LOGINThis is a diary of dark, depraved thoughts. Turn the page if you dare. *** *** She’s a secret erotic artist. Behind closed doors, she sketches the same man over and over again—filthy, dangerous, and forbidden. Then she sells the drawings to the black market to pay for her mother’s medical bills and her sister’s college tuition. It should be simple. Except the man in those drawings isn’t a stranger. He’s Dominic—her father’s best friend. Every sinful stroke of her brush chips away at her innocence and poisons her love life. Every relationship she tries to build ends the same way—ruined by a man who doesn’t even know she’s obsessed with him. Until the night everything goes wrong. She wants to stop, wants a fairytale love life, but she owes her anonymous collectors one more portrait. Determined to make one final drawing of her darkest fantasy, she locks herself in her studio… only for Dominic to walk in and see the explicit portraits displayed across her walls. Her secret should destroy her. Instead, Dominic makes her a far more dangerous deal. For 365 days, she’ll work for him as his obedient secretary—and in return, he’ll keep her scandalous secret buried. But the closer she gets to the man she’s spent years drawing in the dark, the harder it becomes to remember one thing: Some fantasies should never come to life.
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The alcohol burns through my body in hot waves—hotter than my micro-dick ex ever made me feel. I down my third shot of vodka and welcome the fire tearing down my throat. I loved Blake. More than all five of my exes combined. I loved him so much that I squirmed and faked my moans just to feed his fragile ego. And somewhere in my stupid, juvenile heart, I thought he was my forever. We’d have six kids, and live happily in a farmhouse, far away from the world. I've always dreamed of a fairytale wedding with him, me in an overflowing lacy wedding gown handmade with love, while my ridiculous assistants—Clara the parrot and Carol my dog—watch like they own the place. Blake will be in his expensive suit, with a pretty smile and jet-black hair. He just had to ruin it like a freaking raccoon! I sniffle and suck up a sob. In my head, I’m holding a whip, and Blake is in rags, chained and bloody as he kneels before me, begging for mercy, my dazzling white dress is now black, maybe to celebrate his funeral. “Screw you!” I yell and down my fourth shot. I wipe my tears with the back of my hand, trying to convince myself that he’s not worth it. In his words, we’re not sexually compatible. “Fucker.” I chuckle, realizing how ridiculous and selfish he was. I signal for the bartender to bring another shot. This is one of those times I spend money on myself without calculating every penny. She slips the glass over and I take it. My fingers circle the rim, and my mind slowly drifts to the breakup. ‘I’m done, Elena.’ Blake’s cold voice replays in my head. ‘This… It’s not working. I can't cope with a dry-pussy bitch—’ Then I slapped him hard. Yes. I slapped the rest of his words off his sorry ass mouth. And poor nepo baby who had never been touched all his life couldn't take it. His eyes had switched to bloodshot red, he moved with fury, tearing down the house, throwing down everything that belonged to me, then he went for that portrait, my dirty obsession hidden in innocent strokes of black and white… It was a portrait of a faceless man banging a lady on his office desk. Well, it was decent enough to have his cock buried in her body so that the only thing it gave off was their naked skin pressed together, glistening with their filthy sweat. The lady had her boobs spill off her unbottened black sleeves as she gripped the edge of her boss’s table and moaned to hell’s door. What Blake knew was that the portrait was a reckless purchase… not the truth. That I was the filthy artist. And that faceless man was no stranger. He is Dominic Mercer. My dad’s best friend. A man twice my age. He was practically my dad’s partner in crime, until he disappeared. My head involuntarily bobs to the loud banging music in the club. The neon-blue light swings back and forth as if finding the best talent, and settles on sexy strippers in pairs of daring lingerie. One of them dives for the pole and like a fluid, twists around it with her head hanging down. I’d rather walk on water than dance on that pole. My focus shifts as I scout for Riley, my bestie. We’ve been friends since childhood and after our high school, she’d taken a second job here as a bottlegirl to raise money for her tuition. I, on the other hand, every penny is spent on my mum’s cancer drugs, and Sophie, my little sister’s fees. My deadbeat dad is better off out of the picture. On prom night, I buried my dream of becoming an artist—for Sophie. Wanna know why? ‘Cus my greatest fulfillment will be seeing her turned out to be nothing like me: broken and ruined. “Not again!” A familiar feminine voice snatches me from my thoughts. I blink my eyes open to see Riley’s face almost pressed against mine, her wild green eyes studying my face. She’s cosplaying a maid, her short flared black skirt hangs high on her tiny waist, revealing her long skinny summer thighs. The kind you fantasize about smearing oil on and licking with your tongue. Her big boobs push against her white dress, daring to snap the buttons. “C’mon, you didn't really like him.” Her tiny lips arch as she pouts. “And you know it.” “I loved him enough, Rey.” She mimics a dead person, as if she’s heard it a million times and it's driving her crazy. “Poor baby.” I try to pull back but she grabs my chin and does a last sweep of my face. “Lena, he’s not worth it, get over him.” Her tone is accusatory. “I am…” “Obviously.” She takes my drink and gulps it, unapologetic. “Rey, you can't just—” “Bills on me,” she stops me from ranting. “First, your phone. Hand it over.” She stretches her hand. I roll my eyes, not sure why she’s suddenly asking for my phone. I love my privacy, not because I enjoy my space, but because I have so many secrets that should never slip to the surface. They will ruin me. Riley isn't patient enough, she simply grabs my purse, roots out my phone, and starts typing away. Jesus! “What are you doing?” I almost fall off the barstool. “Here.” She slams it in my palm. There’s a mischievous glint in her eyes that I can't miss. “What did you do?” I hastily flip it to see for myself. “I gave you the last lick. You’re welcome.” She packs my empty shots on her tray. I zoom in on the text Riley sent to Blake. ‘Sweetie, since you chose the ‘Truth’ card, here’s one. Your penis is so tiny it can't please me like my little finger!’ Then she blocked him. My jaw drops. “Riley!” I stutter, stuck between laughing and ranting. “You didn't have to—” “Like you don't like it.” She winks. Frankly, she got it off my chest. “Still…” “Shhh,” she presses her forehead to mine, our lips almost brushing. “And what do you say?” I sigh, the words are suddenly too heavy to say. “Cheers to Blake’s loss.” It’s like an anthem I repeat after every heartbreak, and now, I feel like the problem. How many more frogs do I have to kiss? “Now, we get high and party.” She replaces the liquor glasses. “Don't worry, my boss won't find out.” She takes my hand and drags me along. I can barely stay on my feet. We drink and dance and laugh till the floor starts spinning. Till our sweat soaks through our clothes. Till all we need is a good distraction. And god! My legs are wobbly, I’m burning inside out and I really need to ease out. Riley bumps into me, smearing her boobs against my full ones. Almost all her buttons are undone, stripping her pink bra for the world to see. She doesn't care, not when she intentionally bounces and gives the club a thing to drool over. “I think he likes you!” She yells, tipsy. My gaze follows hers to the tall fine stranger in faded jeans and a t-shirt. He plays with his glass, feeding me with ideas that I don't fancy. “You should go!” She nudges my arm. “I think he’s the ‘one’. He looks like him.” It's typical of her to shift into her sexual psychic energy whenever she’s high. But there’s something I haven't told Riley… I've never felt sexually attracted to any of my exes, except the mysterious man in the portrait. Against my will, his perfect silhouette messes with my head. He’s built like sin, raw in form. Skin, shimmering like liquid gold pouring over stone. I remember every detail, every drip of his sweat that ran down his firm muscles, as thirsty as molten honey, sweet but deadly. My throat bobs. Fingers twitch with the urge to touch myself while I dream of his hands. Those callous hands that leave imprints on your throat, on your bare skin when they grip your waist. Oh, fuck… The firm curves of his hip when he rams into bodies, wrecking you, body and soul. Oh, I remember… Every sinful thrust, the filthy sound of his balls bashing against wetness. I shut my eyes and bite the inside of my lip, so hard that I taste my own blood. My thighs involuntarily clench, squeezing against themselves like a feral beast hunting for pleasure. A deep groan slips off my throat. Something wet slips down my body, soft and warm, like I’m all lubed up and soaked, it pools in my cotton panties, and clings to my wetness. No. Not here. Please. “Fuck…” My legs give way and I fall forward. “I have to go.”ELENAMy eyes snapped open. The bright, sharp white light of the hospital room cut straight into my head, making my eyes burn. I sat up fast, my heart knocking hard against my ribs like it was trying to break out of my chest.There was a massive metal bed plugged into the wall. Sebastian was lying there.His face was completely white, almost the same color as the sheets, but his chest was moving up and down in a slow, steady line. He was breathing. He was alive."Hey. Easy, El. Don't jump up like that."I whipped my head around. Maya was sitting on a low metal stool by the window. She was holding a paper cup of coffee so tightly the cardboard was bending in her fingers. She looked totally wrecked. The skin under her eyes was dark purple, and her hair was a messy knot on top of her head."Where is he?" I choked out. My throat felt like it was full of dry sand, the words scraping against my tongue. I pulled the blanket off my legs, my eyes frantically darting around the empty corners of
ELENAThe hospital hallway was dead quiet. The big double doors at the end had shut a while ago when the Senator and his people went into a private office with the head doctor. That just left Julian and me sitting on those hard plastic chairs under the bright, buzzing white lights. Maya was down in the basement trying to find some water bottles, so nobody else was around to watch us.The red light over the door was still burning. It looked like a small, bleeding eye in the dark hall.Julian sat right next to me, leaning his shoulder against mine. His right hand was completely covered in a thick white splint from the ER doctor, resting uselessly on his lap. His other hand—his good one—was rubbing my back in slow, warm circles, trying to stop me from shaking. He looked so tired. His hair was a mess and his green eyes were full of worry for his brother, but he kept looking down at me just to make sure I was still breathing.He was being so good to me. He had been a solid wall since the v
ELENAThe sound of Sebastian’s head hitting the marble edge was a sound I would hear for the rest of my life. It was a wet, heavy crack that stopped the whole world. Then came the blood. It came out fast, a thick, dark red puddle spreading across the floorboards, soaking into his hair, ruining the kitchen rug.Something inside my brain just broke.I let Dominic build walls around me because I thought his money made him a god. But looking at Sebastian lying there completely still, his eyes rolled back and his life leaking onto the floor, the fear didn't just leave me—it turned into a burning, white-hot rage.I jumped up from the floor. My hands were covered in Sebastian's hot blood. I didn't care. I turned on Dominic like a wild animal."Get away from him!" I screamed, my voice tearing in my throat. I didn't just yell—I flew at him. I slammed my blood-covered palms straight into his chest, shoving him back with every single bit of strength I had.Dominic didn't move much, but his face
SEBASTAINI was pacing a path into the hardwood floor of the penthouse, the pain in my hand entirely white-hot and blinding. But the physical pain didn't mean anything compared to the absolute panic turning my stomach inside out.Elena was sitting on the very edge of the leather sofa. Her face was completely white, all the color drained from her cheeks, and her eyes were totally blank as she stared down at the floorboards. She hadn't moved a single muscle since we ran out of the school into the freezing rain. She looked like a ghost waiting for the floor to drop out from under her."We have to go right now, Elena," I said. My voice sounded tight, scraping against my throat as I stopped right in front of her. I reached down with my good hand and grabbed her shoulder, my fingers digging into her denim jacket to try and force her to look up at me."My father's people can have a car here in five minutes. We can head up north to the cabin. Dominic doesn't own every single highway out of Ne
Elena’s POV Holy heck! We are squeezed at the back of the taxi without recalling how swiftly we jumped from the hotel on a single sentence. Sophie’s drunken state wiped out at a go, and Riley has a stomach for alcohol to be disturbed. As soon as I rushed back into the club, where they had been
Elena’s POVHis big frame glides up my body like a predator, marking my body, and settling right on top of me when his cock kisses my pussy.I hold a gasp, mouth agape, expecting the big, filthy thrust. My hands quiver with the need to wrap around his chin and pull him deep inside of me. Then he
Elena’s POVHis ocean eyes keep me trapped, drowning out the sound of objects crashing. It's like peace in chaos… something deeper and unusual than I’ve ever felt. Against my will, my eyes scan his perfect face, down his chiseled abs, and drag to the towel, staring a bit too long as if wishing my
Elena’s POVI keep my arms crossed and sit in the black SUV, impatiently waiting for the driver to get in. He is stuck on the phone and keeps talking for the longest. I open the door to scream his attention for the tenth time when the front door opens and he slips in, behind the wheel. “Took you






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