Alexa

I'm sitting here imagining all the reasonable things i could be doing with my life right now. I'm questioning myself what possessed me to even agree to sit here and talk with him when i should be at work.

Victor is going to lose it if he finds out I'm not there in ten minutes. I tap the heels of my leg continuously waiting for this agonizing torture to end.

When is he going to shut up?

It's funny how less than five months ago, i used to be this shy clumsy girl who couldn't stare at a person in the eye for more than five seconds, the girl who would never utter a single swear word not to mention plan someone's murder in my mind. Trust me i do that a lot now.

I'm trying to distract myself, so i think about many things, different things, meaningless this, all to get my mind off listening to anything he's saying.

Like how disrespectful it would be if i should just pick up my bag and walk out of this place without waiting for him to utter another word. Or i could just rip open the mini gummy bear pack in my bag that has been begging and pleading all night for me to devour.

God I'm getting cranky.

In my own defense you can't really blame me for thinking all of this crap right now because I'm only trying to distract myself from this self-centered back stabbing mother fucker sitting directly opposite me in this all glorious, constructive money oozing room.

As much as I would be rather spending my time doing something else right now other than sitting here with this pathetic excuse for a father. I can't. Okay, I can but i honestly don't even know why I'm here. instead of focusing on what ever shit he is saying right now Which I know for sure that if I actually paid the least bit attention to, would eventually turn into another episode of World War three. I check my watch for the what? Hundredth time in twenty minutes tonight, wanting nothing but to get the hell out of here.

That's right, ten minutes, I've spent ten minutes sitting here doing nothing, trying not to listen to whatever it was he was saying and keep myself together. Being around him always brought some kind of of discomfort to me and i hate it.

"Alexa are you listening to me? "he snaps me out of my trance.

"No "I say blankly, not trying to hide my lack of care and discomfort around him.

He breathes in a very huge breath and lets it out with a long sigh of frustration.

"Listen Alexa I'm trying to control my self here and you aren't really making that easy for me. "he scolds in a very dip and harsh tone.

I can feel the anger slowly crawling back up my skin.

"Actually I think if any of us here is to be battling on self control, it would be me. "I'm trying hard not to scream at him .

"I'm trying my best to be tolerable here "

"Well try harder because from my point of view. You ain't doing shit!"

"You will not speak to me that way Alexa "yeah. I mentally roll my eyes, of course not, you're my father after all.

"You know what? I'm done talking to you, i don't even know what I'm doing here in the first place." I stamp my fist on the million dollar table and stand to my feet. "if you don't mind I have a job I'm should be at right now. And as much as I enjoy your company "the sarcasm evident in my tone "I'm already running late." with that I'm storming off my feet into my very large and spacious room which also happens to be the smallest in this whole supposed to be mansion. What is the whole point of building a mansion when there is no one to live in it. And even when there are a few people, there is still no one.

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After what feels like a long hour of shower hair drying and a little makeover. I'm running as fast as my feet can take me, in my very uncomfortable heals and Skippy out fit .I'm storming my way into the one place I seem to have spent the most of my night at for the past four months now.

"You are late miss x" Jim yells from the other side of the bar the moment he spotted me pass the door. I just roll my eyes and head towards his direction.

The bar is full tonight, as usual. With a whole lot of chattering, which is the one thing I completely despise. All this unnerving alcoholics don't seem to know how to keep their mouths shut .

"Hey beautiful " someone smacks my ass that isn't really giving full coverage, considering how tight and shortly my skirt is hanging around my butt.

I turn around with complete disgust in my eyes. I've learned in all my time here not to get pissed off at situations like this because ...

One -it's only gonna get your temper out and then your temper's gonna get you fired.

Two -it's kinda like a routine around here now because clearly it seems these old fella's can't keep their hands to themselves.

And three -it's just really a waste of time really.

"You like that, huh? Doncha."it's that old Maddie and his group of disgusting old friends ,laughing at the way he always teased me.

"You know, you've got a really tight thing back there, why not show me a little peek and I'm leave you a little tip." His hand trailing up my thighs, trying to purge it's way into my skirt.

"I don't think I've made something clear to you old man!" I pull his hand away from me, twisting and smacking it hard on the table in front of us. "never touch me with those rusty fingers of yours again! "

"urgh..!! "he grunted "you Bitch "

And with a smirk plastered on my face. I walk away from them over to the blonde haired bartender pushing open a bottle cover and handing it over to the customer in front of him.

"Way the go miss x. You hit em hard. "he chuckles a little with his million dollars smile flashing at me.

And I thank the Lord who created me for giving me darker skin, if not he would see the red threatening to form at the base of my cheeks right now.

"So you were watching? " I can't help but ask.

"Well you've always had my eyes wonder around you since they fist day we met. "all at the same time serving a guy at the other side of the slab.

I swear I could have choked. The small liquor bottle I'm holding is so eager to fall off my very faint grip. But I know better. Victor would definitely kill me and feed my corps to the crocodiles.

"Two shots of vodka please "a cute looking guy who had clearly been waiting for me to fill em up while i was busy playing recap with mister handsome beside me says impatiently.

"Coming. " i give a very small smile and move to carry out the task.

I'm supposed to be a waitress not a freaking bartender. But of course.... pretty Travis is not always around to put up with his own freaking job. How very convenient that I'm here taking out orders while he's busy out skimming the roads of Maryland or probably shoving his tongue down some hookers throat .very Travis like!

I thought this guy was cute at first. Turns out i was wrong, his just a pretty looking perv. I'm forcing a smile on my face and digging holes on my palm as i hand him another fill. Not liking the way his eyes are so focused on my slim but thick figure, over my stomach and then my tits with so much concentration.

"Is that all or would you also like to order my tits! "that seems to zap him back to reality. But then there's a wide grin plastered on his face.

"is that also on the table? " I hear light chuckle coming from beside me.

None of this would be happening right now if stupid Victor didn't decide to fit us... Me, in body revealing atrocities. I mean... This is a bar not a goddamn strip club!

"I'm sorry i just got carried away " 'oh, you did!' that devilish grin has somehow transformed into an apologetic smile .he must have noticed my death glare.

I nod my head a little in understanding as he pulls himself to his feet dragging his bear along.

"I didn't really catch your name. " because i didn't give it to you dumb ass!

"Lexa "be nice to the customers is what Victor always says. And besides, the dude already hates my guts so I'm not planning on adding to that pile any time soon.

"Daniel "he smiled at me before finding his way out.

I turn around to see a laughing Jim.

"What! Why- are- you- laughing? "

"The guy totally has the hots for you! "he kept on laughing

"Yeah, whatever."

"I think your body is driving them all crazy "he's doing that absolutely sexy thing he does with his lower lip when he nibs on the side with his teeth and drags his thumb down the other side.

"Oh, shut up! "i try to hide my face so he wouldn't see the red tomato threatening to form around my cheeks. Not because of what he said but because he's absolutely driving me crazy right now.

"It's like i always say, 'you are irresistible "he smirked at me and went on with what he was doing.

My heart skipped a beat. The feelings I've been trying to hide for a while are swimming up to the surface.

"Really! "i can't help it "then why did you leave me? "the words just fly out of my mouth before my brain even registers it.

He falls silent. Not looking at me and not giving me an expression to work on.

"When ever i think of those words you said to me last two weeks Jim, it breaks me! "I'm trying not to sound so vulnerable "so i try to figure out, what went wrong... but, i just don't get it. I can't point my finger on it because it doesn't seem right! "my desperation swimming right to the surface.

I waited his reply. But... Nothing!

He just kept on starring at the glass on his hand with an expressionless face.

"Hey babe! "a sassy feminine voice is heard from a distance and both our gazes turn to see who it is.

"Hey "Jim replies.

Hmm?! Do they know each other!

Yep!!

My question is answered when the hot strawberry blonde in a flawless green dress leans over the slab and presses a kiss on his lips.

What!!!!

My mouth is literally on the floor. This can't be happening! No, no, no !

I'm panicking! I shouldn't be panicking! Why the hell am i panicking!

"What are you doing here? "he asks directing the question to the blonde now playing with his arm.

"I was passing and i decided to just stop by, grab a drink, and wait for you so we could go home together "

What does she mean go home together !

"I already told you not to wait for me babe i still have at least an hour left till my shift is over! "

Babe!

Now i think I'm going to throw up. Listening to them alone is building a lot of spirogira in my system.

"My boss is going to be pissed if i leave now "he is talking to her like he doesn't even know i am standing right there, watching .

"I know, so i will wait. And on the bright side, i get to watch you work! "flirty.. "you look sexy while you work "she winks at him

I can't take my eyes off of them and don't mind the customer that has been constantly trying to get my attention.

"Wait for me up front. I'll be there in a few "he replies after a few seconds of silence.

"You know you don't have to! I can wait. "

"I know, i just don't want you waiting on me. "he grinned at her.

"Fine "

I'm leaking, I'm leaking from inside out. I don't know if this feeling is jealousy .i have never been one of the jealous type!

As much as i hate to know that my feelings for Jim are still burning in deep,and he doesn't feel the same anymore hurt. But it never occurred to me that he has already moved on with someone else. All this while i thought it was just a misunderstanding ,and that things are going to go back to the way they used to be.

But this....... this is just is just too much to bare. And i stupidly kept on to him, thinking that we could fix all of this. But it was never going to happen after all. And now I'm just going to have to go through another series of heartbreak all over again.

Tsk Tsk !

That is the sound of Jim's fingers snapping in my face.

"You've been starring "he takes his bag and walks past me.

"Wait! Jim! "i quickly race out after him.

"You are not leaving me in here alone are you? "

"Look I'm sorry x but I have to go "

"No you don't! "I'm over reacting, why am i overreacting!

"You are overreacting x. You should go back in there now before something stupid happens "he is waving it off like its nothing! Like its a freaking air bug.

"She's the reason isn't she? " now that i think about it, the pieces seem to be coming back and making sense to me. There was never anything wrong with us. He just didn't want me anymore. And he must have been with her all this while. All the canceled dates, unanswered phone calls, un-replied texts! They were all because he was with someone else, and i simply waved it off like it was nothing because i was too blindly in love with him that i didn't notice.

The tears seem to find their way out of my eyes on their own.

"Yes "

What! He just said it like it doesn't even matter to him at all. I already knew that, but why did it feel like my entire world would come crumbling down, now hearing him say it.

"She's beautiful." Is all i can bring myself to say.

"Yeah ,she is ."

"What's her name? what does she do? What school does she attend? College? Where did you two meet? "

"For Christ sake Lexa that's enough! "he sounds pissed as hell. Nothing only by his harsh tone, but he called me Lexa! He never calls me Lexa, not even when he gets mad. I have always been x to him, just x, or xie or like he mostly calls me miss x!

God! Why am i obsessing over what he calls me in a situation like this!

"You were with her the whole time weren't you? "

"I can't do this Lexa "he is avoiding.

"I need answers Jim "i Push before he can go any further "you don't just get to tell me, we don't work anymore for no reason at all and then expect me to be okay with it, just to find you with someone else in two weeks! "

He's silent. just watching me intently as i ramble away.

"Why her? Why not me? Wasn't i enough for you? "he's still silent, and it's really getting on my nerves.

"Why don't you want me! "

"I don't know how you want me to answer that Lexa but that's just how it is! "