Pain and suffering go hand in hand. It’s nothing new, nothing uncommon. My life had been nothing but hell from the moment everything changed for me at the ripe age of seven.
Yep, that’s right. I was seven when my world flipped upside down, so when I met him—you know, the one they tell you is supposed to love you unconditionally (a soulmate is what the humans call them)—everything was supposed to get better. Change. At least, that’s what I thought. That’s what I prayed for.
Nope. That was a lie.
I was fucking wrong.
It will never get better; nothing is ever going to change.
I am unworthy of love.
I am unworthy of happiness.
Forever destined to continue in this fucking loop of hell and misery, praying for someone to come be my savior. You know, like a good ol’ Disney movie.
Ha! Jokes on them…
Disney got it wrong.
Life isn’t a fairytale…
And this? This is my unhappy ending.
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Emilia’s POV—Age 7
Bang!
My heart stops and I frantically look around as I hear someone banging on the front door. My heart jumps in my throat and I immediately jump out of my bed and rush to my parents’ room.
My dad meets me in the hallway, and he looks tired as he crouches down in front of me. “Emilia,” he whispers, his voice gravelly. “I prayed I had more time before this happened, more time for me to explain…more time for you to understand everything going on around you…understand my decisions…but they are coming to collect their payment.”
“Frank!” my mother frantically exclaims as she comes rushing out of their room, pulling her robe around her tightly. “They can’t do this!” She reaches for me, pulling me into her arms. “I refuse to let them have her! She is only seven! The deal says when she turned sixteen…please, Frank, beg them for more time. Anything for me to have my little girl for a few more years!”
Tears flow down her face as she begs my father. I stare at them, my eyes pinging back and forth, struggling to understand what is going on.
What do they mean take me? Why can’t I stay with my mommy and daddy?
I’ve been a good girl…at least, I think I have. I have been cleaning my room and helping mommy since she is having another baby…her tummy is really big, and she struggles to do all the things like she used to—like pick me up when I am scared and have bad dreams. But it’s okay…she promised me once she has her baby, then she can pick me up and give me cuddles…
Bang!
“Frank! I know you are home; I can smell you! Hand over the girl if you know what is good for you and your mate!”
Fear…
My eyes water as my dad picks me up. He rushes to his room, pushing the door open. He stops in front of the hidden compartment in the room—his secret room, he likes to call it—and places me on the floor. He crouches in front of me. He grabs my chin and forces me to stare in his eyes.
“Baby girl, you have to listen to me. I need you to hide. Like we used to. This is a game of hide and seek, but you have to be super quiet, no one can hear you.”
“Daddy,” I whisper, “I’m scared, what’s going on?”
“Em, I know you don’t understand. I am going to try and buy us some time and then I promise you, I will tell you…I will make you understand. I just need you to do this for daddy. No matter what you hear, you don’t leave this room. Only if you hear mommy or daddy give you the secret word. What’s our secret word, Emilia?”
“Watermelon.”
“Such a good girl,” he whispers. He opens the door and pushes me inside, just as I hear a crash coming from downstairs.
A small whimper leaves me as I carefully listen to what’s going on outside the room. Daddy told me I can’t leave…no matter what I hear.
Daddy will come back for me.
He has to, right?
Seconds turn to minutes, feeling like eternity, before I finally hear something. My heart stutters frantically in my chest as I try and fight the panic building inside me. I hear mommy’s desperate cries and daddy’s angry yelling before it is silent for a brief second.
The door outside bangs open, indicating they are now in daddy’s office. I look out the very small, tiny peephole in the corner of the door, praying everything is almost over.
Mommy always told me Mother Selene hears all of our prayers and answers them. She protects us.
Right now, I am praying extra hard to Mother Selene.
She needs to protect mommy and daddy from the bad people that are in the house.
“Where the fuck is she Frank?!” An older man with dark brown hair, and dark, green eyes growls. His eyes scan the room, like they will hold the answer to the question he asks my dad. Instead of giving him the answer he wants, my dad shakes his head, refusing to give him the satisfaction of answering him.
“I promised he could have her when she turns sixteen…my baby girl is only seven…it isn’t time to collect your debt!”
The guy laughs menacingly, beckoning for someone else to step forward. I have to stop the little cry from leaving me as I realize he is dragging my mother by her throat further into the room.
“Frank, the Alpha is refusing to wait any longer. You either hand her over or watch as my men take your mate—and I promise you, good ol’ Joe over there has some pretty dark fantasies with pregnant women. I wouldn’t want him touching my mate if I was you.”
Mommy screams, tears running down her face. “Frank,” she begs him. “Don’t you fucking dare let them have her. I don’t give a fuck what they do to me. Just don’t let them have my baby—not yet.”
The old man glares at my mother, his eyes darkening as he growls. “You think this is going to stop me from following my Alpha’s orders?” He laughs heartily. “Not a chance in hell, lady. I will let them have you, make you scream while your mate watches, then kill you. If Frank still refuses to hand her to me, I will kill him to, then I will find your little girl. And I will take her. I never fail a mission. Your daughter has a bounty on her head, and I plan to fucking collect my due.”
Everything after is a whirlwind of screaming and cries. I can hear my dad’s anger as he screams for the bad men to stop attacking my mom.
They don’t stop, even though I wish they would. Each one of her cries tears through me and I desperately wish I can help her.
And as much as I wanted to open the door while the men hurt my mommy, I can’t. I remember the promise I made to daddy. I don’t want daddy to be mad at me.
It feels like hours have passed since they started torturing my mommy before they kill her and turn all their attention back to my dad.
My dad’s eyes are bloodshot as he stares at the man in front of him in defiance, still refusing to tell them where I am. His eyes glance to the door where I am hiding before they quickly turn back to the man hovering in front of him.
“Why should I fucking tell you where she’s at?” he spats, “You just had my mate brutally raped and murdered in front me! Not only taking her, but my unborn child too! Emilia is better off without going to your shitty Alpha!”
And those were his final word before the man snaps his neck. My dad’s lifeless body falls to the ground, his eyes falling to the cupboard where I am hiding at…
His face will forever be engraved in my head, and I vow one day I will avenge their senseless deaths.
Emilia’s POV—Eleven Years LaterAnother day, another dollar. At least, that’s how it’s supposed to be, except I never get paid for any of the work I do.I have been in the Black Claw pack for last eleven years and every day it is a fight to stay alive—to keep on going until I can find a way to get out of this fucking hell hole.Since my parent’s murder, I have been reduced to nothing but a simple common slave to the Alpha and his pack.That man who ordered my mom to be raped and murdered in front of my father and then proceeded to kill my dad? He was a bounty hunter, sent to retrieve me because Alpha Jackson placed a hefty bounty on me.Why you ask? Well, when you figure that out, let me know.“Emilia!” Luna Ismalda screeches from downstairs.I slowly rise from the bed, my joints aching from the lumpy mattress underneath me. I sigh softly to myself and look around the room I’m in.One day…One day, I won’t have to live like this. I just have to wait until I turn 18…one more day…then I
Emilia’s POVOnce I finish decorating, I pull back and look at my handiwork. This is the best they are going to get, but I must admit—it looks damn good to me, especially considering my fingers didn’t stop shaking the first hour as my body slowly warmed up.I check the time on the clock above the door and let out a sigh. It’s time to head back and get started on dinner. I imagine my attendance is going to be required at this dinner too, which means they are going to expect me to wear my ‘nicest’ clothes I own and serve them and their guests.Once again—it’s fine. I am used to it.The issue? I don’t like surprises and Luna Ismalda didn’t tell me which Alpha they are expecting. Some of the Alphas they host are downright fucking cruel. The company they bring with them, like their heirs, are even crueler.There was once this one Alpha who came with his twin Alpha-heir sons. They were having a mild disagreement, so they decided to come up with a way to settle their little tiff. How did the
Alpha Kade’s POV“Emilia,” Jackson barks, “show our guests to the rooms you had made up for them.” I am disgusted as I glance at the girl and see the fear in her eyes. One of the girls next to her inconspicuously taps her on her lower back, almost like she is trying to reassure her that everything is done. Emilia turns her head slightly and the girl gives her a small, barely noticeable nod. My guess? She didn’t know she was responsible for preparing our rooms.“Follow me,” she murmurs softly, motioning for us to follow behind her. I turn to look at the warriors and my ranked members. Two of my warriors’ step-in front of me, following directly behind the girl.I swear my men sometimes take their tasks too serious sometimes. I highly doubt this measly Omega could harm any of us, even if she wanted to. She looks severely malnourished and underweight. It doesn’t look like she has even an ounce of muscle on her.Whenever I leave the pack, I always bring four warriors with me as added prot
Emilia’s POV“What the fuck is going on?” I glance to the other end of the otherwise deserted hallway and see one of the guys who accompanied Alpha Kade storming to us. He comes to a halt in front of Kendrick, towering over him. “I will ask only one more time. What the hell is going on?”“This doesn’t concern you,” Kendrick growls, pushing himself off the wall. “None of this is your fucking problem.”The guy laughs and his eyes dart to me, momentarily softening as he takes in my appearance before turning back to Kendrick, his eyes hardening.“Whenever I see a man towering over someone ten times their size and punching the shit out of them, while she tries and fights back, it becomes my problem. What the fuck could a damn Omega do to you to warrant this kind of treatment?”Neither of them answers him which only seems to further piss off the man. He brings his fist back, letting it collide with Kendrick’s nose. A small smile spreads on my face when I hear the crunch of his nose cracking
Emilia’s POV I stand in front of my mirror, gingerly holding my shirt up so I can examine my bruises. My entire stomach looks horrible. If you didn’t know I am white, you wouldn’t be able to tell just from staring at my stomach. My stomach is a sickening black and purple. You can see the imprints from each place Kendrick hit me. I think back to the weird conversation I had with Beta Marcus after he stopped Kendrick from hurting me anymore. I pick up the gauze wrap I managed to sneak earlier after I finished prepping the main course for tonight. I try my best to wrap my ribs, making sure I am gentle, so I don’t hurt myself any more than I already am. “Fuck!” I growl under my breath when I accidentally squeeze my side a little too hard. “Emilia!” Luna Isamlda yells from downstairs. “You are supposed to be at the ballroom getting ready to greet the guests when they arrive!” I internally curse myself. I can hear the anger in her voice. I was hoping she wouldn’t notice my presence was
Alpha Kade’s POV “Marcus! What the hell were you thinking?!” I roar. My dumbass Beta just informed me of what he spent his afternoon doing, including breaking up a little tussle with that damn Omega from last night. “Alpha, she needs help. You didn’t see what the Beta heir was doing to her while the Alpha heir stood back and watched. I get it...you don’t help people, not since her. You refuse to take a chance on anyone, I get it, I really fucking do. But for fucks sake, you can’t expect everyone around you to be fucking heartless too! Lei—” “Watch yourself, Beta!” I growl as he starts to mention her name again. “Don’t bring her up again!” His face softens slightly before he continues. “Kade, I just want to help her. She has no one here—nothing. You didn’t see the suffering she was in and you didn’t see the look in her eye when I tried to help her. All I want to do is help her. Get her out of here. I don’t care what the hell we do with her once we get her out, but no one should hav
Emilia’s POV Pain wracks my body as I lay curl up in a ball on the dungeon floor. Fuck that bastard. I don’t know who the hell he thought he is by picking me up and carrying me back to that dumbwit Alpha. I gingerly roll over on my other side, praying the pain goes away soon. Everything freaking hurts. After Alpha Kade dropped me on the ground in front of Alpha Jackson (further damaging my already broken ribs—it didn’t help anything with me fighting him the entire way from the forest to the flipping ballroom, my dickhead Alpha allowed Kendrick and Ozara to choose my punishment. Guessed what I am subjected to now? Yep, you guessed it! Another fucking beating and I earned myself a week in the cells. Very cliché, don’t ya think? I’m in the dungeon. They promised me I would get one meal a day, one bottle of water, and a thin ass sheet to keep me warm, so I don’t die of hypothermia down here. Even though this sheet isn't doing anything to keep me warm down here. Unfortunately, this is
Emilia’s POV“What do you mean my new home? Will you not be taking me back to the Black Claw pack?” I ask uncertainty.“You are no longer a member of the Black Claw pack. Your Alpha should have broken the connection to you by now and if he hasn’t Alpha Kade will take care of it later,” Marcus answers me. Alpha Kade just stares at me, almost like he is examining me, trying to figure out everything he possibly can about me.“Am I your slave here too?” My voice is quiet and even. I know how this work. I am being sent to a new pack as a slave. The treatment is going to be the same. I am sure Alpha Kade has a Luna who is going to be just as dark and twisted as Luna Ismalda was to me.And then I will plan my escape from here and I won’t let the asshole Alpha stop me.Beta Marcus glances to his Alpha, a look crossing his face that I can’t seem to place before his eyes turn back to me, softening just slightly.“You are not a slave, Emilia. You are an Omega—there is a difference. And you will