"Cailen," Arabella said and he could tell by her tone that the happy chit chat was over.
"Don't take this the wrong way, because I am glad you came. I never thought- I never thought I'd get to see you but, why are you here?" she asked softly, leaning forward so her elbows were resting on her knees. "I mean, do you have any questions? Like, what were you hoping to get from this?" she asked.
He supposed it was a valid question, and he supposed he should have an answer, but he didn't. He didn't know why he came here. He didn't know what he wanted to happen.
"I don't know," he admitted, still staring at the ground. "I- I just- I came here on a whim. I didn't even really think about it, not until you answered the door and- and then I really had no idea why I was here," he explained.
She took a moment to consider this, probably just as lost as him.
"Do you have any questions you want to ask? I'll try to answer them,"&nbs
Another silence fell over the room and Cailensuddenly wanted to take it back.He didn't actually want her to kick him out.He knew they only just met but, he's been rejected by so many mothers before. He wasn't sure he could be rejected by her as well."Okay,"she said finally, sounding confused. "What does that have to do with- Oh,"she spoke softly again, barely audible which surprised him.He was expecting harsher tones and much harsher words."I see now,"she said, sighing afterwards."What?" he asked quietly."They don't know, do they?" she asked.Cailenshook his head. Why wasn't she kicking him out?"And you think if they did, then...""Then they won't want me around anymore. I know they won't,"he finished for her."Are they homophobic?" she asked like she already knew what the answer would be."Uh, no- I- don't know,"he answered honestly.
Cailen'sfeet thumped against the pavement, the sun beating down on him making it too hot for his jumper anymore.He awkwardly took it offover his white tshirtwhile juggling his bag and continuing to walk at the same time, tying it around his waist as he hurried down the streets of Beverwood, focused solely on getting home.He didn't know exactly what would happen when he got there but he knew he couldn't leave without any kind of explanation.It wouldn't be fair to his family. It might be hard as hell to say, but he had to tell them.Even if they do throw him out, at least everyone would have the answers they needed. Of course it would suck if that's what happened but it needed to be done.Cailenwas tired of hiding, of lying and pretending. He's been tired for a while now and he thinks he's finally snapped.He was kind of glad he ended up at Arabella's. He doesn't think he would have realized what he nee
Cailenwas pulled into both the room and William's arms.Williamheld him close, bent over slightly, allowing Cailento fit his head over his shoulder to see Ashersitting on his bed looking atthe floor.Noah was standing beside the bed withhis eyes on Cailen. Matthewwas standing at the end of the bed, arms crossed over his chest, his eyes also directed at him."Why didn't you answer any of us?" Williamdemanded, pulling away from Cailento look at him."My phone died.I'm sorry,"Cailenapologized, trying his best to ignore Noah's knowing stare and Matthew's blank stare. "I'm sorry.""I- We thought you were- running and I didn't know what to do,"Williamsaid quietly, somehow making himself look small even though he towered over Cailen.Williammust be a bit torn between his best friend and his brother and Cailenfelt like shit for putting him in
The room remained silent,but the silence was accompanied by a hand slipping into his and squeezing ever so slightly.When Cailenlooked over to his hand,he recognized William's long fingers and looked up to meet his emerald green eyes, slightly shining but mostly just happy."It's okay,"Williamsaid quietly, smiling at him through shiny eyes. "We love you no matter what,"he repeated Noah's words and he could tell he meant every one of them.Cailenmade a noise at that-a noise that was partly a laugh and partly a sob as Williampulled him into a hug. He really couldn't stop the tears that were soaked up by William's shirt and he thinks that he is not allowed to cry for at least a year after this.He just felt so relieved and happy that it was finally out there and he didn't have to worry about losing anyone.Soon,he felt another body press against his side and two more arms wrap a
Cailengiggled, curling into a ball on the couch as he tried to get his neck away from a pair of ticklish lips.He didn't mind Asherkissing his neck. It was actually one of his new favorite things, but Asherwas trying to tickle him and it was working. He would lightly brush his lips down his neck, smiling to himself and then chasing Cailen'sneck when he pulled away.It was irritating and childish and pretty much the most amazing thing in the world right now, especially since they were laying out in the open on the couch in the living room-Deanin his office with the door cracked so he could easily see them, and ‘keep an eye on them’ his father had said teasingly,but Cailendidn't have to worry.He was allowed to do this, he was allowed to be with Asherlike this whenever and wherever he wanted and it was amazing.He knew Edenwas just in the kitchen, Stellawas downstair
7 Years LaterAsher : Hurry home ;)Cailensmiled down at his phone before slipping it into the pocket of his winter jacket.He was just getting off his shift at the hospital, having spent the day wrapping up sprained ankles and tending to sore backs from slipping on the icy sidewalks.He was looking forward to going home and spending the night wrapped up in a blanket by the fire with Asherto snuggle up to. Of course it'll be a fake fire, one of those gas powered heater ones with the fake flames because they lived in a flat and not a house but it'll be just as nice.Even though they had moved into the flat several years ago, Cailenstill found himself smiling at the thought of it being their flat once in a while. He just couldn't believe this was how his life had turned out.He remembers when he thought he'd be living his life alone and miserable with a not-so-d
Everyone looked so happy and was smiling, so obviously,he was grinning back at them, despite his confusion."Correct me if I'm wrong," Cailensaid, still smiling as he turned to Asher. "But this looks like a party."Ashergrinned at him, hooking his fingers in the waistband of his scrubs and pulling him close, wrapping him in his arms again."You didn't really think I wouldn't want to celebrate your birthday, did you?" Asherasked, pecking him on the lips.Cailencould see everyone closing in around them from the corner of his eyes and knew he was about to give out a million and one hugs. Not that he really minded.Asherwinkedat himbefore stepping back and giving space to the people who want to greet him.Not a minute passed and he was being engulfed in a hug with Hazel.Hazelwished him a more personal 'happy birthday' to which he replied with a kind 'thank you'. Matt
The orphanage was not as Cailenremembered.The outside still looked tall and intimidating, at least to Cailen, but the inside had changed completely.Where there used to be dull beige walls, there were light blue walls, decorated in the children's paintings.There were also large photo displays along the main hall that lead down to the playroom and then the bedrooms.In the displays,there were photos of many different children, all with bright smiling faces, some playing in what he recognized as the playroom, some playing outside on the structure he remembered well, and some sat down to eat the food the orphanage made.The inside no longer looked rundown. It looked like a nice place,a happy place, but he knew better.He knew all too well that the smiles on those kids' faces were only a glimpse of brief moments.He knew that not even half an hour later of these picture being taken, those kids probably di