LOGINIVARA
“What makes you think you should eat that when you didn’t spend a dime on it?”
“You're useless!”
“You should be dead! I blame Loyd for bringing this crap into our world!”
“Look around, does anyone here live without a wolf? Even the Omegas are above you!” My stepmother, Maybelline’s insults and taunts over the years kept echoing, over and over in my head.
Why do they hate me so much? I’m always trying. I just want to live. Is that so wrong?
But finally, at this point, I realized that nothing I did mattered to my family. No kindness, no hard work.
After all, I was just the child from my father’s affair with a human, probably cursed to be wolfless. What did I expect?
“Families aren't allowed in the Dark Hell, so I guess this is the part where we say our goodbyes, sister.” Dahlia’s voice snapped me from my thoughts.
Together, her and Adrian turned their backs on me and began leaving.
“Wait!” I scrambled to my feet, the weakness in me dispersing instantly.
“You can’t leave me here! Adrian!” I clung to his shirt desperately, realizing the urgency of the matter.
I expected more mocks and taunts. After all, I was used to it but instead, a punch was hurled at my face.
The force threw me backwards. My head snapped to the side; a sharp, hot pain seared through my face, mixed with the steady splitting ache in my skull.
This was nothing like the beating and punches father had always given me. It was brutal. I almost couldn't feel my face anymore.
“How dare you?” Adrian snarled, surprising me.
The punch wasn’t the shocker, it was the realization that he hadn’t even hesitated.
I had never seen him that mad before. The way he looked at me now was nothing like that soft, affectionate gaze I had always received in the past. Was this how much I disgusted him?
Either way, the punch and pain was nothing compared to the freedom I yearned for.
I spat out the blood in my mouth, then hurriedly crawled over to Dahlia, wrapping my palms around her ankle.
“Please, Dahlia! I promise, I'd work to sponsor your wedding and even give you my savings. Don't…” I didn't even get to finish my speech when I was kicked across the face and my body slammed against the wall.
“Please, please…” I cried out in desperation. I just needed someone… anyone, to choose me for once.
They only walked out and locked the door behind them.
Blood seeped out of my mouth, staining the ground. Even my left eye throbbed and ran blurredly. It seemed useless.
I crawled to the door and began pounding hard on it while screaming with every fiber in me.
“Don't ruin my life this way, you've taken everything already, let me out!” I sounded more like a scorned woman, hoping for what was never to come.
My self-esteem, the craving for something better, the desire to be loved, they had taken it all and left only an empty shell which happened to be me. Yet I was still scraping and clinging onto that remnant.
I didn't know how long I had knelt there screaming out my lungs, but I was forced to accept that they were never coming back.
My mouth twisted into a bitter smile. “You have to survive, Ivara. You can't step foot into that auction hall unless it's over,” I whispered, pulling my hair hard.
The auction had to be tonight and if I were to do anything, it was now!
I wiped my face with the back of my hands, then stood up. I stepped back a bit then ran towards the door, ramming my shoulder against it.
I tried over and over again, each hit earning a groan and a whimper from my lips, but yet my attempt remained fruitless.
Then I heard the clink, something fell from me.
I gasped, realizing that I still had my hairpin up, and it was supposedly what fell.
A wave of excitement washed through me. I couldn't see because the candle had burned out, so I began tracing the floor with my palm.
Each second heightened the panic I was trying to suppress, and it distracted me a lot.
Finally, I found the pin and, without wasting any more seconds, I manipulated the lock. It only took a minute before the bolt clicked, and I slipped through the door.
My thoughts were hazed, I had no idea where I was or where I intended to go, but I was certain that I wanted to go far away from these heartless people who didn't think twice before signing me up for an auction.
Everywhere was dark, but I could see a bit, due to the rays of moonlight seeping in from the windows.
I gulped, my hands trembling. Fvck! It was nighttime already.
I rushed to the first window in sight. I knew better than to use the door, I wasn't that stupid. I had no time to search for anything to break the window, so instead, I used my elbow.
Shards of glass pierced my elbows and even when I tried to climb they pierced different parts of my body. In short, I was a bloody mess, barefoot and shivering.
I jumped through and began sprinting across the first street I saw.
As I ran, the screech of tires, the blare of horns, and the angry shouts of drivers all merged into a cacophony of chaos. I didn't dare look back, my gaze was fixed ahead as my heart hammered in my throat.
My breath came in ragged gasps. I could feel the adrenaline coursing through my veins.
I tried boarding a taxi, but none would stop for me. They probably thought I was crazy. I mean, who would stop for a girl running barefoot, all bloody?
As I ran, hope, as foolish as it was, was starting to creep in. But I had forgotten how unlucky I was meant to be. Did I suddenly think my luck would change?
“Ivara!” A loud yell of my name suddenly echoed from the other side of the street.
My stomach plummeted. It couldn't be. How was father here?
“Stop right there, you useless thing!” he bellowed.
I had barely taken another step when my hair was yanked back.
“You’ve got a wild streak, escaping and deciding to use the Dark Hell path? I always knew you were foolish but never to this extent.” Father rasped, pulling me across the street with him.
He didn’t just drag my body to the hall, he dragged every dream I’d ever dared to hold.
It was at that moment that I found out that we were right outside the auction hall. I had threaded the wrong path due to panic.
“Please, sir...” I whimpered. I didn't dare call him father, it would only make things worse.
His jaw clenched as he threw me to the front of the building while I fell at the feet of the guards.
“She's signed up for the auction and I want her stripped naked right here and taken into the hall.” he ordered the guards.
“Chains too, she's feisty and just tried escaping.” Father snarled, and the guards immediately grabbed me.
Ivara's POVI blinked rapidly at Xlynor.He filled my entire field of vision, and my lungs seemed to forget what they were supposed to do. With him this close, staring at me like that, the air just—left my lungs, and my thoughts froze.Why the hell was he even bringing this up right now, of all moments?A slow, knowing smirk curved his mouth. “Breathe,” he whispered.I swallowed instead, dragging my gaze away from his. I stared at the vanity like I had found something there that required urgent attention.“Kissing… kissing partners? Doesn't that sound a little too intimate to you? I—you can't just use that as compensation.” I pressed my lips together.“I want it as compensation. And it's only the top of the list.” He shrugged like we were discussing the weather.“That…” I swallowed. “That still sounds like a very efficient way to share bacteria. If you think a—”“Oh, you don't want to start with that argument.” A single brow lifted. “As far as I'm concerned, we've already shared plent
Ivara's POVI exhaled and switched the dryer back on, working it through my hair section by section. My arm gave out faster than I expected, aching within minutes, but I pushed through anyway, trying to rush the rest before my strength disappeared completely.Half my hair was still soaked when my arm finally refused to cooperate any further. It trembled, and then the dryer almost slipped from my hand.I gritted my teeth and tried to keep going just to get the worst of the moisture out, but the dryer felt like it was made of something denser than metal.Frustration boiled over before I could stop it, and without thinking, I flung the dryer away with what little strength left in me, not bothering to look where it went.“Can't you consider me? Can't you see I'm trying? Why do you have to be so useless and so mean,” I muttered.I didn't know if I was referring to my arm, myself or the dryer. I braced my elbow against the vanity and dropped my face into my palm.My head spun, and I found i
Ivara's POVThe reflection staring back at me looked like something that had already given up. I had just finished dressing up when I decided to find out exactly what I looked like. Unfortunately, the mirror was not being kind.I looked so sickly and exhausted. I cupped my face in both hands and pouted at it, as if that could shame it into looking better.“Can't I at least die beautiful?” I asked the mirror. “Is that too much? Why do I have to look this bad, huh?”No answer. Why did I even think I could get one?A sigh slipped out of me as I leaned forward until my forehead pressed against the glass. It was cool against my skin, which felt like the only cool thing left in the world right now.I knew I was dying. That part didn't scare me half as much as the not-knowing when — the idea that I could just collapse at any moment, mid-sentence, mid-breath, with no warning at all.I was staring death dead in the face, and the worst part wasn't even the dying. It was dying having done nothin
Xlynor's POVGetting to the study just to make a call had taken longer than it should have. It was the only place I could be sure of my privacy.I had dismissed Kali earlier because Ivara was with me, then spent the next stretch of time figuring out how to get some privacy.I finally found a way, but I had to run Ivara a cold bath, then wrap the cut on my own palm. It wasn't going to heal itself, with or without Ivara.Only after both of those were handled did I finally get a free minute to deal with Kali, who decided when and how to respond to me.I put a call through, and she picked up… eventually. Probably after staring at my name and considering if picking up was actually worth it?“Your lordship,” she said, honeyed and insufferable. “To what do I owe the honor of your attention and this impromptu summons?”I sucked in my teeth, honestly not in the mood for her false formality. “Do you take pleasure in grating on what's left of my patience, priestess Kalindra?” I started, struggli
Xlynor's POVThe other thing gnawing at me was the shift in Ivara's symptoms. Yesterday she'd been cold, constantly murmuring about it in her sleep and curling into herself like she couldn't get warm no matter what I did. But today she was burning, practically radiating heat through my own skin. It felt like she was being heated from the inside.None of it lined up. Was this the bloodshield? The residual effect of Kali's mind-core penetration? Or just an ordinary fever for whatever she was— if her kind even got those? Because this didn't feel ordinary. Heat rolled off her skin in waves, too intense to be dismissed as a simple fever.Above all, I needed her away from me before Kali called or showed up. I couldn't have a conversation with Ivara draped over me like a second skin — except getting her to let go didn't seem to be an option currently on the table.I exhaled and pulled the ice pack from her forehead, reaching for the cup instead, and guiding the straw toward her lips.Her eye
Xlynor's POVHer cinnamon scent had wrapped itself around every rational thought in my skull and was steadily unraveling them one by one. I needed distance. My body wasn't listening to me, my pheromones were spiking without permission, and I hated that I couldn't do anything… that I wasn't in control.To think that she wasn't even trying. She had no idea what she was doing to me.“Gosh. You've got a temper on you for someone so weak right now,” I muttered, forcing my voice to remain normal and unaffected. “Like the bed's going to swallow you whole,” I added.“It feels like I'm being cooked in a microwave,” she mumbled against my shoulder. “And that bed makes it worse. Just lay me on the floor, Xlynor… I like it better.”I stepped back from the bed instead of arguing further, and rather than lowering her to the ground, I shifted her from the cradle of my arms and up pulled her up against me properly, her legs locking around my waist, arms hooked around my neck, my own arm banding aroun
Ivara’s POVXlynor kissed me, possessively and hungrily, like he was starving, and I was the only thing keeping him alive.His hand tangled in my hair, holding me in place and heat spread through my body despite my terror.His mouth moved against mine with a desperate intensity that made my knees we
IVARA“He wouldn’t let me into his manor, yet he brought this thing here and even gave her a room? Who the hell is she?”The rants and screams filtering into my ear forced me awake. I stirred, my eyes fluttering open
Ivara’s POVXlynor and Zoya had already begun walking toward the throne at the end of the hall, like royalty stepping into their rightful place.Which, unfortunately… they were.I swallowed nervously and followed the guard.The moment I stepped inside the hall, the scale of it hit me properly. It wa
Xlynor’s POVI woke up feeling… strange. Usually, after a night when my demons surfaced, I woke up in agony—like my body had been ripped apart and crudely stitched back together.Sometimes the demons wouldn’t even fully release control. I would wake up half-conscious. But this time, I felt weak, ye







