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A Rhapsody for the Playboy Chapter Forty-Two
Chapter 42 – Jayler I guess I was being internally and subconsciously expecting for Joyce to react intrepidly violent just like my dad and I was obviously wrong about that. Even with the current knowledge that she’s dating a bisexual guy, I was admittedly enthralled to think that she would be against me kissing a guy and all. It was really sweet to think that this was the first time that I’m feeling great and thankful with a family member reacting to what I said that wasn’t even a lie. “It just happened and I don’t even know that I truly liked it until I sat and thought about it for a hot minute.” I was stripping everything out fully naked for my sister telling her how I truly felt in the moment and she’s very much attentive which was so comforting in a sense. “Do you think I’m sexually confused or is this just a what most people call a phase and that it’s going to pass sooner?” I flat out uttered the words in its rawest form and I’m actually quite surprised that I found the right do
A Rhapsody for the Playboy Chapter Forty-Three
Chapter 43 – Lance Laying my eyes on Jayler, I saw nothing but the very same innocent smile that I keep on seeing from him every now and then. It was the same smile that makes me feel lighter and less agitated. It’s the same pure smile emanating from this amiable soul that seemed to have this magical vibrancy that never fails to make me abruptly forget about the rotten things that are weighing me down. It was just a simple smile quite frankly but it was a curve destined to create a radiant sunshine that would eventually decimate the cloudy and gloomy mood that I am in. I know it was kind of ironic that I feel magically lighter for the first time in almost a month and quite suddenly better the moment I noticed Jayler’s presence in the center front of the crowd. He’s the sole reason why I came back to feeling all dragged down, indescribably empty and much less of a person for almost a month and now he just showed up unannounced wearing that stupid smile on his face and making me subcon
A Rhapsody for the Playboy Chapter Forty-Four
Chapter 44 – Lance I wasn’t entirely sure if I’m going to take the initiative to go and see Jayler right at his table or if I should just wait for him to summon me. I know I should be the one to act proactively mostly because I’m the one who had a lot of questions to ask and the one who needed some sort of clarity towards this mess. My feelings are obviously hurt and I was left confused as goat on Astroturf without even having a sliver of hope that my questions would be answered in a matter of days. I was like a dough who had already risen but was left outside the oven because someone had just decided to order a pizza. Brushing all of those sad feelings aside, I feel relatively happy tonight but I guess I needed just a minute to get myself together. I need to get my shit in order and be calm as possible. Of course there’s no denying what parts of me feels. I’m also feeling a little bit mad that Jayler only showed up almost a month after ignoring me but I’m more than willing to swallo
A Rhapsody for the Playboy Chapter Forty-Five
Chapter 45 – Lance The crescent moon hanged perfectly above the night sky as Jayler and I set up the long wooden stool to a better spot where we could take a good view of the black canvas splattered with shining and glimmering jewels above the galaxy. Like every normal night, the air is rather cold and nippy but that doesn’t even matter because we came here to talk. Jayler sat at the very edge of the wooden stool which meant that I have to seat at the very edge just to create a bit of space. We both placed our beer at the center of the stool and stared blankly at the night sky for a long while. There’s smoke coming out of our mouth at every breath that we take. To have this serious and private moment, I decided to have this much anticipated conversation here at the rooftop of the building because it’s the only area where there’s the never-ending presence of silence. There are no people at earshot and it’s definitely a place where there’s no presence of distraction and we could only f
A Rhapsody for the Playboy Chapter Forty-Six
Chapter 46 – Jayler To say that I’ve had a needle plucked out of my chest was a typical understatement of the overall moment. While, yes it’s true that I felt a needle was plucked out of my heart when I first saw Lance for the first time in three weeks, it was when Lance first decided to approach and strike a conversation with me that I felt a hundred sharp spikes has been pulled out simultaneously. The feeling was substantially alleviating in every aspect and then by the time he invited me to talk somewhere else private which was at the rooftop of the building, the hundred spikes became almost a thousand. The soothing feeling was gradual but each time we level up to a much serious banter, I feel more and more free of the confusion and the fear. There’s no denying the absolute fact that I’m feeling rather ecstatic, relieved and even understood all at the very same time. Lance and I have been talking for the last fifteen minutes and while I’m the only one who’s been doing all of the t
A Rhapsody for the Playboy Chapter Forty-Seven
Chapter 47 – Jayler Lance stared at me pretty hard as if he doesn’t want to break away from it and the longer he stared, the stickier his stare got. This was the first time that I’m noticing how much of a good-looking guy Lance is and perhaps that’s because I’ve already unlocked this part of me that appreciates guys. It’s easily noticeable that he hasn’t gone to the barbershop for a longer while that his hair had grown way much longer than the last time that I saw him. His bangs were already long and wavy and if it weren’t for the black bandanna that he used as a headband, the bangs would’ve already covered his brown eyes. His patilla hair have already grown too but despite of the fact that he needed some trimming to look cleaner, he still got the natural looks to back it up. I tried to look away from his stare mostly because it seemed like it’s pulling me closer using some sort of psychic power but then my attention just went down to his bow-shaped lips. “I like you too, Jayler but
A Rhapsody for the Playboy Chapter Forty-Eight
Chapter 48 – Jayler I woke up extremely late the very next morning and I felt overwhelmingly incredible about everything that has happened so far. I don’t feel extra heavy anymore and I have this light air around me that I seem like I’m floating in mid-air for some reason. The rain had just transformed into a rainbow overnight and I guess I’m thankful for my sister in a way for putting this thought in my head that I won’t accomplish anything if I just ignore everything and that I’m the only person who could find the solution to my own predicament. But more than that, I had to give it to myself for deciding to go see Lance last minute and to be quite honest, I wasn’t expecting anything. I wasn’t expecting that it would be solved in a snap and I even had bonus—kissing Lance. If I didn’t go out to see Lance last night, I’m most certainly sulking under the rain right now feeling rather heavy and stressed out and confused. The first thing that came to my mind was what happened last night
A Rhapsody for the Playboy Chapter Forty-Nine
Chapter 49 – Jayler I was feeling this electric energy rushing through my veins and it was everything that I didn’t know I needed today. I feel like I’ve taken some ecstasy even though I haven’t really had one to know the actual feeling of it in the first place. This felt relatively new to me in ways that I thought I already know the feeling of reading a feel good message from a certain someone and it turns out that this feeling is entirely different. I stared at Lance’s message saying that he misses me for quite a longer while and a huge part of me just didn’t want to believe it was true. It seemed that I was still dreaming that it felt magically unreal. Perhaps that’s because I wasn’t expecting him to miss me so soon when we were just together yesterday. I guess it’s technically not yesterday because I got home at two a.m. after we spent almost an hour hanging out at the 7/11 store where I first met him. After drinking the bucket of beer that I ordered at Monroe’s, Lance went at th
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