent, possessive anti-hero, heavy spice, and jaw-dropping twists.
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Chapter: The Rescue CallPOV: Sera I couldn’t breathe.The video kept playing on my phone — my mother sitting in our living room, looking tired and worried, completely unaware of the two men in dark clothes watching her through the window like predators. The message underneath was clear: Your mother is next if you don’t convince him to end the contract by morning.My legs gave out. I slid down the wall until I was sitting on the cold marble floor of the bedroom, the sheet pooled around my waist, Kaelan’s cum still leaking down my thighs from the way he had just fucked me. Tears burned hot down my face as I clutched the phone like it was a lifeline about to snap.“Kaelan…” My voice came out broken, barely a whisper. “They have my mother. They’re watching her house right now. Because of me. Because I keep choosing you instead of walking away.”He was on me in seconds, dropping to his knees in front of me, his strong hands cupping my face. His steel-gray eyes were dark with fury, but not at me. “Give me the pho
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Chapter: The Weight Of Being ClaimedPOV: Sera The split screen was still live when Liora dropped her bomb. Her face filled half the screen, tears streaming down her perfect makeup as she held up copies of the contract.“Kaelan Voss has been keeping Seraphina Vale as his paid sexual slave,” she said, her voice breaking perfectly for the cameras. “Here is the contract she signed. One year of her body in exchange for money. This is not romance. This is exploitation. And I have more evidence coming.”The studio went dead silent. The host looked like he wanted to disappear. Millions of viewers were watching live. Comments flooded the screen so fast they blurred.I felt like I was going to throw up.Kaelan’s hand tightened around mine under the table, his grip almost painful. But his face stayed calm, cold, like he had expected this.The interview ended abruptly. The moment the cameras cut, I stood up so fast my chair fell backward. “What the hell was that? She just called me your paid slave on live television!”Kaelan stood
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Chapter: Public ClaimPOV: Kaelan The phone rang at 3:17 AM, shattering the heavy silence in the bedroom. Liora’s name flashed across the screen like a warning. I was still balls-deep inside Sera, her tight pussy clenching around my cock, her body slick with sweat and my cum from the round we had just finished. She froze beneath me, her hazel eyes flying open in panic.I answered the call without pulling out.“What the fuck do you want, Liora?” I growled, my hips giving one slow, deliberate thrust that made Sera bite her lip to stifle a moan.Liora’s voice exploded through the speaker, sharp and venomous. “You arrogant piece of shit! The photos are everywhere! You’re balls-deep in that cheap slut while the whole world thinks we’re engaged? Our families are calling me nonstop. The alliance is collapsing as we speak. End this nonsense right now or I will destroy you and that whore you’re hiding!”Sera’s nails dug into my shoulders, her body trembling with a mix of shame and unwanted arousal as I continued m
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Chapter: Cracks in the ArmourPOV: Sera The video of my mother sitting alone in our living room, completely unaware of the two men watching her through the window, played on repeat in my head. I shoved the phone away from me on the bed, my hands shaking so badly I couldn’t hold it anymore.“They have her too,” I choked out, turning to Kaelan. “They’re watching my mother’s house right now. Because I’m here. Because I keep letting you touch me instead of walking away.”Kaelan’s face hardened, but his arms stayed around me, pulling me closer even as I tried to push him away. “They’re trying to break you. Don’t let them.”“Don’t let them?” I laughed through my tears, the sound raw and ugly. “I’m already broken. I’m lying in your bed, naked, covered in your marks, still feeling you inside me, while my family is being threatened. What kind of daughter am I? What kind of sister?”He grabbed my face with both hands, forcing me to look at him. His steel-gray eyes were burning with something fierce and possessive. “You’re
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Chapter: Brother's UltimatumPOV: Kaelan Marcus was banging on the bedroom door like he wanted to break it down. “Sera! Open this door right now! I heard everything. I know he’s in there with you. If you don’t come out, I’m calling the police and telling them you’re being held against your will!”I was still buried deep inside Sera, her legs wrapped around my waist, her body trembling from the orgasm I had just given her. Her hazel eyes were wide with panic as she looked up at me, her lips swollen from my kisses, her skin marked by my mouth.“Answer him,” I whispered against her ear, starting to move inside her again — slow, deliberate thrusts that made her bite her lip to stay quiet. “Or let him hear exactly what you sound like when you come for me.”Sera’s breath hitched. “Kaelan… please. Not now.”Marcus banged harder. “Sera! I’m serious. I’m not leaving without you.”She pushed at my chest, but there was no real force behind it. I thrust deeper, hitting that spot that always made her moan my name. A small, b
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Chapter: Midnight ConfessionsPOV: Sera I couldn’t stop staring at the video on my phone. Marcus being dragged into that car, the gun pressed to his side, the message demanding I convince Kaelan to end the contract or my brother dies. My hands shook so badly I almost dropped the device.Kaelan’s arms tightened around me from behind, his bare chest warm against my back, his cock still half-hard and pressed against my ass from our last round. “Breathe, Sera. I’m not letting them take him.”“How can you say that?” I turned in his arms, pushing at his chest even as tears burned down my face. “They have my brother. They have guns. And I’m lying here naked in your bed, still dripping with your cum, while my family is falling apart because of me. Because of us.”He grabbed my wrists gently but firmly, pulling me closer until our foreheads touched. “Because you’re mine. And I protect what’s mine. Even if it costs me everything.”The intensity in his steel-gray eyes made my stomach flip. I hated how much I believed him. I
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