31 ~ Aurora

Today was our first appointment with the gynaecologist.

When I dressed up that morning, it was with a heavy heart. It had gotten to this. The point of being questioned about my ability to carry a child.

Leo came to me just the day before and casually announced that he had booked us an appointment at a fertility clinic first thing this morning. We had never actually discussed it but who was I to question him?

I was yet to tell River about all this. She would freak out. I knew she was more than willing for me to call it quits on this marriage.

For some reason, I found it hard to speak to her about these things. I felt she would not really understand the pressure I had to face. We were the same age but I was married - a whole different ball game from what she was used to. Sometimes, most of the time even, I wished to be in her shoes.

"We're going to be late." Leo came in and jolted me out of my thoughts.

"I'll be right there." I said, trying to hide my reluctance. I hated having