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The question came out steadier than I felt. For a moment, there was only the faint hiss of the connection and Mason breathing on the other end. He didn’t answer immediately, and the hesitation told me almost everything I needed to know. “Mason.” “Iris…” “How long?” A rough sigh crackled through the speaker. “A few months.” From her spot on the other side of my dorm room, Ava stopped pretending to scroll through her phone. She already knew where this conversation was going. So did I. A few months. Not one stupid night. Not a drunken lapse in judgment. Months meant routines, excuses, carefully constructed lies. Months meant he’d looked me in the eye, talked about our future, and maintained an entirely separate relationship at the same time. “Iris, please let me explain.” I rubbed a hand across my forehead. “What exactly are you planning to explain? The cheating part or the lying part that came after?” “It wasn’t like that.” A short laugh escaped me. Somehow, every man caught doing something unforgivable seemed to receive the same script. “It wasn’t like that,” I repeated. “Right.” “I never wanted to hurt you.” Funny how intentions always arrived after the damage was done. “Who is she?” The question came out calmer than I expected. There was a brief pause. “Tessa.” The name landed immediately. One of the screenshots. One of the messages. Tessa Quinn. The redhead. “Does she know about me?” “Yes.” The answer came quickly enough that I knew he wasn’t lying about that part. Something settled inside me then. No surprise. I’d already burned through that. Just a cold, unpleasant certainty. I could almost understand someone getting involved without knowing the full story. People made bad decisions. Life got messy. This wasn’t that. She knew. “Wow.” “Iris—” “No. Don’t.” “Please just listen.” “I have been listening.” For two years, actually. Listening to plans about apartments after graduation. Listening to promises. Listening to him tell me he loved me while apparently building another life behind my back. “Iris, it was a mistake.” That finally did it. I laughed hard enough that Ava looked up. “A mistake?” I said. “A mistake is missing a deadline. A mistake is texting the wrong person.” I pushed away from my desk and began pacing the narrow stretch of floor between my bed and the window. “Having an affair for months isn’t a mistake, Mason.” The silence that followed was almost satisfying. Then he reached for the familiar weapon. “I love you.” A week ago, those words would have mattered. They would have softened me, slowed me down, made me search for a way to fix things. Now they sounded worn out. “Iris, please.” “No.” The answer came easily. No bargaining. No negotiation. No desperate attempt to salvage what we’d built. Somewhere during this conversation, I’d stopped trying to save us. I was done. “We’re over.” The line went quiet. Then, “What?” “We’re over.” “You don’t mean that.” “I do.” “You can’t seriously be ending two years over one mistake.” I looked across the room at Ava. Her expression mirrored exactly what I was thinking. One mistake. Months of cheating. Months of lies. Months of making me look like a fool while I defended him to anyone who questioned him. The absurdity of his argument drained away the last of my anger and left only exhaustion. “I’m done, Mason.” “Iris—” “I’m serious.” “You’re emotional right now.” Of course, I was emotional. What he meant was that he hoped I’d calm down and become easier to talk out of it. “I’ll call you tomorrow.” “No.” “Iris.” “No.” My voice remained steady, and for the first time since the conversation began, genuine panic crept into his. Not guilt. Not remorse. Fear. The realization that this wasn’t ending the way he’d expected. “You’ll regret this.” The words slipped out before he could stop them. For a second, neither of us spoke. Even he seemed to realize how terrible that sounded. Then I ended the call. Just like that. Two years reduced to a disconnected line. The silence in the dorm room felt strangely loud afterward. Ava slowly lowered her phone onto the bed. “Are you okay?” I shook my head. “No. I’m really not.” “Good.” I blinked. “Good?” “If you told me you were fine, I’d know you were lying.” Despite everything, a weak laugh escaped me. Ava crossed the room and squeezed my wrist. She didn’t launch into a speech about fate or silver linings. She didn’t promise I’d find someone better. She just sat there with me while the reality settled in, and somehow that helped more than any motivational quote ever could. Unfortunately, I made the mistake of looking at my phone. The screen exploded with notifications. Messages. Tags. Mentions. News alerts. Campus gossip accounts. Apparently, the entire internet had decided to weigh in on my breakup. Some people were sympathetic. Others defended Mason. A disturbing number treated the whole thing like a reality show they were entitled to review. Poor Iris. She should leave him. She should forgive him. He’s famous. What did she expect? I scrolled past dozens of comments until one stopped me cold. At least she got a scholarship out of the relationship. My stomach tightened. Then I saw another. And another. Different wording. Same accusation. As if everything I’d accomplished belonged to Mason somehow. As if years of studying, writing, interviewing, and surviving on caffeine and stubbornness counted for nothing. As if my scholarship had been handed to me because I dated a football star. As if my position at the university paper had magically appeared without the countless articles, deadlines, and sleepless nights behind it. I tightened my grip on the phone. I’d earned every single thing I had. Nobody had gifted me my future. Certainly not Mason. The comments kept multiplying anyway. Thousands of strangers suddenly acting like experts on my life, my career, my relationship. Against my better judgment, I refreshed the video. The view count updated instantly. 2.3 million. I stared at the number while the dorm room seemed to shrink around me. Two point three million strangers. Watching the worst moment of my life unfold on their screens. Ava leaned over, saw the number, and muttered a curse under her breath. “Yeah,” I said quietly. Because deep down, I already knew what she was thinking. This wasn’t the end of the story. It was the beginning.The second interview happened three days later, which felt both too soon and somehow overdue. I would have happily pretended the first one counted as a complete piece of journalism, but Melissa had taken one look at my draft and shut that idea down immediately. Apparently, an article composed of Dean Mercer answering in single-syllable words did not qualify as compelling content. She said it with a straight face, which made it worse. I tried to argue. I lost. So I went back. Practice had already wrapped up by the time I got to the rink, which was the only reason I didn’t turn around and leave. The place still smelled faintly like ice and sweat, and players were drifting out in loose clusters, laughing, arguing, already halfway into whatever came next for them. Ryan was in the middle of it all, talking to three different people as he had cloned himself. Dean, on the other hand, was exactly where I expected him to be, sitting off to the side on a bench near the entrance, phone in
The problem with finding a file with your name on it is that it doesn’t leave you alone afterward. It sits there in your head, quiet but stubborn, like something unfinished. I tried to ignore it. I really did. For almost two days, I kept telling myself there had to be a normal explanation. Something boring. Something that didn’t mean anything. Maybe it was tied to Easton. Maybe it was just paperwork. Some administrative thing I didn’t understand. Maybe Mercer Athletics kept files on everyone, and I just happened to notice mine. I kept circling those ideas, trying to make one of them stick. None of them did. “That’s creepy.” Ava didn’t even hesitate. I had barely finished explaining before she said it, already reaching for another fry as she’d just solved a puzzle. “It isn’t creepy,” I said, though even to me it sounded weak. “It’s absolutely creepy.” She chewed, unfazed. “A billion-dollar company has a file with your name on it.” “It could be work-related.” “It cou
Things had settled into something that almost resembled stability. Not the kind that erased problems, but enough that I could move through my days without constantly waiting for everything to fall apart. Tuition still loomed like a threat I kept postponing, my life still split awkwardly between Northbridge and Easton, and the internet still treated me like a storyline they could dip into whenever they felt like it. But I had classes, work, and a routine that held together more often than it didn’t. It wasn’t peace, but it was close enough that I stopped questioning it. That should have been my warning. Melissa didn’t knock when she walked in, didn’t hesitate, didn’t ease into anything. She moved like she always did—already halfway through her agenda before anyone else caught up. “I need a favor.” I didn’t bother pretending enthusiasm. I leaned back slightly, watching her over my laptop. “That depends entirely on what kind of favor.” “A media event.” Too simple. Melissa’s version
I almost turned around when I saw him, not in any dramatic way, just a quiet pivot that would have let me disappear back into the flow of campus traffic and pretend I’d forgotten something. It would have been easy—clean, even—but Mason spotted me before I could commit to it, straightening like he’d been waiting for this exact collision. Leaving after that would have been obvious, and I wasn’t interested in giving him the satisfaction of calling it avoidance. “Iris.” I exhaled, already tired of the conversation we hadn’t even started. “Mason.” Seeing him didn’t hit the way it used to. A month ago, his voice alone could derail my entire day, send me spiraling through every word and implication. Now it felt more like an interruption—unwelcome, inconvenient, something I’d rather not deal with but couldn’t ignore. “You’ve been ignoring me.” “I thought I was being subtle,” I said, shifting my bag higher on my shoulder as students streamed past us, laughter and conversation carrying on
By my second day at Easton, I had something that almost resembled a routine. It wasn’t comfortable, not yet, but it had structure—Northbridge during the day, Easton in the evenings, and whatever scraps of energy remained went into assignments and the quiet effort of holding myself together. It worked well enough to keep me moving. What surprised me more was how quickly it stopped feeling strange. A week ago, walking into Easton’s arena with a media badge would have felt like stepping into someone else’s life. Now I nodded at security without hesitation, navigated the hallways without thinking, and slipped into the rhythm of the place as if I’d always belonged there. Life didn’t wait for readiness; it simply adjusted around you until you caught up. “You’re late.” I glanced up from my desk to find Blake leaning against it, arms crossed, wearing the kind of expression that suggested he’d been waiting specifically to say that. “I’m three minutes early.” “Exactly,” he said, pointing as
Ava’s reaction came through the phone at full volume, forcing me to pull it away before she could permanently damage my hearing. She didn’t bother easing into it, just launched straight into disbelief and celebration, repeating the news like it might vanish if she didn’t say it enough times. “You got the job? At Easton?” “Yes,” I said, trying—and failing—not to smile as I paced my room. “Lower your voice.” “No.” “Ava.” “No.” Her refusal was immediate and predictable, and somehow that steadiness grounded me more than anything else had in the past few days. She kept going, talking over herself, emphasizing every word like she was announcing it to a stadium instead of one person on the other end of a call. “You got the job. The job. The one that could literally save your degree.” That part landed differently. Not dramatic, just factual in a way that settled into my chest with weight. I dropped onto my bed, pressing my hand into the mattress as if confirming something solid existe







