Chapter 5 - The Unexpected Kiss

•AHANA•

I wasn't bothered at all as I sat in front of my father who has several cords attached to his chest, his neck has been bandaged, it's what the doctor told me, which showed he tried his best to hang himself but fate wasn't with him and he was saved by the neighbor.

I was feeling stupid right now for even shedding tears on him as he didn't even think twice before trying to commit suicide because he found it easy to abandon me rather than be there for me. He is such a selfish man who can only think for himself, not his daughter, and I was such a fool, fulfilling every responsibility towards him so I can be his best daughter, so I could earn his affection that has been lost somewhere but now I feel nothing more than hatred towards him.

"Ahana"

I heard him, looked away realizing he must have opened his eyes, and now looking at me.

"What do you want?" I asked coldly, turning away as I heard some footsteps.

"I'm sorry, beta," He said in a cracked voice as I just scoffed and get off the stool.

"I don't need your fake sorry" I scoffed, wanting to leave when a pair of hands wrapped around me.

It was like the person saved me from falling because I had almost run into him, sometimes I just forgot that I am blind but then I smelled something intoxicating. It was surely a man as I could see through my blur eyes and his manly smell was too strong that I couldn't deny it and felt captivated.

"Can't you just walk properly?" His hoarse voice dripped with irritation as he pushed me gently away.

My eyes frowned at his sass but didn't say anything as it was my fault to find him attractive, honestly, Doctor Elijah is really attractive since he is polite and a gentleman, unlike this guy, such a broody personality.

"Ajax, why are you here?" A familiar voice echoed from the other side.

My eyes followed a blurry figure of a man standing in the door frame and then he stepped towards us.

It's Elijah...

Honestly, my heart blossomed at heeding his presence because it calms me but then I look at the man in front of me whose smell is driving me crazy, whose eyes are burning my whole skin even though I can't see it but my body is feeling it which is insane since I only met him two times, a few hours back I pushed him off and now.

"Elijah, I was here just to confirm something and now I know, this woman is worthless of my time"

My mouth hung open at his defiant words as the next my hand instinctively hits his cheek, causing a loud voice to echo throughout the whole room.

"Don't you dare to disrespect me" I yelled but gasped when I was pinned to the wall.

My breathing intensified when I felt his eyes fixated on me, his face moving closer to mine and now there is only a centimeter gap between our bodies, causing another gasp to release from my mouth. If anyone other would have done this, I would have smacked the shit out of him but don't know why he feels different to me?

"Never do that or" His lips were now inches away from mine, "I'll do something bad to you, Ann".

I sighed in relief when he released me and I slumped against the wall, feeling weird as if something is flickering inside of me, something strange and telling me that I am not what I am right now.

"Are you okay?" A hand was assisting me and it was Doctor Elijah.

"What's wrong with your brother?" I asked him, curious to know about him.

My body is still feeling the warmth he gave me and then I felt a tingling inside my guts as Elijah's hand clenched my arm tightly, guiding me outside of the room and now we were in the hospital hallway I guess.

"Forgive my brother, Ahana. He's just stressed and being unnecessarily mean to you"

I rolled my eyes as we were walking further and listened to him defending his brother which somehow reminds me of Siya but then I felt his hand is now holding my wrist and I was surprisingly okay with it.

"Do you always cover his mistakes?" I asked, admiring his affection towards his brother.

"Always" He was smiling when he admitted this because I can feel everything he was feeling right now.

And also I know two things about him that are he's a gentleman and selfless.

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I was packing everything I could at the moment, in my mind I knew I have taken the right decision of going to Germany since I can found the cure for my blindness and also Siya whose face hasn't let me sleep for the past two days.

I am having these dreams about a lake, a song that soothes my soul, and then her scream asking for help, asking me to come to find her before it's too late so I have decided to look for her even if it's for settling my mind at peace. I just need to see her and about Papa, he has been back from the hospital and we aren't still talking.

"That dress is pretty" I heard Avi as he tossed himself on my bed.

It is his habit to annoy me so he just jumps on my bed and talks about everything he can to distract me since kindergarten.

"What's the point when I can't see it" I shrugged, sadness flickering on my face.

My whole life is blurred, the term partial doesn't put me at ease instead it makes me regret that it's part of my blindness because there is no point in having blurred sight because it's the same, I can't still see anything. I can not see any person's expressions, could not feel their sadness or be excited about shopping or fancy dates and it's all because I am blind and born this way.

"Come here"

Before I could comprehend, he hauled me a few steps towards the left where my dressing table is and now he was clenching my shoulders so I can only see my blurry figure with his behind me.

Avi puts something cold and sleek around my neck, causing my body to react differently as what I feel for him is still there and making me go breathless. His fingers gently set the locket straight I sensed it is a locket he has bought for me.

"You look very beautiful, right now" He whispered, his voice closer to my ear.

My hand clenched tightly around my skirt as I felt a sudden urge to kiss him. Even though my mind was fighting with my conscience, I needed to let it out and move on with my life without him.

I was aware that I am going to Germany, maybe for a long time and we both were going to talk less since he has a fiance and soon he'll settle with her but what about me, my pure feelings towards my best friend that has been haunting me for years? I can't just forget them and be on with my life. Right now I needed to do something that I should have done a long time ago, so now we would have been together.

"Try to see through my eyes, Ann, and trust me, you are very beautiful. I have never seen anyone like you before. The way you talk, your eyes shine and that confidence when you walk even knowing you can't see, no one can suspect a thing so how could you feel like that you're anything less than anyone?"

Words did not come, stuck somewhere in my throat. This was a lump I couldn't swallow feeling overwhelmed with several kinds of emotions and one of them is to kiss him.

I knew I wouldn't feel any guilt about losing my first kiss to my best friend.

"Ann," He spoke more quietly, his low voice sounding velvety and hoarse.

I was looking at his blurry face, knowing he didn't mean to tempt me but I couldn't take it anymore so I turned and neared to him, inhaling his scent that has always attracted me.

No Ann, shake it off just shake it off...

But it wasn't working anymore, as I just leaned toward him. He did not push me away maybe because he was just too shocked or too confused to react.

I was confused too unable to understand what he wanted: to get away from me, or to get closer?

"Avi, I felt something for you for a long time, and trust me, I tried so hard to not think about it, to move on and forget you knowing that you're engaged and in love with Riya but I need to do this, forgive me"

His large hand softly slid to my cheek and gently caressed it making my heart flicker.

"I'm sorry Ann but this isn't right"

He pulled away, shattering my heart into pieces but I followed him towards the door while counting my steps before he could leave I leaped to grab him and cupped his face with my fingers on his clean-shaven soft chin and kissed him and he kissed me back despite all the denial which blossomed in my heart to another level as I have fulfilled my wish to kiss him even it's a goodbye one.

Hundreds of butterflies fluttered in my stomach as I kissed him gently, slowly, as if I expected him to push me away but he did not which is surprising. To reach his level, I tiptoed so that he did not have to bend down and timidly parted my lips in response. I gently grazed the hand with which he was touching my back.

My movement drew a sudden sigh of pleasure from his lips. My kiss grew bolder and more persistent, as long-awaited and impossible to resist as it was. I caught his breath with my lips which is sucking his bottom one.

Melted in his incredible scent which seems similar but not his, as if he is not my best friend Avi but someone familiar with whom I am comfortable. But I was enjoying this moment of devotion to me and me alone.

I find it lovely when he didn't dare to hug me or touch me anywhere inappropriate. He was like a gentleman, just letting me fulfill my wish to kiss him. Avi only touched me with his lips, holding his finger on my chin.

"This wasn't right in any manner"

A hoarse whisper hit my lips in the form of cold water of truth splashed over my head because he wasn't my Avi.

The Fuck! Did I just kiss my doctor, not my best friend?

Perplexed, I could only let out his name which was coming as a mere whisper. 

"Elijah"