What would you do if you found out someone was hurting you just to hurt the one you love?
“I’ve never spoken to anyone about this. There are people who know, but it wasn’t because I told them, so this makes you the first,” I begin as I sit up and drag my hands down my face. The moment my life went to shit has played itself over and over in my nightmares. I look back on that night and think of all the ways I would change it, but I can’t. “Take your time, I’m not going anywhere,” she assures me as she sits up with me. She’s looking at me with so much patience. Not an ounce of judgement on her face. Yet. She reaches out, takes my hand, and intertwines her fingers with mine sending glorious heat through my palm. She’s soothing me and keeping me grounded and for that I’m grateful. I reach out and gently brush my thumb against her glittering, freckled cheek and watch her eyes gently close. I’ll never get tired of that reaction. “I’m a monster, Yildiz,” I say flatly, causing her to open her eyes, “But I wasn’t always like this.” I take in a deep breath and relax a little when s
Her hands fist my shirt as she rips it from my body, and I respond by lifting her by her ass. Our lips continue their rhythm as she wraps her legs around me and with one hand I rip her blouse open. As she removes the tattered fabric from her torso my hand cups and squeezes her right breast and she lets out a salacious moan that goes right to my groin. I move us pressing her against the glass that surrounds her room as I trail my kisses down her jaw and down to her neck. “Tell me what you want,” I whisper as I suck her earlobe between my lips and press my hardened cock against her. She lets out a soft moan as she fists her fingers into my hair, “You… inside me. Right now,” she demands breathlessly. Effortlessly I rip her bra from her body and admire her spectacular full breasts as they rise and fall with every breath she takes. I lean my head down and take one of her dark nipples into my mouth, sucking and teasing it with my tongue as she mewls from my touch. I want to hear her like
For the first time in weeks, I was sleeping peacefully. Not just peacefully, this was the best night's sleep of my existence. That was until something started to stir me awake. It felt like pressure against my skull followed by a crawling sensation. I could feel something was trying to get in my head and I knew instantly what it was. I’m half asleep, but I can feel my heart start to pound and panic setting in as this bastard tries to force his way into my head. Just when I think I’m going to open my eyes to a sight I shouldn’t be able to see, I feel Osiah’s arms tighten around me and a warm energy surround me, and as quick as it came the pressure disappears. I manage to make my eyes flutter open a little, and as I do I can just make out this stunning azure-blue energy flowing from Osiah and surrounding me. I don’t know if it’s because of our bond or if it’s just him, but somehow he’s protecting me. From his breathing, he sounds asleep but still, he’s protecting me. I smile and relax
When I finally wake up again, my limbs feel like jelly. Like every muscle has been relaxed into a floppy, jelly mass that brings a smile to my face and a tingle to my toes. I feel Osiah’s arm wrapped around me and him still nestled inside me and it makes me feel like I’ve found my home. I’ve always felt the Kartheca was my home, and physically it was, but being with Osiah is like my essram has found its home. I can feel something tying us together, it’s weak, like a thin thread trying to reach between us, but it’s not strong enough yet. Even though our bond isn’t complete I can feel the slightest echo of his feelings moving through me. I swear I could feel love mixed in with guilt, but I can’t be sure. Osiah tightens his hold on me and kisses my neck softly, “If you keep moving and stretching, I’m going to get hard again,” he mumbles against my flesh. I chuckle, “You say that like it’s a bad thing.” “I just don’t want to hurt you,” he says. I reluctantly let him slip out of me as
I could have handled that a lot better. She was asking me questions she had every right to ask and instead of saying I’m terrified if I bite you I’ll rip your throat out, or given the uniqueness of what I am, I have no idea what that would do to you if I completed our bond. It’s literally never been done. I could have said that; I should have said that and because I didn’t I got kicked out of her room and a door slammed in my face. Two things that have never happened to me before. “So when are you going to tell her?” a voice says from my right. I turn to see Yildiz’s sister – Nuray I think her name was – leaning against the wall with her arms folded and giving me a death stare. I was so distracted from getting kicked out I didn’t even notice her approach. “Excuse me?” I ask in irritation. I don’t have time for her issues, I have an angry animai to deal with, and I’m shirtless. “I know who you really are, and I know you haven’t told Yildiz because if you had, she would have told me,”
I’ve spent hours weeping despite my best efforts to stop. Just knowing I’m crying over a guy has left me feeling pathetic, and that’s not something I’ve ever felt before and I hate it. It’s like it says in that Lee Marvin song, ‘mud can make you prisoner, and the plains can bake you dry. Snow can burn your eyes, but only people make you cry.’ What’s worse is I can’t shake these feelings in the back of my mind. I’m certain they’re not mine, which can only mean they belong to Osiah. I feel rage and a kind of fog. There’s something behind the fog but I just can’t pick up what it is, but it’s dark and if I’m honest, scares me a little bit. I would know for certain what it was if our bond was completed but Osiah made it clear that won’t be happening, not that he bothered to tell me why. I finally decide I’m done crying over him and jump in the shower in hopes I can clean off the feeling of rejection that is seeping into my skin like poison. I turn up the heat in the shower and will the s
“And this has been happening every night?” Ceren asks in concern. I take a sip of my Turkish coffee and bite into some freshly baked bread with sweet butter on top and swallow before I speak. “Not every night, but it has been getting more frequent.” “And you believe mother knows what’s going on?” “She has to. She sounded afraid for me, either because she didn’t see this coming, or she has seen something terrible happening to me. I don’t know which,” I shrug. “You’re taking this awful well,” says Ceren sceptically. “Hardly. I just acknowledge that it is happening.” I sit back in my chair, leaning my head back and let the afternoon sun warm my skin. We’ve been sitting at one of the dining spots in the garden so I could fill Ceren in on all the latest drama that has unfolded in my life recently. Including last night’s events. “But you said Osiah somehow shielded you last night. Any idea how he did that?” she asks curiously. I shake my head, “Not a clue. I would have asked him, but
Time seems to be standing still. I don’t know if it’s been hours or minutes sitting in the infirmary. It doesn’t even seem to matter. I can hear the movement and conversations of my sisters, but I can’t make out the words. I can hear the sounds of sobbing as my sisters grieve our loss, but the loudest cries come from Aulen. She hasn’t stopped wailing since I brought Nuray’s body into the infirmary. She keeps trying to heal her, but healing the dead is beyond her abilities. I just continue to sit by the bed holding Nuray’s hand in mine, and as time goes on her hand grows colder and colder, but I can’t let go. She was always there for me; I can’t leave her now. I won’t abandon her like that. “There. Took some time but she’s completely healed now,” says Arthwin. I breathe a sigh of relief knowing my sister Ece will be okay, but the pain in my heart doesn’t go away. If I had gotten there sooner, Nuray might still be alive. “Thank you, Arthwin,” says Feray. “Any idea what did this?” he