Chapter 03 - I'm a lost soul

VINE

I turned around and left. Arriving at my house, the sound of laughter coming from inside my house greeted my ears and it surprised me more than how fast I got here, and was now standing at the front porch, waiting for the courage to knock to enter me.

I wiped a tear that was straying down my cheeks with my left hand as I tried to even out my shaky breath.

I only prayed to the moon goddess that my parents hadn't received the news of my nudity flying around the internet, or else I'm dead meat.

"If I perish, I perish."

I muttered under my breath as I pushed the door open and slowly let myself in, my eyes scanning the living room.

The first pair of eyes that stared back at me were Miriam's, making my heart leap into my stomach as anger bubbled within me.

My mother sat beside her while my father was standing up, still in his pack duty uniform, which meant he was either coming home from his trip or going out.

"Miriam, what are you doing here?"

After everything she dared to come to my home. Had she not done me enough harm?

Besides, how did she get here so fast? I smirked. I guess it's because she shifted into her wolf form and ran all the way here. Nothing else explains it.

"We should be asking you that question, you little slut." My father's angry eyes found mine as he walked up to me and landed a heavy slap on the left side of my cheek.

Stinging pain arrested my cheek, as I stumbled backwards from the impact.

You worthless slut… Good for nothing girl…

These were voices from my past.

I was supposed to forget them. Erase them from my memory like they didn't exist.

But why did my heart constrict and my fingers tremble badly as I tried to control my labored breath?

"Father, I am not a slut..." My voice broke as I fell apart, seeing how disappointed my father was in me.

Until today, my father has never raised his hand at me.

He used to be so proud of me until now…

“Ye,s you are,” I could feel pain bleed into his voice, his eyes reddening, “I used to tell everyone how hardworking you are, and why they shouldn't judge you based on your wolfless character but…” he spread his palms, no atom of warmth in his eyes,

“No matter what you did, you would never be better than your late twin sister. Even in her grave, everyone's still proud of her.”

The silence that followed hit his point to. my core.

Worthless piece of garbage… Slut

"Even if you wanted to use those slutty holes of yours, couldn't you try to get the attention of the Alpha's son?"

He lifted his hands to hit me again when my mother sped to his side and held him.

“Please stop…”

Miriam who had been quiet all this while stepped forward and placed her palms together in a pleading manner,

"Beta, your wife's right,"

She lowered her gaze to the floor, her shoulders dropping to form a humble poise, "Don't blame her.. if you want to blame someone, blame me. It was my fault, I shouldn't have told you what happened.. I just wanted you to be there for her" then she sent me a chilling smirk that had me stumbling backwards, pain slicing through me once again at her betrayal.

How hadn't I seen this coming…

Her voice was soft, as she glanced at me with that pitiful look, her eyes misting over as she turned back to my parents with a sniffle…

My father sighed, "You're such a responsible friend for telling this to us," He withdrew his hand from my mother's and sighed, "I just don't get why she can't follow in your footsteps."

Miriam bowed and left our living room, while my father turned to face me.

“Leave!” He pointed towards the door, causing my eyes to widen in shock.

I fell to the floor, holding his legs as I begged shamelessly but he shook my hands off his legs,

“Get out of my house this minute, before I lose my temper, now!”

Tears rolled down my cheeks for the umpteenth time today as I bolted for the door, and ran as far as my legs could carry me, into the streets.

Suddenly, I halted, bending and resting my hands on my knees, and trying to catch my breath when the rain started.

It patted heavily, drenching my body as I looked into the dark sky like a lost soul.

I smiled a little, not able to differentiate between the cold rain on my cheeks and my tears.

Maybe I was a lost soul. I touched my wet hair, then wrapped my arms around my body as I shivered from the biting cold.

Maybe I was hated by the moon goddess.

A lone tear slipped down.

Because this won't have happened if I weren't wolfless in the first place.

Now I had lost it all.

My boyfriend. My family. And finally, a roof over my head.