LOGIN“I was fighting for my life and you were screwing my nurse?" I yelled, staring at them in disgust, “I am your mate. I gave you an heir, yet you got her pregnant.” I was going insane watching her big bump and a smirk on her lips. “Phoenix! You cannot blame me entirely,” Aramis repeated himself like a broken record. How dare he blame me for his actions? How dare he fuck my nurse and got her pregnant? Heck! I have seen her walk around in my crown. “I am leaving with my kids.” That’s when my decision made him let out a gasp and stare at me with teary eyes. He can now cry all he wants; I have made my decision. He will not see me or our kids again. .. Unloved and untrusted by her family, Phoenix endeavored to become the best warrior there is to protect herself and her pack. Only to have everything stripped away from her. Losing her mate, her father, and then her wolf. She lost everything and found herself caged by her second change mate, Alpha King Aramis. Just when a hope sparkled, her mate impregnated her nurse. Like her name, will she be able to burn and rise from the ashes or lose herself forever in the hatred of Alpha King Aramis? Will the ruthless Alpha King ever change and Phoenix as his mate? Follow on their journey to find out.
View More道路に立ち尽くしている赤いポストに、真っ白な封筒を投函した。
あれほど愛していたのに、もうどうでもよかった。 ポストの奥で、コトンと小さな音が聞こえた瞬間、雨宮真澄は自由になった気がした。
これを受け取った後、彼がどう処理するかなんて、もう真澄には関係ない。
ポストから離れ、一歩、また一歩と後退する。濡れたアスファルトが靴裏に張りつくような感触を返してくる。この雨も、もうすぐ雪に変わるだろう。そう、彼に、心を奪われた夜の、あの大雪の日のように……振り返ればまだ赤い色が視界の端にあるのに、真澄はもう戻らないと決めていた。
たった2年間の結婚生活。
幸せだった時間は確かにあった。出会った頃の黒瀬司は穏やかで、彼女の話を楽しそうに聞いてくれる人だった。だが社長としての責務が重くなり、離婚した妻が、自分の友人と親しくしていることを知ってから、彼は「離婚した妻と残してきた子供たち」への未練や「血筋」や「未来の相続」という言葉を、悪気もなく会話の端々に混ぜるようになっていった。まるで真澄自身ではなく、彼の人生計画の一部として彼女たちが存在しているかのようだった。それでも、真澄は彼を愛していた。
今、目の前にある、その優しさが本心から来るものでないと気づきながらも、司の笑顔を見るたびに「まだ修復できる」と自分に言い聞かせてきた。転機は妊娠だった。
子供を身ごもったとわかった日、真澄は震えるほど喜んだ。新しい命は、二人の関係を結び直す糸になると思っていた。だが、その話をする前に、司の口からでてくるのは、二人の未来ではなく、「元の妻との子供たち」の話だけだった。その瞬間、真澄の胸の奥で何かが砕けた。胎内の鼓動を感じる前に、現実の重さだけが覆いかぶさった。仲がうまくいっていなかったのも事実だ。
仕事が忙しいと言っては、家に帰って来ない日が増えた。司は「会社に泊まった」「急な仕事で遠方に行った」などと、その都度言い訳をしていた。同じ家にいても食卓の会話は短く、寝室での距離は遠く、互いの沈黙は気まずさで埋まっていた。真澄が話そうとすると司に掛かってきた電話で遮られ、司が語る未来にはいつも「前の家族のため」が主語だった。だから彼女は決断した。
誰にも相談せず、ひとりで病院の予約を入れ、手術台に上がった。手術前の問診票に署名するとき、彼女は涙も迷いもすでに使い果たしていた。医師には「年齢が年齢なので、次に妊娠できる可能性が、限りなく低くなりますよ」と言われ、看護師には「お相手の男性ではなく、あなたの子供として、よく考えてください」と言われた。しかし真澄には、結婚したいほど愛している、司にも話していない、ある“事情”があった。それには、司の血を引く、自分との子どもを産むことはできなかった。真澄は、「母になるため」ではなく「自分でいるため」に選んだ初めての決断だった。
手術後、鏡に映った自分の顔はひどく青白かったが、心は不思議と静かだった。その静けさの中で、司に向けた手紙を書いた。便箋は一枚。インクは黒。文面は淡々としているのに、書き終えた瞬間、指が震えて止まらなかった。それは未練ではなく、長く抑え込んでいた自分自身の声が身体を通って外にあふれた反動だった。
雨は投函前から降っていた。
冬の雨は重く、あの日と同じ雪に変わりそうだった。だが、真澄は傘をささなかった。濡れた髪の先から滴る雫が、これまでの自分を洗い流してくれているような気さえした。
手紙の一部を、彼女は声に出さず唇だけでなぞる。
―この手紙を投函したら、私はあなたの世界から出ていきます。 責めるつもりも、憎むつもりもありません。 あなたはあなたの人生を、私は私の人生を、生きるだけです。
白い封筒はポストの中でもう濡れない。
だが彼女自身は、濡れたまま立っていた。最後にひとつだけ。 あなたを愛した時間は本物でした。 でも、あなたの愛を待ち続けた私はもういません。 私は自由になります。あなたも、どうかあなた自身のために生きてください。
赤いポストの前で、真澄は小さく息を吸い込んだ。
冷たい空気が肺に刺さる。それでも苦しくはなかった。今の彼女は、未来を誰かに託す人間ではなく、自分で未来を選び直す人間だったからだ。コトン という音は確かに終わりだった。
でも同時に始まりでもあった。さようなら。 雨宮 真澄
彼女はゆっくりと歩き出す。
信号は赤だったが、心はもう青になっていた。 踏み出す足取りは静かだが確固としている。濡れた路面に残る足跡はすぐ雨で消える。それでいい、と真澄は思った。消えるものに、もう縋らない。
残すべきは足跡ではなく、自分の人生そのものなのだから。"Oh! And the kid who used to steal her candies?" Zion excitedly said, reminding us of a little quarrel Veronica used to have with this little kid because he would always steal her candies and would not even eat them. "Yeah! Keep bullying me," she playfully rolled her eyes and then looked my way. I gave her a smile of reassurance to brighten up her evening. It had been a year since we last fought with the wailing brides. The bodies were released, and it took us time to say goodbye to everyone and give them a proper burial. Aramis finally let go of Tanner’s body. I cozied up in his arms, sitting around the fireplace with the others and enjoying a beautiful evening. We gathered around to celebrate my baby shower. I heard from the doctor that I was having twins, a son, and a daughter yet again. We were all sitting on the floor with blankets wrapped around our bodies and shivering in the cold. Markus had found a mate, while Veronica was not ready to date anyone. She wanted to focus on h
Phoenix’s POV:As planned by Aramis, Morine was executed, and her body was thrown at the wailing river to get picked up by the wailing brides. Morgana was left injured. She woke up to the wailing bride getting attacked by the warrior. The horror she witnessed was compared to nothing when she died their slow and painful death from her wounds. She kept yelling for the guards to not leave her body here after she dies but they didn’t care. This was the first time in over a year that they had received a body. So the wailing brides came to collect the body, and that’s when Aramis attacked them with the sword he made with graphite.Since we had collected a lot of it before returning to our world, Aramis was able to make a few swords. That was the basic problem. Most of our guards were only going to protect and delay their attacks. After the wailing brides were killed, we knew they were coming.Since Aramis and I knew where they would be coming from, we had prepared our army to stand on the g
Author’s POV:"I don't understand why they're accusing me of all this nonsense," Hassel had been on the verge of tears since Mr. and Mrs. Heller read the case Aramis and Phoenix had prepared against him."So you don’t remember?" Aramis scoffed. "Let me jog your memory a bit with these text messages and audio recordings." He held Iris’ phone up and played the audio. Iris had deleted everything from her side.Silver had been staring at Zion, who was holding Iris close by. She didn’t think he would get fooled by her so easily. But then again, she remembered her own beliefs. It was true that the Alphas only want a she-wolf, not some witch like her."That is---," Hassel felt his throat drying up, "I do--- this is a huge conspiracy against me," he claimed, trying to get up from the seat when two guards pulled him down and held a gun with silver bullets to his temples. He was frozen in shock. It was happening. His downfall has arrived. Veronica and Markus were standing behind Phoenix’s couch
Author’s POV:Misty’s rejection caused an uproar because she denied leaving the pack and accepting the rejection. She wanted Markus to promise her he would accept her, and only then would she reject Hassel and leave the pack. Unfortunately for Iris, she had lost her baby. Hassel accused her of not taking care of his heir, but he didn’t reject her yet."He is going to reject me soon." She whispered to herself, crying for hours in her room and getting angry at her sister for her loss."If Phoenix’s siblings can betray her, how did I ever think mine wouldn’t do the same? She took my mate first, and now she's taken my baby." She broke down once again."What the heck was I thinking when I closed the door that day? I wish Zion had survived and was still the alpha of the pack. He used to treat me with so much respect. I was able to brainwash him so well, but this Hassel, he is only hungry for power and sex. I will never be able to win his heart and neither do I want now," she scoffed at the
Author’s POV:"You are becoming so difficult to deal with. Why do you have to question my every action?" Misty finally yelled at Hassel after listening to him for a few minutes, complaining about her spending most of the money on shopping and then coming home to sleep and not even looking at him."I’m
"Hassel had offered me a good amount to get rid of Savia. When I arrived on the scene and tried to harm her, Tanner appeared out of nowhere. He started fighting for her and saving her. That’s when I started shouting at the top of my lungs that it was Tanner who did all that to her. Since she was ble
Phoenix’s POV:"The memory came back when I saw her in the wailing world. It terrorized me to my core. I can’t believe I forgot about it. I am sure it was the Moon Goddess trying to save me from the painful memory of that night." Aramis had tears streaming down his eyes while he kept staring at his m
Author’s POV:Years Ago:"Hush little baby, don’t say a word--- moma’s gonna buy you---," her eyes teared up when signing to her little baby boy Tanner. She was nicknamed Majesty after her beauty and elegance were noticed by many others. She was a Luna queen of Alpha King Nicholas Knight, but sadly, h
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