Chapter 28 – Jayler I sat at the very edge of my bed deeply in thought. I was under the impression that I can finally rest but then I can’t deny the lingering reality that my brain’s still running its gears. Perhaps I feel disappointed because I thought I’d get away with this mess perfectly unscathed. I was dead ass wrong on that. It sucks that I have to be suspended for a whole damn week and that I have to do a month of service for the school when this isn’t entirely my fault. It’s basically a whole month of detention except I have to do some work and I don’t even know kind of work I have to do. Cleaning toilets? Carrying books at the library? Dusting off the windows? I can only imagine. While I do understand why Sister Salvador ended up with this decision, I am still distressed because it felt like it’s way too much. I know it’s basically a way to teach me some sort of lesson and it’s fair from their point of view. It’s quite fair. The only thing that’s making it unfair on my end
Chapter 29 – Jayler Lance grabbed a small stool for support as I stepped back to let him do his whole thing. I sat at the backrest of the couch arms crossed on my chest as I inquisitively watched him flipped the pages of the notebook. I guess he’s looking for a specific song because I could see his mind turning. “What should I sing?” He muttered almost inaudibly. He mutters a few words but then the look on his face make it seem like he’s not confident. He continued flipping, stopping every once in a while to see the song before eventually flipping it to the next page. “Oh, wait.” There seemed to be light bulb lit up inside his head. He closed the notebook, laid down the guitar with such delicate care before eventually going back inside his room. I followed him and this was the first time I’m going inside his bedroom. “What are you looking for?” I asked as he went to this cabinet and began looking for something. “I have written lots of songs before.” He replied. “I’m trying to look
Chapter 30 – Lance To sing the song that I’ve written years and years ago felt appropriately nostalgic and I’m feeling some sort of unwarranted excitement mixed with it, however there’s also a drizzle of anguish there. Just drizzle that’s quite good enough to make my head space out and travel my way back to when I was writing the song. I was heartbroken during this time and although I’ve been heart-broken before that, it was never about a romantic love. I wrote the song Bulletproof right after high school, right after I realized that Dominic had a tunnel vision for the one and only Valentine. I could still recall that specific moment when Dominic broke Valentine’s heart during our prom—it was emotionally anguishing to see them both run out of the gymnasium with genuine tears cascading down their cheeks. I would’ve pulled Dominic aside but I had already realized that he would never see me as something special. I tried to keep my cool even though deep inside I was falling to pieces. I h
Chapter 31 – Lance I wouldn’t say my passion had died out but I have to admit the fact that it had retrograded to nothing but a dying ember. Through the years, I gradually lost the urge and the impulse to write and actually finish a song. I forgot the reason why am I writing a song in the first place and I have no one else to blame but myself. Most of the time, I feel like an old and dilapidated guitar with some really old crusty strings that creates noise instead of melody. Perhaps that’s the whole reason as to why I have only started to write a few songs here and there but I’ve never really reached the point of completing any of them. I just write one song and then I will find myself losing grip of the inspiration and completely forgetting the reason why I’m writing it in the first place. And then I would eventually find myself writing another one subconsciously leaving the last one to rot. The cycle just goes like that and it repeats like a broken record. Singing my original song
Chapter 32 – Lance Valentine and Dominic got back together? The question burned like forest fire inside my head and I immediately felt a sucker punch in my gut that it had restricted my breathing path for a brief second. If I wasn’t standing in front of a myriad of suspecting eyes, I’d be breathing heavily and it would be showing on my face. This is such a wrong timing and I have to whip out the professional inside me and still give a show. It was honestly astonishing to see them sitting beside each other especially at a time like this when I’m feeling genuinely happy for the first time in a while. I know I said I’ve already moved past Dominic yet seeing him tonight wasn’t the right moment for me. Get your shit together, I whispered inside my head. “Good evening Monroe!!!!” Having a firm grip on the microphone, I opened up. I was welcomed with cheers from the crowd just as I was expecting. Even Dominic and Valentine cheered and I already thought I’m going to melt. “How are we all d
Chapter 33 – Lance “Hey,” I was greatly confused and somehow a little bit disappointed to see Dominic instead of Jayler. I didn’t anticipate him to come and see me at the backstage right after I just sang the song that I wrote because of him. Although to be quite fair, he didn’t know he was the sole reason why I wrote that song. “How are you doing, Lance?” Dominic asked and I almost thought I’m feeling nervous to speak to him but I wasn’t. I was actually happy to see him once again. “Good. I haven’t felt this good in long while.” I confessed telling him what I truly feel at this moment. I feel really good and I have no hard feelings left for this guy who’s standing in front of right now. I’m going to guess that he’s very much happy with his life right now and although I’m still struggling to find my soul, I’m happy for him and Valentine. “Did you really wrote that song? That was so amazing of you.” He trailed and I can’t believe the sound of reality that he’s giving me compliments
Chapter 34 – Jayler I let out a loud gasp as I let the tingling pleasure of the cold water drizzle onto my naked body. Yowling and squirming definitely helped me lessen the frigid sensation and my body eventually got used to the nippiness. I don’t know why I’m enjoying cold showers lately but it is quite refreshing and calming at the very same time. After twenty minutes of squirming under the cold shower, I finally decided to finish up. I woke up early today even though I went home pretty late last night. I wasn’t supposed to sneak out but I had this itch and urge to go out and see Lance perform at his gig. It was scary to sneak out last night since dad is home but I managed to gather enough courage to take a risk. I called Kenneth to come with me and he said no at first but it doesn’t take much for me to convince him. He’s never the adamant type of person when it comes to alcohol and having fun. When I saw Lance in front of the stage I instantly felt happy to see him under those di
Chapter 35 – Jayler A small part of me is secretly wishing that Lance should’ve told this Dominic guy that he was the sole reason why he wrote that harrowing and gut-wrenching song. Whether it’s intentional or not, I figured that he still brought down a torrential rain of pain and thunderous agony that was all poured into that song. But then I thought that’s horribly uneducated of me to wish something like that. Yes, it’s true that I don’t know the exact feeling of those emotions but at least I have an idea and I’m inclined to believe that that’s worthy enough for me to feel for Lance. However, I might have to change my point of view in line with Lance’s sentiments. He, himself had told me that he’d already moved past, buried the hatchet and whatever you may want to call it. And I guess I have to respect his decision. “I think you did the right thing.” I voiced out. It’s not necessarily what I think but based on what I’ve heard so far, it’s got to be the right thing. “I know.” Lance