The black card
The sun was already beginning to set by the time Ryan stepped out of his last lecture. The sky was a wash of burnt orange and gray, like someone had smudged charcoal across a canvas.
He paused at the edge of the walkway, watching students scatter across campus laughing, moving in groups, untouchable by the kind of darkness he’d lived through.
It felt like he was walking through the wreckage of someone else’s life.
Daniel was waiting by the fountain. He looked up as Ryan approached, offering a quiet smile. “You made it.”
“I said I would,” Ryan said, even though he hadn’t been sure this morning if he’d be able to handle being outside for this long. “Thanks for waiting.”
They sat on the stone edge, watching the water ripple.
Daniel leaned back on his hands. “You’ve changed.”
Ryan didn’t answer at first. “I know.”
“Not in a bad way,” Daniel added. “It’s like… you’re still you, but harder to knock down.”
Ryan chuckled softly. “That’s one way to say I’m numb.”
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Daniel shook his head. “No. You’re not numb. You’re guarded, sure. But I see you even trying. Every time you smile even when you’re scared.
Every time you stay instead of run.”
Ryan stared at the water, then admitted, “I still feel like Adrien’s shadow is following me. Even with him gone. I still dream about him. I still wake up afraid.”
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“That’s okay,” Daniel said. “Healing isn’t about forgetting. It’s about surviving anyway.”
Ryan looked at him. “Is that what you’re doing? Surviving?”
“I was,” Daniel said. “But now… now I think I’m waiting.”
“For what?”
“For you.”
Ryan’s breath caught.
And then a voice behind them shattered the quiet.
“Funny,” Chris said, stepping into view with a coffee in each hand, “I could’ve sworn I was the one Ryan texted to meet.”
Ryan grinned, tension slipping from his shoulders. “I texted both of you.”
Chris handed him the coffee. “You’re playing dangerous games, Ry.”
“I think I already won the most dangerous one,” Ryan replied.
They walked back to the dorm together Chris teasing, Daniel quiet but present, Ryan in between, trying to find his balance in a life that was finally, slowly, beginning to feel like it belonged to him again.
But that night, as he sat by the window, he noticed something strange.
An envelope had been slipped under the door.
No name. No return address. Just his.
He picked it up with trembling fingers and he opened it.
Inside was a single black card with silver lettering. It read:
“There are worse monsters than Adrien. And one of them is watching you.”
Ryan felt the world tilt slightly under his feet.
He turned sharply, heart in his throat.
But the hallway was empty. Silent.
Still.
The past wasn’t finished with him yet.
Ryan didn’t sleep.Even after Chris fell into a tense, protective silence beside him on the couch, Ryan stayed awake with the blue notebook open on his lap and a half empty cup of cold coffee by his side. His fingers traced the name Elias written in looping, ghostlike handwriting on the first page, over and over again. Every word inside was like a cracked mirror Elias’s grief, paranoia, longing, and obsession spilling out in fragmented entries.“He said I was special. He said I reminded him of the stars he used to look at when he was a boy. I think he wanted to believe in something again. I think he chose me because he couldn’t forgive himself.”“The bruises fade. But I still dream of the night he stood at my door with that look in his eyes. Like he already knew he’d ruin me.”Ryan shut the book.The words clung to him like fingerprints.Adrien hadn’t left the notebook for guilt or sentimentality he left it to leave a mark. To show Ryan what came before him. To show him what came nex
Ryan didn’t run.He wanted to. Every instinct in his body screamed at him to bolt get out, scream, call Chris, call Daniel, call anyone. But Adrien’s voice had dropped so low and calm that it paralyzed him.“You’re not him,” Adrien repeated. “You’re better. You care too much. That’s why I knew you’d come alone.”Ryan clutched the blue notebook tighter against his chest. “Why did you leave this here? Why show me this?”Adrien’s eyes flicked to the book like it was nothing more than a discarded memory. “Elias was… sentimental. He liked to believe the world had meaning. Patterns. Redemption.” A faint smile tugged at his lips, slow and cruel. “But the truth is, some people are only born to destroy. No matter how much they love.”A silence settled between them, the kind that made every breath feel too loud.“I’m not like you,” Ryan said. His voice shook. “I’m not like him.”“You are like me,” Adrien said. “But you’re still in the sweet part. The before. The moment right before the world de
Ryan hadn’t meant to return to the archives alone.He told Chris and Daniel he was going to class. He even grabbed his books and smiled like everything was normal. But the moment he was out the door, his steps carried him not toward the lecture hall but back toward the library’s underbelly a rarely used annex behind the special collections wing. The part of the building that smelled like old paper and forgotten secrets.He had to know more about Elias.There was something too deliberate in Adrien’s silence lately. Too calm. Like he was waiting. And Ryan had a sinking feeling that knowing what happened to Elias might reveal what Adrien was planning.He reached the far cabinet, slid open the top drawer of local incident reports, and flipped quickly to the right year. It took time. Most of the Augustine Street Case had been sealed or redacted. But Ryan found fragments bits of news stories, mentions of a young man who’d vanished after being linked to “a violent outburst at an unnamed re
The atmosphere in the apartment felt different.It wasn’t loud or tense just quieter. A quiet that made Ryan’s skin itch like something was lurking under the surface. Chris was in the kitchen stirring his tea absentmindedly, while Ryan sat on the couch, legs tucked beneath him, scrolling through his phone though he wasn’t reading anything.It had been a day since the envelope arrived. A single white square tucked beneath their door. No return address. Inside had been a photograph blurry, black and white, taken through a window. Ryan was asleep in his room.There was no note. Just the photo.Chris had tried to hide his reaction, burning it immediately and muttering something about Adrien’s money reaching places it shouldn’t. But Ryan had seen the tremor in his hand.He hadn’t slept well since.“I can go talk to campus security again,” Chris said, breaking the silence. “Demand they check the dorm cameras if Adrien’s sneaking in here”“He didn’t.” Ryan’s voice was low. “He wouldn’t risk
The black card The sun was already beginning to set by the time Ryan stepped out of his last lecture. The sky was a wash of burnt orange and gray, like someone had smudged charcoal across a canvas. He paused at the edge of the walkway, watching students scatter across campus laughing, moving in groups, untouchable by the kind of darkness he’d lived through.It felt like he was walking through the wreckage of someone else’s life.Daniel was waiting by the fountain. He looked up as Ryan approached, offering a quiet smile. “You made it.”“I said I would,” Ryan said, even though he hadn’t been sure this morning if he’d be able to handle being outside for this long. “Thanks for waiting.”They sat on the stone edge, watching the water ripple.Daniel leaned back on his hands. “You’ve changed.”Ryan didn’t answer at first. “I know.”“Not in a bad way,” Daniel added. “It’s like… you’re still you, but harder to knock down.”Ryan chuckled softly. “That’s one way to say I’m numb.”isn't i
The air in the chapel was still, caught between the softness of fading daylight and the quiet tension that clung to Ryan’s shoulders. He sat beside Daniel in the pew, both of them leaning forward, elbows on knees, like two boys who had outgrown prayer but hadn’t yet outgrown hope.Ryan exhaled. “What do you think happens now?”Daniel glanced at him. “For Adrien?”“No.” Ryan’s voice was calm, almost too calm. “For me. For us.”The word us hung between them like a lit match small, dangerous, filled with possibilities.Daniel didn’t answer right away. His hand brushed Ryan’s, not quite a touch, not quite an accident. “That depends on what you want.”Ryan looked down at their hands. “I don’t know. I’ve spent so long just trying to survive everything Jake, then Adrien… I don’t even know who I am without looking over my shoulder.”“That’s okay,” Daniel said. “You don’t have to know right now. But you get to find out.”They sat like that for a while. Outside, the last of the sun sank behind