Funeral complete, we solemnly return to the packhouse. It is a huge wooden structure that dominates the centre of Cragstone. The wood panelled dining room is full of angry men, plans and talks of vengeance against an enemy they have yet to identify.
The atmosphere is so tense it leaves me breathless.
I look for Nikolai, but again he has vanished. Instead it is Freya, his older sister who sweeps me into her arms with a sympathetic, “you did so well out there”. Her huge brown curls bounced around to her shoulders.
My long blonde hair hangs straight down my back whilst my green eyes are tinged with red from crying. “Nikolai is with my father, are you happy to travel back to White Forest with me and Phillipe?”
“He’s…Nikolai isn’t waiting for me?” I stammer. How is this man going against everything I have heard about the bond? From across the room I spotted him. Stood close to his father, the equally dark and brooding Alpha Alexander, the two form a severe, aloof pair.
“No sorry, he asked us to take you.”
“What if I wanted to stay here, with my brother for a few days? All my friends are here!”
Freya looked at Phillipe awkwardly. Despite his crazy shock of white hair and blue-purple eyes he seemed kind enough, “I believe Nikolai wants you back safe at White Forest.”
My heart quivers at the sudden sight of Nikolai across the room. My wolf demands we walk up to him and demand his affection. I crave his skin on mine, like a starving man I’ll take any morsel he will give me.
However I will not be commanded like a servant. “He can come and tell me that himself then,” I tell Freya curtly, before heading through the crowded room to find my brother.
As I exit he meets my eyes. For the shortest second we share a connection and Priya, my wolf spins with joy. All those jet-black curls tumbling down to his jawline. Shoulders twice as wide as me. Gorgeous. Yet as I appreciate my mate’s form his mouth hardens and he looks away.
It stings like a slap across the face.
Cillian’s blue eyes meet mine and he nods to the side. I don’t know why he didn’t just mind link me. Winding my way up the wooden staircase to my parents' study, it still smells of them.
Apple and berries. The study is stacked with notes on every topic imaginable for the pack. Cillian had a whole library to consult for every question. Except for the only ones that mattered, who killed them? Why kill them?
The heavy door thudded like a bank vault as it shut. Soundproofed. “Genevieve, I’m sorry you had to arrange all this on your own, I’ve not…I tried to work out who did it before the trail went cold. It’s all gone to shit. I've got nothing.”
We sat against the heavy mahogany desk. Our father’s correspondence piled high alongside Cillian’s new official wax seals and insignia.
“You didn’t find anything? What have you been doing all this time then?”
Cillian gripped the edge of the desk, his knuckles turning white. "I need to get back out there but I can’t while the pack is desperate for blood. Some of the Beta’s are suggesting war already. We need answers first!”
“We do, who would we even be declaring war against right now,” I agreed softly, my eyes wandering around the room, taking in as many memories and scents as possible before having to leave.
Cillian sighed, pinching his brow between his fingers as if fighting a headache. “You said that night when…when I found them, that you had a vision?”
“I had the same dream, maybe four times before? They were just sleeping to me. I didn’t notice the red pin pricks on their necks from the wolfsbane injection.”
“That’s it? No other people, no clues? Nothing before or after?”
“No,” I said sadly. “If I knew anything at all I’d tell you.”
“Do you know where Nikolai was yet-”
“I’m working on that,” I snap back. “Don’t go there.”
It’s hypocritical but only I can be pissed at my mate. Before anyone else I’ll defend him to the death. Priya surged forward with an anger I’d never felt before.
I wanted to shift, extend my claws, and protect my mate. Even towards my own brother my eyes flashed with pink at the merest hint of an accusation.
I’m working on it, like I say.
Cillian raised his hands, “of course. The sooner the better. If it gets out he isn’t accounted for…they’re going to point fingers.”
“I know. You had better get back out there. I’ll write to you.”
“You’ve heard the rumours about him haven’t you?”
A dagger of ice pierced my chest with fear. “What rumours?”
“Well we knew nothing about him when we went to that ball. I’ve done some digging. He’s not like us Gen, sounds like he’s missing his fucking heart to be honest.”
“What do you mean by that? He’s my mate!”
“I mean I’ve heard he’s been responsible for deaths in the past. So, the sooner he can prove where he was the better. You can’t keep saying he was with you. It’s going to get out that he wasn’t.”
Despite resenting his words we shared a parting hug. I whispered, “you will be an amazing Alpha. Father prepared you well,” and I was surprised to see his blue eyes brim with tears for the first time today.
Inhaling deeply, he kissed the top of my head. “A lot has changed but I am always here for you. Maybe we all just need to get to know Nikolai...”
The temptation to sarcastically reply with “I’d like to get to know him too,” was overwhelming. Instead I smile softly and leave. That’s the best thing I can do for him right now. If he thinks I’m happy and in love at White Forest that’s one less worry for Cillian. The fact he has dropped a bombshell of information on me is something to think about later.
Leaving his study I walk straight into a solid wall of black fabric. Dark, soulful eyes peer down at me from within a tousled mop of black hair. Priya whirls and my heart races. Is that a hint of ruby that glints at me as he swiftly steps backwards?
Mate she screams in my head, realising we are close enough to inhale his spiced scent.
“Nikolai, can we talk?”
“I need you to head back with Freya. Do not argue about it. You are safer at White Forest.” His tone was commanding, even though I despise being told what to do, it sounded delicious in his voice.
“Why are you not coming with us?” aware that I sounded like a whining brat. “Why even bother coming today!”
“It is not your concern right now Genevieve,” as his eyes broke contact with me I felt a shiver of cold. Being with him was to stand in the sunlight, even though he didn’t want to be there with me.
He moved to leave, halfway down the stairs before I cried out, my voice an embarrassingly high-pitched panic. “Wait! When will I see you again then? We’re mates in case you don't remember!”
He sighed, rolling his shoulders in annoyance, his back still turned to me. As if the question was silly. It wasn’t foolish to me. Less than a week ago I handed over my soul and received part of his in return.
I am starting to hate the fact that even though he is being so cold, desperate heat is pooling between my legs, my skin burning for his touch. Even now, on such a day I want him to hold me. No, I want him to screw me and make me forget this is one of the worst days of my life.
Upsetting as it is to consider…why was he lurking outside the study? Was he trying to eavesdrop? He’s only a year older than me, what darkness can he possibly be hiding?
/Outrageous! Trust our mate!/ Priya screeched into my mind but it's hard when he's a complete stranger to me.
As if sensing my suspicion he forced himself to speak.
“I will see you soon. I cannot say exactly when, but I will not be coming here. If you want to see me, again get in the car with Freya.”
“Fine,” releasing a sigh of my own. I doubted my parents’ blissful relationship started with such miserable resistance.
The car journey back to White Forest was one of utter boredom. Freya is a nice girl but she could only sustain sadness about my parents for the first hour.
Idly twirling long brown ringlets as the scenery scrambled by, she moved onto the topic of her commitment ceremony. Only two months away, she and Phillipe were to be the future rulers of the Rising Star pack.
His bright white spiked hair, tall and lean body was such a contrast to her short, curvaceous frame and warm brown eyes. The commitment ceremony. The huge castle. The hundreds of guests, the trivial dancing and fucking flower arrangements.
The hours of driving did not fly by.
"Will your mother be fit to attend by then?" I ask her, a hint of malice in my question. as Phillipe glares across at me. His eyes flash green then purple.
"I don't know," she whispered, clearly wounded.
"Two months is a long time my sweet," Phillipe said softly clasping his hand in hers. "Luna Helena may recover her mind yet."
I look out of the window wondering why the Luna who had hardly anything to do with my parents for twenty years, was suddenly incapaciated by their deaths.
We are three weeks into this war with the Hybrid Army. My mind buzzes with mindlinks. The silence and lack of activity only raises tension as we stare down the country roads. Men are positioned on clifftops, every vehicle movement monitored.Staring for hours down a silent valley of green forest I couldn't help reminiscing. The surprise at seeing Maddox, carrying his hurriedly written sealed letter. He arrived just after the Full Moon Dance, the single, unmated hopefuls having completed their line ups. I was relieved none of my battalion made a match, to rip that new bond apart would be brutal. He stood panting as I read how Helena had made the move to declare war via ripping Beta Patrick’s eye out. I was shocked, but I wasn’t against the move. It's unhealable too, it used to mean someone who abused women. It’s still the sign of a criminal today. He took the vials of all those stolen wolves. He's guilty as sin and I'll happy rake his other eye when I get chance.Sadly, Maddox’s arriv
He is a beast. In the best possible way. He slinks around on the bed like some lazy, dark-eyed cat. Then, in an instant he’s full of fire. The intensity in his eyes is breathtaking. How much he cares for his pack. The way he sends me to heaven with his touch. How beautifully his muscular body shines in the water, the droplets from his black hair landing on me like drum beats as he devoured me. I’m in love with every single side of himWe have marked each other, we’re bound to other body and soul, and yet there are still surprises. The strip-sparring was the silliest thing I’ve ever done in my life. I had to beg him to stop in case I was sick, wrapped up together in a heap on the floor. And he let me win, just like he said he would back before our attack.It felt wrong to have enjoyed the past few days so much when we walked into the yellow parlour room. There was no mistaking the sound of her voice as he opened the large wooden door. Nikolai’s big sister is a curious personality. Lik
There was no secrecy or hidden drop-off by the steely-eyed Maddox as we approached White Forest castle's courtyard. The flags fluttered at half-mast in formal mourning. A quick shudder raced down my spine.The drive saw Maddox had fill Vee and I in on the events of the past week. Phillipe had been sniffing around my parents the instant the news of my alleged death broke. Maddox had overheard at least one enquiry about their intention to still lead. Reminding them Freya was here to help. A peaceful conquest.“Is Freya okay?” Vee asked, her green eyes full of worry. “She must have been devastated at the news.”“She’s been in a bad way. Not much let up on the crying to be honest the couple of times I’ve seen her.”Coldly I interrupted Maddox, “the more upset she is now, the more likely that hurt will propel her into doing the right thing. Rejecting Phillipe and getting the hell away from him.”Then the sweet, teasing voice of Vee filtered through./The prophecy Padgett gave me. She said t
I almost dropped to the floor when I saw my sisters. The copper-haired dark-eyed stares of my beautiful little sisters. All dressed up and already squealing with excitement. A year younger than me, Leona and Naomi wore cream and beige-toned clinging maxi-gowns, their athletic shapes on display. At just sixteen, Eleanour wore an elaborate white concoction that had an insane amount of feathers. She was a gold, white and silver bonanza. Little Phoebe, our baby of thirteen, sported a bright pink, almost flamenco style dress.“What are you all doing here? You all look so beautiful! Oh Goddess I am so pleased to see you all!” I cried as we hugged, most of us trying to stop any tears from spoiling our make-up.Leona inhaled sharply after the initial elation dialled down, trying to stop her tears escaping. Taking my hand she whispered. “This was Alpha Cillian’s idea. He knew that Papa would have wanted to give us away at our Ceremonies, so he suggested we start a new tradition in his honour.
"This space is ours now. Brand new just for us?" I asked softly, my fingertips gently wandering up Cillians chest. My other hand entwined with his, my wrist against his, feeling the strength of his pulse against mine."Our suite. Our space. Not soundproofed, yet though," he added and I smiled. I placed a soft kiss on his cheek and got on my tiptoes. Whispering into his ear as my free hand now searched downwards his body jerked into life. "Well the room needs christening Alpha. It's bad luck for us to leave now…and I'm too loud…"His eyebrow raised and then as I started gently massaging the front of his pants. Letting go of his hand as I deftly began unbuttoning. First his shirt then pants, all the while rubbing and toying with the ever-stiffening bulge I was longing to see. He shut his eyes, hissing as I grew braver.Placing kisses down his neck, on his mark and down his chest his breathing quickened. I sucked and licked every ridge of muscle, I thoroughly followed the sharply defined
The scarlet blush on Genevieve’s face as I told her I would be sending the bill for the redecoration to White Forest was sweet revenge. Certainly not revenge enough for walking to Nikolai’s bare ass and my office turned into a dilapidated sex den, but Matilda had asked me so sweetly not to be angry about it I yielded. Nikolai was more serious, completely straight-faxed. He, naturally, wanted to know everything about his parents' reaction. He only started grinning when I said his father had gone full claws-out rage at me.As he proudly strutted about, occasionally wrapping an arm around Gen’s waist while he listened I was amazed at his strength. The fact he had recovered so swiftly from the tired heap yesterday showed just how immensely powerful his wolf was. No wonder he had struggled for control before. Barely concealing a smirk as we stood paper-strewn wreckage, “I thought he might flare up."“No heads-up though?” “Nah, you’re quicker than him, but he’s scary as fuck when he gets
He resembled his father so strongly. Dark coffee brown eyes with flashes of ruby and jet black curls down to his jawline. Clenched tightly he looked ready to cause some damage if I didn’t stop gaping with an open mouth and answer him quickly.“Gen came to chat to me, I asked if we could swap rooms, have a change of scenery,” I lied, as Gen had blushingly begged me to. She wanted to surprise Nikolai with the reason why he was moving rooms. I wasn’t going to start asking too many questions about their sex life. I knew the power of the mate bond, the way one’s wolf keens and yearns for the other's touch. /Locked in a room, unable to make a sound together, you’d have climbed onto the roof and made for the trees with Cillian/ Nina mocked. I always considered myself fairly shy and boring but I have become alarmingly addicted to what Cillian can do to me. I am no different to Gen in craving my soul’s partner.“Swapping rooms? Is she insane? Is this a trick, are you in danger?” his voice dr
I’ve never experienced such a swing of emotions. When Cillian is here everything is joy. Even though war is coming and the preparations are clear to see across the town centre if he is in my eyeline I am the happiest woman on earth.Groups of men are being organised into battalions, put through drills and formations. I watched as the first batches were taken almost within an hour of us first arriving back alongside the pyre. Alongside the still smoking heap of collapsed wood men were completing their circuits. Group after group of exhausted, sweating semi-naked men tumbled into the square, all timed with a stopwatch by a stone-faced Zeke and his clipboard.Losing Franz has broken him inside. He’s hurting with nowhere to let it out. When I was fixing him up back at Tange’s he confessed to me how much he hated Zena.“She just walked out, for the exact amount of time it took to kill Franz? I don’t buy it,” he had scoffed. “Just left him there!”At the time I didn’t know what to say. I d
Beta’s Maddox and Adrian led me away, leaving a quietly distraught Helena and Alexander with the letter. Deposited in a library with huge vaulted stone ceilings, candelabras, and endless lines of bookshelves containing detailed historical records. Rise and fall is inevitable. I know in my bones Shadowlands is too young a pack to be cut down now. We will prosper. Finding out how Phillipe is protecting himself from harm is a big one. There is always the danger that killing Ruth would still leave him as Alpha, wielding power. “Mind if I read while I wait?”“No problem. It’s only the public record, anyway,” Beta Adrian replied, taking a seat by the door. Maddox kept his thick, tattooed arms folded. He wasn’t taking his eyes off me for a second.Random curiosity made me grab the books covering years when my father was a Beta here. He was head of the Beta Warriors and fought against the now defunct Five Lakes pack two decades ago. I read for hours about the lead-up to the attack, culmina