"Yeah, yeah, I know. But you gotta let me go so I can get in," Cailen explained and pacified Asher, pulling himself away and Asher's arms dropping to his side with a small pout.
Asher pouted for as long as it took him to circle the truck and hop into the driver's seat. When he was buckled in, Asher rolled his head to the side, smiling at him who returned it because he couldn't not return it.
Asher reached for his hand, flipped it and thread their fingers together while just continuously smiling at him.
Cailen felt the heat rushing to his cheeks and was a little confused as to what was going on. But then he realized Asher himself probably didn't know what was going on so he just went with it, squeezing Asher's hand and sending him a smile before starting up the truck and pulling away from the curb.
The drive wasn't long but Asher seemed to grow bored and started f
For a moment,Cailenjust got caught up in the kiss, like he normally did around Asher.He just wasn't able to think clearly around the guy and really, that just wasn't fair. It wasn't fair because that made it harder for him to act the way he was supposed to act and it made people suspicious.He knew what he was doing was a bad idea. He knew the second he kissed Asherback,he had just blown his whole act to bits.He knew he could have just pushed Asheraway, pretend to be upset or even just laugh it off as a drunken mistake.But he didn't. He should have, but he didn't.He didn't because he wanted this. He wanted this more than he knew and now that he was getting it, he wasn't going to push it away.Of course he wasn't thinking with his brain. He was thinking on instinct and instinct was telling him to kiss Asherback,so he did.He did and he earned the most wonderful sound fro
"'M so happy, Cai,"Ashermumbled sleepily.Cailensmiled down at him eventhough his eyes were shut. It just made him happy to hear Asherwas happy, especially in the current situation.“I was so anxious that you might’ve noticed and call me clingy, but I can’t stop myself.” Cailen remembered the conversation that he heard between Asher and William.So it was about that,he thought.But Cailen'ssmile fell whenhe realized the implication of what Asher said and when he continued, his words mumbled and trailing off as he fell asleep."I can't wait to tell the boys,"was what he said right before he fell asleep.Cailenfroze in his spot, his eyes going wide as he stared down at a sleeping Asher.Tell the boys? Did William know? They couldn't tell the boys, they couldn't tell anyone. That couldn't happen. That- This couldn't happen. Wh
He just kept walking down the driveway and down the sidewalk.He didn't know where he was going. He didn't have a plan.He could go back to Uni, his tuition and everything was already paid for and it was non-refundable so Edenand Deanwouldn't get the money back anyway, but the thought of going back there felt wrong.It felt like he wasn't really leaving and he needed to.He needed to leave and be done with it or it would end up hurting everyone even more.Hejustknew he couldn't stay there.He had fucked up royally and now he was paying for it.So for now,he would just walk around until he knew what to do.He didn't know how long that would be but he was thankful that the weather wasn't being a cliché right now with pouring rain and thunder.No, it was actually a nice night, a slight breeze that would have given him a slight chill if it weren't for the jumper he had grabb
Cailensat at the bus station, his ticket held firmly in his hand that rested on his knee.His leg was jiggling up and down, the events of the night not allowing him to sit still. His nerves were at an all-time high at the moment. He couldn't believe he was doing this.Most of all,he couldn't believe he was doing this tonight.He figured that he might as well pile all his biggest problems on at once. At least that way,he could deal with them all at once rather than get over one only to have the other blow up in his face.That was the only reason he could think of as to why he had just bought a ticket to Hamdover.So he could randomly just show up at her doorstep and say 'Hey, I'm the son you dumped on the doorstep of an orphanage! Do you remember me?'.He wasn't thinking, obviously.It seemed to be the theme tonight so he decided to just roll with it. He knew this would have to be done anyway. He knew he
"Um, Sir?"She asked because it must have been at least a minute and Cailenwas just standing there, staring at her.He just couldn't find his voice. It was her. She was standing right in front of him, asking how she could help him and he couldn't speak.He didn't know how he knew it was her, maybe it was her nose, maybe it was her eyes or her hair and that she actually did look like him, but he just knew.He had so many questions, so many things to say to her, yet he couldn't make any words form.This was a bad idea.Hell, the whole night had been a bad idea.How did he go from being at a party, to being with the boy he loved, to losing his family, to ending up staring at his biological mother like a fish in a fishbowl?Why did he come here? He shouldn't have come here.Why did he think he could do this? He couldn't do this.Cailen'sfeet were way ahead of his brain, one of them stepping bac
Cailen'seyes landed on a little girl that stood in the entry way, half her body hiding behind the wall with her head poking out. It was the same little girl that answered the door.He thought Arabellacalled her Ava. He tried smiling at her, not wanting to be rude but he's not too sure how that had turned out.Apparently,it was enough for her to stop hiding and step into the living room, another little girl following behind her that looked just like her. They were obviously twins and they were obviously both curious as to who was sitting in their living room."Hello,"Cailenspoke gently, making one of the twins grab hold of the other's arm."Hello,"the one who seemed to be the braver of the two spoke-the one that answered the door.He didn't say anything else because he wasn't sure Arabellawould want him interacting with her children, but apparently the kids were too curious."Who a
"Cailen," Arabellasaid and he could tell by her tone that the happy chit chat was over."Don't take this the wrong way, because I am glad you came.I never thought- I never thought I'd get to see you but, why are you here?" she asked softly, leaning forward so her elbows were resting on her knees. "I mean, do you have any questions? Like, what were you hoping to get from this?" she asked.He supposed it was a valid question, and he supposed he should have an answer, but he didn't. He didn't know why he came here. He didn't know what he wanted to happen."I don't know,"he admitted, still staring at the ground. "I- I just- I came here on a whim. I didn't even really think about it, not until you answered the door and- and then I really had no idea why I was here,"he explained.She took a moment to consider this, probably just as lost as him."Do you have any questions you want to ask? I'll try to answer them,"&nbs
Another silence fell over the room and Cailensuddenly wanted to take it back.He didn't actually want her to kick him out.He knew they only just met but, he's been rejected by so many mothers before. He wasn't sure he could be rejected by her as well."Okay,"she said finally, sounding confused. "What does that have to do with- Oh,"she spoke softly again, barely audible which surprised him.He was expecting harsher tones and much harsher words."I see now,"she said, sighing afterwards."What?" he asked quietly."They don't know, do they?" she asked.Cailenshook his head. Why wasn't she kicking him out?"And you think if they did, then...""Then they won't want me around anymore. I know they won't,"he finished for her."Are they homophobic?" she asked like she already knew what the answer would be."Uh, no- I- don't know,"he answered honestly.