Chapter 8

Eleanor POV 

“Why can't I live a normal, good life like the rest of my mates?” I cried out in my room 

“Why are my things always different?”

“Ohh! Here I am thinking that I have finally made a name, I have finally found someone who loves me, I have finally found someone who will take me out of this pack” placing my left palm on my forehead with a heavy heart, I couldn't even speak properly cause I lost my voice while I was crying all day

“But no, Moon goddess decided to play her cards on me again.” Looking outside my window, I could see how peaceful the sky was.

I thought to myself, “Even the sky looks peaceful, just hovering around on its own without any disturbance.”

“What will it take me to be just like the sky?” I began to whimper while having all these thoughts hovering in my head

Alpha Hadin's one-time experience with me gave me a lot of hope; I thought that that was it, I thought that was me leaving this pathetic life. As I had this thought about Hadin, I felt this sharp pain like that of a knife piercing through my heart and creating a hole in it. Each time I remember that night, it's like a fresh wound has been created on my body.

“You shouldn't have led me to that forest, oh Moon goddess,” I said, as I began to let out tears from my eyes once again.

“I should have stayed with my fellow pack members, doing something and getting myself busy”.I looked up, took a long, lasting deep breath

“Maybe, just maybe, I wouldn't have gotten myself into this mess,” I disappointingly shook my head.

“Maybe I wouldn't be seen as a disgrace to my pack. Maybe I won't be in this situation where I'm being forced to get married to Alpha Jayden,” I spat out at the mention of Jayden’s name. It was as if it were the name of a cursed person.

Jayden is one of the most feared Alphas amongst the other Alphas in different packs. He is known for his short temper and cruel behavior. He doesn't show any mercy, not even a little bit of it to anyone who crosses his path. Anyone who eventually has a bad record with them already has it in mind that it's nothing but doom for them.

Getting married to this kind of person is not a nightmare. If possible, worse than a nightmare 

“But come to think of it, was my mother this way? Why am I so weak? Why am I a weakling?”

I leaned against the wall in my room towards the window blind, I was lost in thought. My eyes were closed as I saw myself going into the magic word of my thoughts, if eventually there is anything of that, such…

A few minutes to myself thinking, an idea struck my thoughts 

“What if I run away?”

I said to myself, immediately I gasped and covered my lips, looked around to be sure I was the one who made that statement.

Then I repeated, but this time I had brought down my voice to mumbling.“What if I just decide to run away? What's the worst that can happen?” I said 

“Nobody likes me here, so obviously my absence won't be noticed.”I was biting my fingernails, my bulgy eyes were bouncing from left to right like a thief that has been caught and is being hounded down.

Anyone who eventually sees me in that situation will look at me as a thief. Funny but not funny, I had already made up my mind immediately to run away from the pack.

“The thought of getting married to Jayden irks me a lot,” I said, keeping a face of disgust 

“I haven't gotten over the trauma of what Hadin did to me, and now they want me to go and live with a beast all in the name of marriage. “

“I can't do that, no, that's impossible. I have to act fast before anyone finds out”.

I stood up from where I was sitting, glanced at the huge mirror that had been placed at the center of my room.

“Jezzz!!,I look so….”

“I look so pathetic, what's with all this. Even thou I'm weak, I still can't settle for that Alpha, “I said to myself 

As I was about to move from that spot, I recalled within myself 

“Come to think of it, I can't do this alone. If I try running away without any help, I might end up being cut, and that won't be nice. “

“I'll need to let Maria know about this, only she could help me at this point.”

Maria has been my only companion in that palace since I was a little kid. She is the only one who supported me in all I did, and the only one who consoled me whenever I was ill-treated by my stepmother.

I could recall the countless times she had been of help to me in this palace. She continuously protects me from a lot. Whenever my annoying stepmother gives me huge work to do in the palace, other maids watch me and ignore me, not even considering the fact that I'm the daughter of their Alpha and one time Luna, but as for Maria, she doesn't even see me as an Omega.

She has been so nice to me and has been the only one who keeps my company in this place.

“And this is the major reason why I can't leave this place without her being informed.”

Already I was standing, all of a sudden I started feeling dizzy again 

“Ohh mine! Is this cause of the pregnancy or the fact I haven't had anything to eat since morning?” I held on to my stomach as it kept aching. 

I was literally in agony at that point, and it was so discomforting.

“I need to have something to eat, otherwise I might lose consciousness.” I still held my stomach as it kept aching; it was as if someone was using a knife to churn through my stomach. That sharp pain is what I can't even explain.

“Leaving this room at this point is nothing calling attention from the people of the place to myself, and I so don't want such a thing.”

“Since it's late, I'd have to sneak into the kitchen, look for anything available, and feast on it.” I thought 

I moved forward to my room door, just as I opened it and stepped

out a few feet away from my room, I heard a voice from behind.

“Eleanor………”